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an august day

author's note;
it's been one year!!! lol

This chapter has smut (intense?)
If you're young or find sex uncomfortable you can skip this chapter but I think it's important to read it because of the character development.

Now I know most of you might think that Y/N has a mental disorder but I honestly think it's normal. I don't know what you'll think but it's my opinion. So please don't bash the characters.

You can comment your opinions. All I'm asking is to respect the characters.

Thank you. 💖

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Finally, you are back home. Your old bedroom is restored to how it used to be before. Your old desk is right beside the window and on top of it, on the shelf, are books that you used to read and an small owl figurine that you got as a souvenir from your parents' trip. You did not put the posters of your favorite boy band back on your wall and clip outs from magazines because you already grew out of it but you kept every single album and piled it neatly in your old bookshelf. You kept all sorts of things. Some, you don't even remember where you got it from.

All the memories of when you were a teen transitioning to an adult are in this room. You had your first kiss here too and, oh Lord, that wasn't a good memory for you. He was such an ass but your second kiss. Your second kiss was with Jin and it happened on the same night you got your first kiss. He was your ultimate crush back then and you remember, how you felt when you see him almost everyday. Your heart always went pitter patter whenever you stood beside him at the bus stop.

God, the things you did for him were completely on another level. What was running in your mind then? How could you have thought of those things? But it felt good. It felt good when he watched you and it absolutely felt amazing when you had him. It was a wrong thing to do, you don't deny that, however you don't regret ever doing it because that moment was your first step into womanhood. Becoming a woman doesn't just mean you are giving birth or losing your virginity, it's about being able to accept your own totality. It's about being confident in your own skin. It's about knowing how to use you God-given gifts and, at the same time, being in control of it.

Falling face down on the bed, you relaxed your shoulders and breathed into the pillow. No matter how you push it back down, you still keep thinking about him. How you want now in the same moment as you. He hasn't texted you since you last saw each other.

What is wrong with him?

He says he wants you but makes no effort to show you. Guys will be guys. Frustration was brewing in your core as you turned over and lied on your back, hugging a pillow. "Calm down.. he's not worth it. You have better things to do."

You sat up and opened your laptop, wanting to see if there's an interesting movie on Netflix or just something you can watch. It's a little chilly and your mood calls for a horror movie. You were about to start the movie as you get comfy under the blanket when you got an incoming video call from a person named Taehyung.

Hesitant, you can't decide if you should pick it up or just ignore it but you actually liked Taehyung. He's relaxed and easy to get along with. You accepted, hoping you won't regret it and you don't. As soon as the call started, his gorgeous face appeared on the screen.

He wasn't paying attention to you at first. More like he didn't know that the call connected. Taehyung was more preoccupied with his hands, restlessly fumbling over something. Finally, he noticed you and relief flooded his face. "Thank you! You picked up. I need help."

"Um, okay. Anything I can do?" You said, thinking this was so out of the blue but you just went with it.

Taehyung ran out of the camera's focus and came back with different ties on his arm. "I need your most honest opinion. Stripes, check or solid color? Which one looks best on me?"

"I think they will all suit you but it all really depends on what you're going for." You replied. "What's the occasion?"

"I'm going on an interview tomorrow." He sat down and you realized that he was in his room because his bed showed in the background. There were all kinds of shirts on top of it.

"If it's an interview, I'd say you should go with the striped tie. It's simple and, at the same time, it looks really good on you." You commented without hesitation.

Taehyung gave you a smile through the screen and then he leaned forward as if he was taking a good look at you, "Hey, have I ever told you that you look really cute?"

You got shy but you didn't want to show it to him so you tried to laugh it off. "Is this your way of asking for a second date?"

"Why not?" Taehyung propped his chin on the heel of his hand, still staring at you with a smile. "You know what? I have a friend who's very eager to meet a someone new. If you have a friend who is single maybe we could go on a double date?"

You were about to say something when your phone chimed. Your attention immediately went to it when you say who the message was from. It was a simple message.

Jin:
Didn't know you moved back.

You had a feeling that someone was watching you so you turned your head towards your window which was opposite Jin's. He was standing there with a hand up and a gorgeous smile to greet you. A little part of you was happy and excited to see him. It felt like you were back to being a teenager again, when you were crushing on him. You walked over to your window and drew the curtains close. Jin was confused by your actions. He thought he's gotten closer to you even if it wasn't that much, but he had to admit that he didn't exactly plan to put you in that situation. it just happened that way.

It's true that he did hook up often with women before but he eventually got tired of it after some time. Jin has never maintained a relationship with a girl without sleeping with them. It seemed like they only approach him for that purpose too and so it became difficult for him to establish a close relationship with any woman. He wanted to change. He was set on it. When he met you again, he wanted to be friends at the least despite what happened before. That was the plan, yet somewhere along the way, the lines got blurred out and he got caught up with you again.

"So, up for it?" Taehyung asked you again.

"Um ,maybe next time. I'm a little busy with requirements." You said and he replied with a shrug.

"That can't be helped since you're in your final year." He said. Taehyung is just a year older and he just graduated last year so he knows what you mean. "I have to go now. Just give me a ring if ever you want to hang out."

You said yes and then you both ended the call. You still haven't replied to Jin because you're still thinking of what to say and it doesn't help that you are overthinking everything. But you have to say something or else he'll misunderstand. He might think that you don't want to see him again which is not true. You do want to see him but you don't know how to play it out without looking so eager.

you
yes. my dad was reassigned to his old branch here. that's why we moved back but i'm not staying here that long.

Jin
is that so?

What? That's all he has to say?

Frustrated, you didn't reply to him. Your parents are downstairs, watching TV to relax after the move was finished. That was the normal routine and you're in your room, lying down in your old bed which made you remember all those times you had to suppress those sexual feelings that you thought was abnormal and bad for a teenage girl to have. But it didn't work because, deep inside, you knew what you wanted. You knew that you need it. You wanted someone to make you feel hot and dirty, make you feel so used up. At that time, Jin was the main object of your lust and you were thankful that he was there. He always made you feel hot down there and it burned whenever you suppress the urge to touch yourself.

However, all the guilt feelings washed over you right after you relieved yourself. It was wrong. You were just a girl and you were already thinking about those things. It wasn't normal at all but you had to do it. Until now, those feelings are still inside of you, burning inside. It felt like a hunger that needs to be satiated. So, you propped your leg up on the bed and spread your legs open as you slip your hand in your underwear. Your middle finger dipped between your folds and you began to rub yourself until your digit was soaked in your wetness. With the same finger, you gently rubbed circles on your clit and sighed as you began to put pressure on it, enough to make you clench on nothing.

You inserted your middle finger inside and tried to push deeper. You are burning inside. The pleasure was there but it still wasn't enough. You thought of Jin. He was still the sole object of your lust. You thought about him whenever you masturbate. Sometimes, you think about the things he already did to you and other times, you fantasize about the things you want him to do to you. You always get off in bliss every time you imagine his cock throbbing and begging to release its load inside of you. Yes, you love it. You absolutely love it when he uses you, when he couldn't help but pound your pussy until it weeps with your arousal.

Your toes curved in as you braced yourself for the climax, fingers pressing hard on your clit while you clench around plain emptiness. One hand groping your breast so hard under your bra as you bit back your moans. You imagined that Jin is hovering over you, sweating and breathing heavily, while he is lodged deep in your cunt. His arms would be holding your legs up and open to reach inside further in the opening of your cervix where he would dump all thick cum. And he'd stay there until you've milked him out dry.

Because all you want is to be filled up to the brim. These endless cravings for lust is never satisfied. That's how it has always been.

After a few minutes, you've calmed down and turned to lie on your side with your legs tucked in fetal position. In these times, you thought of how horrible you are to be succumbing to lust. You felt sorry for your parents. You wonder if other girls are the same as you.

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You were asleep the whole afternoon and you woke up feeling refreshed. It's been awhile since you had a siesta. You went downstairs and found that the house was empty and quiet then you found a note written on a memo pad. Turns out your parents went to your Dad's company party and because there was still a cruise, they'll be home really late.

It was almost 5pm. You felt hot because it was summer so you decided to soak in the bathtub. It was perfect because you're alone. After the bath, you returned to your room and realized when you saw your window that you still haven't replied to Jin. Was there anything to talk about though? The whole relationship is just about sex.

He said you can call him if you want to hook up but you're there's still a part of you that is reluctant to open up to him but, at the same time, you really want him. He didn't seem to judge you the first time. Maybe it would be fine. So you took the initiative to invite him over.

you
hey, you doing anything tonight?

It didn't take him long to reply. You just finished changing and drying your hair when he sent you a text.

jin
no plans. you?

you
my parents are gone.
want to come over?

jin
are you throwing a house welcoming party?
should i bring anything?

you
is this your idea of a joke?
it's not very funny

you
you dont have to bring anything.

jin
if you say so.

Jin was at the door after 20 minutes, armed with his usual, innocent smile. He greeted you as you eyed the small bouquet of flowers that he was holding out for you. "I told you not to bring anything."

"I feel awkward coming empty handed. Anyway, it's not much." He replied so you had no choice but to receive his gift.

You invited him inside your childhood and he followed you to the kitchen where you look for  a vase. Jin watched as you fixed the flowers in the vase and put enough water before placing them on the dining table, "This feels nostalgic. The last time I was here, we made out in your garage. Are you still mad about that?"

"A little.. I'll have you make up for it." You told him, grabbing him by his shirt's collar and pulling him to your body. You began kissing him and he kissed you back too, his hands not holding back from touching you everywhere.

Jin pushed you back against the table. He placed his face against your neck and inhaled your scent, "You smell nice.."

He spoke against your neck, alternating kisses as he pulled your top over your chest to reveal your breasts. Jin molded his hands over your clothed breasts and pushed them together, "Mm, I definitely missed seeing these and feeling them against my cock."

He pulled your bra up and used his tongue to lick your nipples, making you moan as you watch him. "I need you dripping wet so I can lick you all up later."

"Let's go to my room." You suggested and wasted no time to guide him upstairs. He locked the door while you take your clothes off, pulling your shorts down and your shirt over your head.

Jin also unbuckled his belt and zipped down his pants. You sat on the edge of your bed, pulling him close so you can take his cock in your hands and begin massaging his length until he was hard enough to put in your mouth. You took him all in and swirled your tongue around his tip, earning soft moans from him while he watched your face. He noticed that you opened your legs and your hand started to rub the wet spot on the crotch of your underwear. You flicked on your clit as you hollowed your cheeks around his hardened cock.

Jin grabbed a fistful of your hair and thrust his hips a bit. Your eyes watered a little in response but you endured it, not letting up on his cock for even a second. When he was hard enough, you pulled away from him and removed your soaked panties. You lifted your feet and propped them on the bed, letting him gaze at your aroused cunt as you rub a finger between your folds.

"I touched myself earlier." You spoke to him, eyes meeting his gaze. "I have been thinking about your cock the whole time. I can't help it.. I want to be filled with your cock."

Jin kneeled on his knees and positioned his face between your thighs, he placed both of his thumbs on either side of your folds and spread them open, seeing how pink your insides are. "You are dripping wet. Such a dirty girl."

He smirked up at you before he latched his mouth on your pussy and began to eat you out. His tongue occassionally flicked at your clit and you jerk your hips up to his face whenever you did so. Jin held your legs apart and over his shoulders as he sucked your clit and inserted his tongue inside you while your juices spread around his cheek and chin.

His gaze never left your face as you relaxed back on the mattress with your arms up and your toes curve from the stimulation that his tongue is doing to your pussy. Your lips hung open and you maoned without holding back while you rotated your hips against his face.

"I'm going to come." You warned him and he used his thumb to put pressure on your sensitive clit, his mouth alternating kisses and his middle finger thrusted inside you until your body shook.

"Ahh..." You shut your eyes closed and let out a loud moan as you let yourself relax.

While you get your breathing back to normal, Jin has completely rid himself of his clothes. You sat yourself up and threw him on your bed, mounting him. "Lie down and don't dare lay your hand on my body."

"Yes ma'am." He sent you a smile, his back rested against your pillows for comfort

"You have a condom?" You asked him and he said it was in the pocket of his jeans. Your searched his jeans and tore open the foiled packet. "I've always wanted to try this.."

Jin couldn't take his eyes off you as you put the condom in your mouth and sink his cock inside your warm mouth, placing the condom around his shaft. He found it so hot that he had a hard time preventing himself from pounding you against your bed.

You guide his cock in and sat still on him, imprinting the feeling of his cock around your walls and making you full of him. Then you slowly moved your hips in circles to feel him more, stirring your insides and making you sigh in the air. You propped both of your hands on his abdomen to steady yourself as you lift your hips up and bring them down again on him.

"It feels good." You moaned as you start to get carried away by your lust. Slick sounds came arose every time you send your hips down to take his cock in again, your pace was steady and slow.

Jin was having the time of his life with you riding his dick and taking control of him. He never thought of you as someone dominant. He's never met someone like you before too. All the women he was with loved being dominated. But you're different, you were more dominant but there are times when you let him take over. This excited him, the feeling of not being able to touch you even if he is dying to grope your body everywhere or grab your hair as he thrust his hips up. "You're fucking amazing.. your pussy is just taking me all in."

"you fill me up so fucking good, Jin.." You leaned over his chest and your arms on either side of his head while your pace quickened. Your hips moving well on their own and the bed making noise the more you bounce on his cock. You sat up and sank down on him again, throwing your head back. "Oh fuck!"

He grunted in response to you when you pulled him out to take him into your mouth again. Your hands massaging his balls as you try to send his cock deep into your mouth. You released his tip with a pop and pumped him in your hand slowly to not excite him.

"Fuck me, Y/N. Or let me fuck you.." Jin said, eyes half lidded and deep in pleasure.

You nodded to him and positioned yourself with your ass up, legs spread and your chest flat on the mattress. He rubbed the tip of his cock around your entrance first and nudging your clit before pushing inside. His hands gripped on your waist and immediately started to thrust his hips into yours. You bit your lip to stop yourself from making so much noise but you enjoyed it so much, you couldn't help it.

"Yes, yes, yes.. you're so deep!" You grabbed onto the sheets as Jin pounded hard into you. "I want to be filled with your cum. I want it all inside me please."

A smile bloomed on his face, "What a dirty thing to say.." he huffed out, rotating his hips against yours so his cock would reach deeper into you. "I'll give you what you want, Y/N.. I'll give you anything you want."

It felt wonderful to have your sexual frustrations finally satisfied. To have something bigger than your finger occupy your pussy. You didn't know what was wrong with you or if this is really abnormal. All you knew was that it felt good and that you need Jin. Only Jin.

He flipped you on your back and placed one of your legs over his shoulder, his eyes on your face, watching you come undone. You begged him to make you cum desperately and before you know it, your orgasm hit you for the second time.

Jin placed your leg down and put his weight on top of your body in missionary position which enabled him to see your face closely while he chased for his release. His breaths are fast and his rhythm began to stutter. "I'm also close."

You wrapped your legs around his hips and your arms on his back, clinging to him, "It's okay.. cum. Make me feel used and dirty.."

"Fuck!" Jin felt you clamp on him, trigerring his release. He busted his load inside the condom while still riding out his high, his hands found your breasts and kneaded them while he sloppily kissed your lips.

He pulled out and rolled over beside you, removing the used condom and putting it aside as he catch his breath. You both stared at the ceiling of your bedroom, silent. Until Jin decided to break the ice.

"I never thought I'd get to fuck you in your childhood home." Jin chuckled softly and you turned your head to see his face, "Heck, I didn't even think I'd get to have sex with you again. I thought you hated me."

"I don't hate you." You said, sighing. "To be honest, I hate myself more."