Season 1

Episode 15

Bio: when Andrew is hospitalized after revealing to his wife of his condition Grace world turn upside down...

~ Feather-Light Hospital ~

Song: Suggestion

By: orelia

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I was frozen, I couldn't eat, sleep, or do much of anything as the ride to the hospital seem so long and far away.

Staring at the back of that ambulance truck that carried my husband inside had my head in a trance.

Melissa was right beside me holding my hand the whole time as Kent was doing 100 on a 55.

Hell the whole entire fire team was behind us at this moment.

" we are pulling up now grace. Whatever you do you have to stay calm or they can reject you From going inside" Kent inform me before the vehicle came to a stop.

Everything that anyone was telling me at This moment was going in one ear and out the other.

Andrew was all I wanted, all I needed in This life and I can't be without him.

Not now.

Jumping out the vehicle I ran down behind the nurses, and doctors as the quickly ripped his shirt open and started to do more compression to get him to come too.

With tears flowing down my face I grab onto Andrew lifeless hand as I not once felt him grip back.

With Kent and Melissa behind my every step I tried to make out what all the doctors was saying but I wasn't understanding anything.

I just wanted my husband to come back to me.

Just as they was almost towards the operating room I got stop by one of the nurses.

" wai...wait that's my husband he needs me" I cried out.

" I understand ma'am" she frown " I'm sorry but no one can go beyond this point you'll have to sit out in the lobby and wait"

Before I could go off and force myself behind those doors I felt Kent wrap his arms around me and turn me back around.

" come on grace we have to let the doctor do their job now, he's in good hands I promise"

" yeah? And how do you know this huh?, that girl warned me she knew this was going to happen, that elderly lady that I saw she knew"

I knew Kent thought that I was crazy but he knew the gift that i had so it didn't phase him at all.

" you might be thinking that they caused this but grace..."

I quickly wiped a tear that started to escape from my eye.

" i am not crazy Kent. I know what they told me and this is my punishment.. that's what they trying to do is punish me"

Walking over to an empty seat I pulled my legs up close to my chest as I rest my chin on my arm.

All i could do was stare at those double doors and pray that I wouldn't have to send my husband into the Light.

I don't think that I could have the strength to do it.

A couple hours pass as I heard not one update about my husband as Kent did most of the talking for me because right now I couldn't move anywhere.

" I brought you some coffee from the cafeteria" Melissa said while taking the next empty seat beside me.

" i don't want it, I want Andrew" I mumble.

" and you will have him back, but right now you have to take care of yourself you want any food?"

" I'm not hungry Melissa please just go" I said with irritation.

She waited for another minute before leaning her arm over with the cup of coffee.

" here you have to drink something..."

" I DON'T  WANT IT!" I scream before slapping the cup down from out Melissa hand.

The coffee spilled onto the floor and I just curled up into a ball as I put my eyes back on the doors.

" fine grace, all I'm trying to do here is help. That's  what we all are trying to do at this point I love you but I want stand here and watch you fall apart I can't do that"

" just go home... all of you. I'll let you all know how he's doing when I hear from the doctor"

" grace" said Kent while walking back over to the lobby.

" please don't make me yell, I have no more strength left in me to yell at you. Thank you for being here with me through all of this but right now I feel you all need to get back to your lives"

" But grace that's my brother in law in there and I ..." Kent then felt Melissa tugging at his arm.

" let her be, she wants this time to herself then we should give her that. Beside the fireman's are all outside waiting for an update so we should go tell them. Trust me she'll pull through she's one of the bravest women I know"

Kent bit down on his jaws before slapping the countertop causing the receptionist to jump.

" okay... okay let's go" he said and I turn my head as they walked off.

I couldn't count how long I waited Inside this lobby hoping and praying for a doctor any doctor to come and tell me that my husband was okay.

Nothing... I received nothing.

I felt myself wanting to drift off to sleep until a soft touch brushed past my shoulders.

Looking up I smiled but that soon faded when I realized who it was.

" Ashton?"

" wha...what are you doing here?.. please don't.... No!"

He moved over before taking a seat beside me.

" he's not gone grace, he's in the in between right now"

" I'm not understanding, I can't lose him Ashton"

" I promise you that won't happen but he needs to fight and he's making it hard for the doctors to do their job"

Just when I was thinking something good was coming I get hit with the news that it's not looking so good and now I'm panicking.

" can't you help him? He can't leave me, he has to fight he just have to I know he can"

" he can I know that. Andrew doesn't want to leave you I know that grace but I'm only hear in case.... He doesn't pull through"

" don't you say that! , do not say that Ashton I love your brother with all of my heart an..and if he dies then I don't think I can go on"

" you don't mean that grace you have a purpose on this earth that's not quite finished yet"

Cutting Ashton off I stood to my feet and I know I had a couple of people watching me and at this moment I could careless.

" listen to me I will end my life if I can't be with the one I love. Andrew change my life completely he was the only man that ever understood me and accepted me for who i truly was I'm NOTHING without him, and you nor my sister or Kent can prove me otherwise"

Ashton sat there for a moment before nodding his head.

" I agree with every word you said grace but you have to have faith if Andrew knows what's really important to him then he will do everything in his power to get back to that. To you."

I pulled my hair from out my face as I just needed to walk and get a break from the lobby.

The more I stayed the more I found myself wanted to do the unthinkable.

Grabbing a bottle of water, I waiting in the break room where I just had a major break down.

Everything around me was moving in slow motion as I was mentally, physically, and emotional drained.

After an hour of sitting on the break room floor a soft knock on the door startled me.

" oh sorry" I said trying to get myself together " I didn't mean to stay in here and ball my eyes out." I told the nurse.

" actually I came to inform that your husband is now stable and you can go be with him now."

After hearing those words a big sign of relief came over me and i Just broke down again.

This time it was happy tears.

" you just don't know how bad I was waiting to hear those words you really have saved my life" dropping the water into the trash i couldn't do nothing but give her a hug.

She hug me back before telling me that everything was going to be okay.

" that's our job ma'am, to make sure that everyone can have that second chance with their love ones. I can tell you it wasn't easy but he's a fighter"

" I know and that's why his my husband" I mentioned with a big smile.

~ 72 Hours Later ~

Walking inside his  room felt so unreal.

I wasn't sure what I was supposed to say, everything was moving to fast for me at this moment.

I couldn't stand to see so many machine hook on him and needles in his arms.

My feet walked slowly over towards his bed side before I pulled the chair up to be closer.

" knock, knock" I heard from behind me.

Turing around I gave a slight smile as a women came inside the room with a clipboard.

" hi I'm Grace Myers " I stood before extending my hand.

The doctor gave me a smile back before accepting my hand shake.

" it's a pleasure to meet you grace, I'm doctor Scotland"

My eyes grew big as my memory went back to that phone call that Andrew received during Kent birthday celebration.

The name Nicole Scotland came back to my mind.

" I can't believe this happen. I'm so confused because Andrew was healthy.... He is healthy."

She placed the clipboard down before fiddling with her hands.

" I know right now is so much to take in grace, and believe me it's hard seeing someone you love laying in this bed or just being in this building all together but Um..."

I knew waterworks was on the way as it was hard for her to explain to me what really was going on with my husband.

I grabbed onto Andrew hand before nodded my head and then I turn back around so I can hear her out.

" go ahead just tell me doc I can get through whatever you about to lay on me" I inform her.

She took in a deep breath and being talking again.

" mrs myers we was able to get Andrew stable but the bad news is that he has a very bad heart and if we can't find a donor within a year or two then it's a possibility that he could....die"

" I can't.." I cried out while grabbing onto my jacket before I felt myself flopping down back into the chair.

" how, he never told me this" I said with shock

" he didn't want you to worry, I'm sorry that I knew about this but right now we have to look at the positive side of this."

" what caused him to pass out a couple days ago and please don't hold anything back from me this time" I said as my eyes stared straight into hers

" of course, the reason for the coughing up blood that lead your husband here was a massive blood clot that fell and block the airway to the heart and it made it difficult for any blood flow to pump it. It also was triggered from all the smoke he took in while trying to extinguish that fire at that high school Along with his lungs collapsing and with us trying to revive him and i will be honest it wasn't easy that also took a strain on him but he's a fighter and I knew that the first time that he came to me about his condition"

" so he knew and didn't bother to tell his wife"

I wanted to be so pissed and angry right now and just as I could feel my water boiling over I felt a grip tightened on my hand.

Song: don't worry about me

By: Aidan Martin

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" grace" was all he could whisper out and I just hug him.

I couldn't be mad anymore I couldn't cry, I just hugged him and held on tight.

" I'm glad that your awake mr myers I'll give you guys a minute to catch up and then I'll be back to explain what will happen next"

I nodded my head as I waited for her to leave out the room and my focus went back on Andrew.

I kissed his lips and Just the feeling of him kissing me back was everything.

" why didn't you tell me drew, you could have told me that you was sick and the Job that you do was even worse"

He groan as he sat up in bed while holding his chest.

" I.. I didn't want you to worry about me because I knew I had it handle.. well so I thought" he chuckled

" I don't find any of this amusing drew do you know how hard this would hit me knowing that you could have died.... Hell you did die and now your on the list for a heart transplant that's a lot on me... on us drew I can't lose you but if...."

" stop right there grace, I hid this condition from you because this is how I knew you would react, I didn't want to feel that i had to rely on my wife taking care of me everyday every second, I knew you had a life a purpose to live for and I couldn't be selfish and get In the way of that."

" I don't care about this gift Andrew, I love you and as for you being my husband I have every right to be how ever I want to be over you. If that meant giving my heart so that you could live and save life's and have a normal life then that's what I would've done and you knew that and that's why you didn't tell me"

We sat In silence for a bit and I just wanted Andrew to looked me in my eyes and tell me that everything was going to be fine and the doctors just had a mishaps but I knew it wasn't coming.

" what do you want me to say grace I'm not sorry for keeping this secret from you. I rather for you not to have worried so much about what's happening now because it was only a matter of time before this happened and you nor me could have stop it"

" wow, is that how you really feel? Andrew we been married for almost two years and you didn't think that this was something important that I needed to know about."

" grace I'm not about to apologize for not telling you I can't do that I love you to death do us part and I wouldn't have ask you to give me your heart so that I could live if I find a donor then...."

I covered my ears as I Couldn't hear or take anymore of this.

I was so lost and confused now.

" if you couldn't put your pride aside to have told me this very life threatening news and we could have gotten you help sooner than maybe I'm not the one for you" I said .

Drew brows lowered before he tried to adjust himself a little better but  he groan in pain and laid back down.

" grace.... I.. I didn't mean it like that... you are for me, your the one I want to spend the rest of my life with  but what good would it have been for me to drop that kind of news on you" he questioned.

" grace? Talk to me, look at me, Grace" he repeated but I couldn't look at him.

With my purse in my hands and my back turn Tears flowed down my face before I grab onto that door handle.

" grace I can't lose you don't do this please.."

" I think you said enough and right now I'm so drained and exhausted about worrying about my husband who clearly is not to worry about himself so i just think we might need a  break"

" wha...wha...what's that suppose to mean grace you can't give up on me i need you... I love you"

I could hear his voice crack and before I heard his cries I left out the room.

I broke apart as I could hear him yelling for my name and it made me cry harder,  but i felt my feet walking toward those elevator doors.

" Oh Mrs myers we haven't discussed the treatments and possibilities for your husband." Doctor Scotland tried to tell me but the doors slowly started to closed on her.

" Mrs myers" was all I heard before they shut completely.

Was I making the biggest mistake in my life?, I couldn't tell after the argument I had with Andrew.

Do I love him? Yes always will but where do I go from here.

How will I  tell my sister, Kent, the fire team I was lost for words but I knew the right thing to do.

I love Andrew but I wasn't going to wait around and have him become selfish and rather have me become a young widower then to fight for what's meaningful to him.

I wanted kids with him, I wanted to grow old with me and maybe we  will still have that down the line but what if I will never see that chance.

I can't bear even the thought of that right now.

My next step forward in life was coming faster as I stepped foot out that hospital.

What's left for me,  am I making the right decision.

Only time will tell.