"Absolutely gorgeous" Cindy said.

Cindy finally brought me my dress and I couldn't help but smile at how amazing and beautiful I appeared.

"Dude, you right!" I said realizing how the dress snugged my waist then flowed towards the end. Watch out

"I feel like, like an angel!" I gasped. Cindy landed her elbow on my shoulder. And we stared at me for a while.

"I've always new you'd come to your senses. You are beautiful inside and out and you know it"

"I guess, I was so focused on believing I was ugly thanks to Fijo, that I didn't try to be anything else"

"Well Fijo isn't here to bother you anymore" Cindy said as she swiftly took out her phone and snapped some pictures of me.

"What are you doing?" I asked bluntly.

"I'm sending it to Kendall" she said smirking mischievously.

"No! Why would you do that!" I shouted trying to grab the phone.

"Delete it delete it now!" She teased me with the picture testing me and my limits. She pushed me down and I fell on my back.

Cindy looked evil. Why would she do this?

"Done!"

"...no" I gasped shocked at what she has done.

"It's all part of the Kendall and Maya ship"

"The wha-?"

"Look he replied!" Cindy yelled. My eyes widened and I snatched the phone away from her staring with nervous expressions at the screen.

She looks hot

I covered my mouth in shock.

"He said I looked hot" I whispered in disbelief.

"See, aren't you glad I sent him that picture. Trust me girl I'm helping you"

"I do trust you. Thanks for all you do" I said crossing my fingers.

"Don't kiss up to me"

* * *

He walked me across the room then spined me around.

"Your getting better" Jay said as he held me to his chest.

"Thanks, but I don't understand why we have to learn the waltz?"

"You caught me, I just used it as an excuse to get closer to you" He said dipping me. My lips parted into a gasp as my eyes widened. When he lifted me back up I backed away.

"I'm kidding, relax princess. You are so serious!" Jay said as he released me and gave me a noogie on my head.

I laughed then fixed my hair. I looked at him with giddy eyes awkwardly.

"So I've heard a couple rumors" Jay said.

"Rumors? What do you mean?" I said. Jay circled around me making my shoulders tense as if he was looking deeply inside me from every angle.

"Well I heard you have been secretly Cushing in some Kendall guy and I don't mean to Bragg. But being a ghost gives me mad abilities. Like possession" He said fronting me again. I swallowed deeply.

"What?"

"Sorry boo, but I've been possessing you. I know what your thinking" Jay admitted.

"What! Why would you do that! Invading a women's space, shame on you!" I was furious absolutely mad.

Jays sly face became a little disappointed.

"What's wrong jay? Not the reaction you expected.

"Nope, sorry... Will you ever forgive me?" He said smiling adorably. I couldn't resist. He new my weakness, crap! I stood back. He put down a tough card. But now its my turn.

"I thought I could trust you, you really hurt me" I softly said. His smirk turned into a frown. Oh yea I got him exactly where I want him.

"Wow, I really screwed up" He mumbled. God he looked so sad, I must resist comforting him.

"Honestly looking into your thoughts made me realize how desperate I have been"

"What, no... Your supposed to be kneeling down for my forgiveness" I mumbled loud enough for him to hear. Shoot! Did I just say that out loud?

"Is that what you want?" he sighed and dropped to his knees. He took a moment before looking up and begging me with his eyes.

"Forgive me" he whispered. My eyes widened and my heart heated quickly. Wanting to sweep him off his feet and give him a big hug.

Yes I forgive you! , everything is alright

"I... I'm... I just, can't forgive you. Y-you betrayed me" I said as I walked away with tears in my eyes.
I wasn't crying because he hurt me. but looking into his eyes and seeing the sorrow was hurting him.

"Come on princess"

"I have a name" I said without turning around. I didn't want him seeing me like this.

"Right... Maya. Come. On. Maya" he slowly said as he took steps towards me.

"Go away" I mumbled turning my head when he arrived beside me

He luaghed.

"Your such a crybaby, why does a simple boy upset you this much?" He said.

Did he just call me a crybaby?!

"Excuse me? Maybe you and your small mind don't understand. But as a matter of fact I was crying about you!",I bursted out turning around. I quickly wiped my eyes to see him much more clearly. And he looked scary and mad. "I trusted you, and you betrayed me! I told you so much, I let you into my house! And then when I got upset you looked sad and I began to cry again. I felt bad for you... I felt your pain. I have a life to be sad about. You don't" I said.

"Your moms coming" he softly said. I could here that sadness in his voice. the next thing I know a flash blurs my eyes and he's gone. After that my mom came crashing in.

"What's wrong honey why are you crying?" She said. I didn't even pay attention to her.

I have a life to be sad about. You don't

"Oh, I'm fine, I was just trying to... Make... Me... Cry for my drama club. I'm playing as the betrayed friend who's fun other is a ghost" I said. No, I lied.

"Oh that's, wonderful babe. Just don't yell. You really scared me" she said as she stared at me as if I was insane.

"So, um... I'm gonna go. Good luck" she said as she walked out. I shunned a fake smile until I heard the door shut.

When It did I let out a breathe that was held tightly within. I stepped back and fell into my bed.

"Gosh, I'm such and idiot" I said. I just wanted to continuously smack myself.

"Jay... I'm sorry" I whispered as I looked up to the ceiling.

"Jay please come out" I whispered once more my voice becoming scratchy.

I stayed like that for hours. Until I eventually cried myself to sleep.

When I woke up I immediately walked to my bathroom without any question.

I filled the sink up and grabbed my favorite little razor.

I looked at my wrist bluntly.

"Here we go" I mumbled. The razor pressed against my skin and the next thing you know I was bleeding.

"Gah" I hissed.

"Stop!" Jay said as he snatched the razor out of my arm. He threw it in the sink and pushed my shoulders down onto the toilet seat.

He quickly began shuffling around for something in the bathroom and when he found my first aid kit he snatched my arm and opened the box.

"Jay... I knew it would work. I'm so glad to see you" I said. I didn't even feel the pain. My arm felt completely numb.

now I understand why people cut themselves when depressed. To feel no more pain.

"Maya, Maya! Open your eyes" someone said.

"What? I'm fine dude" I said as I opened my eyes. I saw Jays filled with absolute pain and tears.

"God, why would you do this. I'm furious Maya. If you got hurt... Fuck.." He said. My vision was blurry as I brought my hands up to jays Jaw. My hands cupped his perfectly.

"Don't... Don't cry" I said with a smile.

"Its just a cut" I looked down and saw all the blood that was dripping onto the cloth below my arm. "What? That's my blood?" I said as my vision came back. My heart raced in fear.

"Maya?"

"Ow... Its hurts so much" I groaned in realization

"Why did you do this?" jay said. The box was empty it only had cotton, alcohol and 3 feet of bandages.

"What first aid kit doesn't have band aids!" He shouted. He cursed once more as he grabbed the cotton and put it on the cut he then took the bandages and wrapped them around my arm.

"Ow... I'm so stupid" I cried. When Jay finished he wiped my tears away and hugged me.

"Your not stupid. I was"

"No I am" I argued

"I called you a crybaby" he said

"I bragged about being alive!" I snapped.

"I invaded your space!"

"Well I made you... bend down" I fought. I totally lost.
He stared at me and then broke out into laughter. I did afterwards.

"...What is wrong with me?" I laughed

"Bending down isn't cruel..." Jay laughed.

We laughed for a while but quited down

"I can't believe you would cut yourself" Jay said.

"I almost did that already"

"Yeah but I was able to stop you. I thought you learned Your lesson?"

"I just wanted to get your attention..." I said. I felt guilty I was guilty. Jay has tried his hardest to keep me happy but I've done nothing but screw it up.

He sighed I quickly hugged him. He reminded me of my dad. Is that weird. I hope not because it feels right. My dad always took care of me just like Jay. And I loved my dad.

"Remember that time I told you why I couldn't always be there for you? Because I don't actually belong here?" He said. I hugged him tighter as my legs got weaker.

"I... I know... It hurts Jay" I sobbed and hiccupped.

"Shhh... Breathe... Its alright princess" he said. I felt so broken.

I hugged him so tight I was sure he could feel my nails dig into him. Suddenly I felt lighter and my feet were no longer on the ground.

I opened my eyes and saw that Jay had lifted me into his arms cradling me like a baby. I gasped as I quickly opened my eyes once more.

"I hate you so much" I mumbled crying.

"I hate you more" Jay said smiling.

He laid me onto the bed. And left, but before he could make his way out the way he usually does. I had some words to say.

"I... I don't have a crush on Kendall anymore" I said.

I have a crush on you!