*I bite my lip and it quivers, trying to not think about today and cutting my emotions off for a moment. Tired, puffy eyes with tear stricken cheeks now rough with salt crystals, I shut my eyes and yawn, in my little while sleep dress. My lip quivers again and I slowly go down onto my knees. My legs, they burn from the harsh scratches I gave them today, my scalp silently sizzling with slight pain from the pulling, and my body worn to the core. My mind having no fucking clue what's going on, just that the horrible emotion I feel today is just so fucking whole consuming and heartbreaking I just don't understand why I feel so much, why it feels like every time I trust someone they end up hurting me. I want to hurt myself so bad. I feel so angry and sad. I feel so hurt, I feel so angry and sad, it makes me wannna hurt myself more and do so badly enough that the emotional pain disscolves away.