keep in mind: I PUBLISHED THIS A DAY AFTER I WROTE IT SRY 😂 (20-21/6/22)

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Ok so I feel so confused about what I wanna be when I'm older, and rlly just what I wanna do ;_; that's old news I don't wanna get into that

time is going so fast as well and it's almost exams djdjeuowkwjw I'll su now

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also let me explain my day so far lmao and a bit of last week too.

last Friday me and my friends played the game uno, and we've done this before but I'd purposely play wrong as a joke and also bc I'm dumb and would end up showing pple my cards xD But nowww I'm getting so gooood

but yeah we played it again and on Friday we sat next to this annoying guy but he forced himself to play and in the end some of his basketball friends came and it was such a funny game 😭 they ended up screaming every time we used cards that would make the other player get more cards (which is bad in the game bc you need to have 0 cards to win). Or if u use a card that makes the other player skip a turn lmaoo

I played it today and I won twice I feel great ^-^ loool

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But at the same time let me vent about random other things today.
I sit next to this dude that I've prob mentioned before, who would poke me all lesson and make me feel uncomfy, but my dumbass always smiles when I'm nervous.

yeah so my dumb friend ErumArshad_12 interferes and says she ships us bc be borrowed a hair band to tie his hair, and apparently we're "TwiNnInG". I threw it at him as I should (usually I'd say no but he ends up asking all lesson and I never know what to do).

But what I don't get is why pple like him have to lean into my personal space every second.

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Anwayssssss,

another thing is that I have question.

Why is most of the male gender so fricking rude?

I hate when this lamppost, slender man looking guy always takes the piss out of me bc he realised that even tho I act "shy" by KeEpInG mYSelF tO mySeLf, (which "popular" people can't comprehend and assume it means I'm shy) I'm actually someone who will gladly tell u to shut up when needed. (well..sometimes. I'm still socially awkward) It's hard tho bc no mater what u do...they just laugh at u ;_; u could be speaking straight up facts but if you're not considered 'all that' then you're officially embarrassing yourself, and your thoughts are not invalid.

but as I was saying, this long guy always asks for answers before I've even read the freaking sheet. And him and this round oompa loompa used to say it just to provoke me. They don't as much anymore but have u ever just felt pissed off just thinking about them?? I'm not a big deal in their life, but it sucks when u think about someone more then they think of u. Bc I hate pple like that sm

Today I had to be partners w him and tbh I just sat there and ignored him multiple times and spoke to the other guy next to me. But yet he still decided to open his mouth and say to the teacher I don't "rate him" (It's that or he said I don't like him or smthing, idk if I heard right)

and yes hes right, he's a -100/10 if I had to answer <3

he also, similar to more pple I've sat next to, always acts like this anyway.
and he even stares at my work and today then corrected something out loud on purpose. I hate when they also assume I'm so smart, so I just let them believe that ;-;

~~~but the pple like this just take the piss and I rlly don't care anymore. Ik I say that a lot but I just don't care as much, ofc I'm still allowed to feel pissed at times tho

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ik I sound super petty but that was my day. It's not the worst actually.
It's the same type of people that once hit a basketball in my face (by accident I'm guessing) and just laugh and don't apologise. No manners smh.

But also not all guys are rude like that. For example, last time this basketball dude almost fell on me but I'm so dumb I didn't even notice much because he was behind me, and apparently he kept trying to not drop the ball on me or touch me lmao he had his hands up. And then after he kinda tripped and he kept asking if I was ok.

So yh. Not all guys are rude, I would never say all of them, it's just just ehhh some of them I've met. girls can be even worse ain't gonna lie either. And my school isn't even considered 'bad'.

ByEeee