18-12-2024

Hey! It's me Nia.

It's been a long time since I've been inactive. I'm here to give a life update since before I'll knew it, It'll be 2025 already.

I'm 22 years old, still unemployed. I've completed my Highschool study but to get in University, it's been a struggle.

After 2 failed attempts at clearing the LAT exam, I finally passed, barely.

I'll get in a LAW University soon to pursue my dream of becoming a lawyer. The study is expensive but not expensive enough for my parents to not pay for their only daughter. 

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Life has been harsh for a few years, I coudn't keep up with anything.

My dad lost his job, my mom is the only one running the house. I quietly watch my dad go to court every now and then only to return with a hope of getting what was his once.

I know how ashamed he feels asking for money from my mom when he should be the provider. I know how hard it's for my mom to manage everything on old shoulders. 

It aches my heart when I realize I can help, I should be earning but every time I get overwhelmed.

How much can I even do when I'm trying to give my best?

Have I really done enough?

It makes me feel shame when I realize I don't have a degree or job. I didn't even realize when I became an adult with responsibilities. 

I'm entering 2025 with empty hands but veins filled with determination and hope, heart filled of grieve yet a strong spirit waiting to be unleashed.

So I'm leashing it...

I'm back!

Hello again! ♡ :)