Hi.....yeah this book has been dead for like 4 months..



BUT I FINALLY HAVE AN IDEA ON WHAT TO POST. SO THESE ARE MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS AS IT IS 49 MINS INTO THE NEW YEAR AS IM WRITING THIS✨ 



LET'S BEGIN~



SO:

1) get better grades.

*cough* My state (academic wise) wasn't the best for the first months  (wasn't THAT bad,for others it was a wonderful grade but for me and my parents it suckedass)  so I want to achieve more in this upcoming months. Am really not looking forward for the week after the vac cz it's PACKED with exams..like 3 a day so...yeah :D

2) STOP.OVER.EATING.

I have a problem and that is that I overeat. Like even when I'm ful,I'll continue eating. Even tho I don't eat 3 meals a day,and most the time skip breakfast I do eat more than i am supposed to WHEN I eat. 

3) look after my mental health more and not let things bottle up.

If there's anything I'm good at it'd be that^ so...that needs to change. 

4) BE ABLE TO FUCKING SAY 'NO' WHEN I DONT WANNA DO SMTH

that's one of mt WORST traits. No matter how much smth Is bothering me and ppl ask me to do it,I will do it. I.can.not.say.no.to.people. and you know where that led me? Being used multiple times. SO it's time for me to speak up for myself 

5) STOP. COMPARING.MYSELF.TO.PPL.ON.THE.INTERNET.

I do that all the time and it results in me crying,even lower self esteem and sometimes....,physical abuse....

So....I want to stop comparing myself to those "perfect" girls and their"perfect" life and appearance and start embracing mine. 

6) be a better role model to ppl

Idk..ig it's just that no matter what I do I don't think it's enough...I don't achieve what I Want to and don't give the representation of myself that I want to give. So that must change this year.

7) make new...friends. (not irl bcz I suck and have 0 self confidence,have social anxiety and am awkward af)

So...text me privately if u want to :) [literally no one will see or do this but it's fine]

8) self love✨

I see beauty in every single person on this planet and yet I don't see it in myself. I used to,but it's going less and less as we speak. So...I need to regain that self love. Loving other ppl starts by loving urself.

9) TRY to workout.. (key word: ✨TRY✨)

I'm almost certain that won't happen,but let's TRY 

10) building a bigger family on here :) 

I really wanna have more ppl behind me who like me for me,who truly enjoy talking to the true me. I want to be able to have a name for u guys. So...hope we get bigger this year so i can name u...So if ur reading this and ur not already...FOLLOW (only If u want to ofc😊)

11) TO STOP SAYING SORRY ALL THE FUCKING TIME.

I saw somewhere a post that said "if ppl apologize for things they don't have to,yk they've been thru alot" and so...yeah. idk I have it in me to not apologize to everything. Even if it's not my fault,it feels like im obligated. Even the simple stuff,I apologise for. Let's say I messed a date up I will say sorry. I ask for smth I will say sorry for bothering u, etc. YeAh...

AND THATS ALL I HAVE IN MIND AT ALMOST 2AM. 



 So yeah :) thank u for seeing this,and sorry for wasting ur time. 

Anyway HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! STAY SAFE💕💕



Current time and date as I posted this:  [1:32AM     1/1/2022]