If I list my top fears now it would be just like last time Anger, fear and guilt that Im not good enough to make others happy to leave me alone. Of course I am currently not allowed to do much when I am pregnant.

5 minutes later I recieved a text from New Jersey Hospital asking me to come in to check on the baby. So lazily got jeans and a red vintage shirt which doess belong to Frank but stole it. since the boys went to find Pete that meant Frank went along too, I wanted him their as much as humanly possible.

Hopping into my black SUV, I rev out of the house and just cry fir the first time since last night I cried hot tears because I may act strong but I cant do this anymore.

I pull up to the old brick work hospital finding a space luckily very close to the main door since I cant be bothered to walk to the electric door. I walk up to a young man at least in his early 20's "Hello, welcome to New Jersey Hospital How may I help you?" he speaks quickly but still polite "I have a appointment with the Dr today" I smile back "well Miss this is the celebrity part and I have no clue whom you are so please leave."

Oh please tell me this isnt one of those people who follow the charts and music hitting the charts is the only people who excist, or they were in the news recently. "Ah Mrs Iero thanks for coming on short notice" I look up to see Dr Rachael Kimber stood smiling "Wait Iero as in Frank Iero" the man practically beams "Yes, I am his wife" I walk past over to the Dr and smile at her "So did you see the photo from earlier, Its all over the internet of him and some hot chick" I halt and pale "Justin please shut up for gods end" the dr pulls me slightly into the room.

I remember what to do since Hunter was in my belly, so I lead down and pulled my shirt up "So Mrs Iero how long now?" she asks whilst pouring the gel onto my stomache making me gasp at the cold "a month now, I believe" she nods in understanding.

Minutes go by and i start to notice Dr's face change to smiles, confusion and then sympathy. "Im so sorry Mrs Iero you have had a miscarriage... Is there been any stress or loud actions that made you unstable" and thats when everything comes to a holt even the spinning of the world. I nod slowly the stress with Pete made me unstable.

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After I get home I see the boys are back but Mikey whom proberly to his fiancee. I walk in and hear all 3 guys laughing and they don't notice me. Time to make them stop laughing, I walk into the living room to see all of them look up at me ""hey honey where have you been?" Frank asks placing his coffee down in front of him.

"I went to hospital today" every one looks up "for a scan" Gerard says making me nod "Frank I'm so sorry but I had a miscarriage" I feel tears well up in my eyes and a few escape. I also notice Frank is by my side in a second hugging me and kissing the top of my head whispering sweet things into my ear.

Later at dinner that we got a take away since everyone was too sad about the miscarriage to function right. and what Justin said was bugging me so I look at my twitter and see near enough 400 fans have sent me links so I can see the evidence.

looking on it I can clearly see Frank holding hands with a brunette girl with big sunglasses, "Frank Anthony Iero can I speak to you in our room" I already start getting uup towards the stairs and hear 'oooh's' come from the guys.

Once I hear the door shut softly i turn and show him the picture "real or not real" I simply ask "Fake babe, I promise" I nod and hug into his chest "enjoying my shirt babe" he smiles kissing my kiss and nose. "Im sorry I lost the baby" i sigh feeling him wrap his arms more around me "it is perfectly fine Trish, I just wish to god I was there" I smile and nod "but we can try again if you like"he rubs my back and i nod slightly "can we start now" I giggle at him "sure" he smiles the slight seductive way.

"how did I get such a perfect husband" I giggle and start kissing his neck "just lucky I guess."

I know you can guess what happened next....... and your author that cannot write smut to save her life.

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Just going to say that like others since I am starting school monday I wont be updating as much and thats because I am yr 11 now and NEED to get ready for exams but you shall have a update I PROMISE. ~ Modern Blasphemy