This is my first wattpad. It's probably trash...Don't judge me. I also posted this but I removed it cause I didn't like it...Ya.

TRIGGER WARNING: Depression

When I was younger I used to smile a lot more than I do now, I had lots of friends, life was good.

But then...Came the divorce, I was only 8 when it happened so I didn't really understand what my mom meant by "cheating" but now that I'm older, I now understand why mom left him. 

She said it was a waste of time believing someone can change when they never will.

But I can tell that she was still broken on the inside because she loved him.

School just made it worse stress, sadness, and depression was all I could feel. I had trouble keeping myself from crying myself to sleep every night. My mother did her best to earn money for the two of us. She would stay up to the late hours of the night then wake up early for work.

I earned money by walking dogs, babysitting, and even selling some of my father's stuff. Even if it hurt.

It wasn't much but it let us be able to pay for my school and bills not counting food and other items we needed to survive. I would get bullied often by people who judged me fr what I wore and because I wouldn't bother fighting back. 

I'm not a very social person so I didn't bother to make any friends. I would tell my teachers but why would they care? Who would? Why should they?..

This is the time when I began to feel depressed. I tried to tell my mom but she just nodded and continued with her work.

Nights were difficult I would often sleep on the couch because we had ended up renting my room to a man. He lived in my room and would often steal things like, jewelry, money, food,.....mom....He was an innocent angel around my mother but when it was just me and him. 

He would beat me, yell at me, and call me worthless over and over it would hurt. I would cry every night drenching myself in tears and when my mom asked what was wrong I would say that it was just sweat and I had a bad dream. 

But then one day....

Hi! I uhhh ya. So umm hi. Ya I know this is short I want to try and make this longer in the future and If you feel this way you should uuuh get help or if you can't you always have me! Sooooo uuuh bye.

-PolarWolf