Mui pov

I saw yui st school and immediately ran to him, “You have no idea what you just got yourself into” I immediately told him, he backed away, probably overwhelmed-

Yui pov (AGAIN, I'M A DUMBASS) 

“I- huh?” “Koku is so fucking mad, you have no fucking idea, you're dead” he told me, my eyes widen, “Ah.. It'll be okay- right?” “No, no it fucking isn't, check your phone” 

I checked.. I had.. So many texts from koku.. 

“Don't you dare come home tonight, he'll be gone tomorrow, come tomorrow, okay?” 

I was.. Terrified for once

He never really scared me, but I was.. Scared- I was actually intimidated-

“What's he going to do?” “I have no clue, I can't let you risk it” he told me, hugging me.. 

This was all so sudden- was shit really going down-? Was something bad going to happen..? I don't even want to think about that.. 

Could it happen..? Possibly yeah.. I may get kicked out into the streets for all I know.. I don't.. 

Why the hell did I do this..?! 

Yeah, sure, having some rebellion against your caregiver/parents is okay.. It's normal.. But the upper moons are totally different to an average parent- I could actually possibly be in serious danger and it's all my fault.. 

I could put mui in danger too.. Fuck.. What have I done..?! 

“I.. He didn't do anything to you.. Right..?” I asked, he shook his head, “He got mad at me, threatened to hurt me but didn't actually..” 

I still hate the thought of him in danger.. It scared me.. I don't want to risk him being hurt.. I don't want him hurt or unhappy.. Not at all.. 

Honestly.. I want to go home, I'm worried they'll hurt mui.. But I can't, I'll get hurt even worse for sure.. If Muis in danger then what about me..? I'll be in even worse danger.. So I can't.. 

God, I fucked up.. Why did I do that-?! 

Dumb move yui.. Very dumb, you're so stupid! Of course you didn't think about the consequences! You never do! 

Augh.. Fucking hell.. Now you're going to be in the biggest shits of your life, you're so dumb! Useless yui! Useless! 

I started pulling at my hair again.. Grabbing it, it's what I do when I'm stressed.. Or angry

Mui was still there and noticed, “Hey, yui, come on, not this, you're okay.. Don't stress, alright? It's going to be fi-” “No it fucking won't! I'm tired of this shit! I want normal parents! I hate the upper moons! I hate them all! The closest we'll ever get to a dad! Or a family for that matter!” 

I burst out, he hugged me and cried.. “Seriously.. It's okay.. I won't let them hurt you..” “You don't have a choice! They'll do it anyway!”

He backed away a little, I guess I was very..loud.. And intimidating when angry, but I have every goddamn reason to be angry, I'm tired! Tired of not being able to live a normal life! No other teenagers would be terrified that their uncle or his friends would abuse them, so why do we have to live in fear of that?! It's not fair! It isn't! 

I'm tired of all of it, I have fucking braces that I need to get redone, and no one cares enough to help me, or mui! No one but akaza! 

It's tiring, it is, I just want to live s life with two parents, even if they're split up, I don't care! I just want a parent I can talk to, trust, have to make me feel happy, yet I can't even have that?! I hate it, I hate this.. 

Now I have to stress about what they'll do to me! I don't even know what they'll do! That's the worst fucking part! 

What's gonna happen? What're they going to do to me?! I don't know, I can't go home tonight apparently.. Why not at this point just run away?! They don't want me anyway! 

Not even akaza tried telling me, only mui, maybe akaza was in their plan.. All along?! 

I'm sick of it, I never want to go back.. I wish I could just leave, leave it all behind.. I hate this shit.. 

“Yui.. You're ripping your hair..” He told me, I looked away, “Come on, let's go, get your hair out your hands I don't want you ripping it..” 

He scooched me out into an open space where I could breathe.. 

“It's not going to be okay.. Is it..?” I asked, he shrugged.. “I hope you'll be okay..”