chapter 67

Mui pov

After a long time, I got out my room, and decided to just say sorry to Yui for pushing him away,

I came out my room.. I'd been crying for.. Well.. Hours…

I walked down the stairs, and went searching for Yui.. But I couldn't find him..

I went to akazas room- and there I found him, headphones in, sitting there, akaza was out, he's on a date or something.. I don't remember…

I went up to him, sat down and watched his phone with him, it took him a minute to notice me..

“Oh, mui” he said, and turned to me

“I'm sorry I pushed you away… . I just have so many thoughts going on in my head.. I can't bare it, I need to be alone..” I said, he took his earphones out, and looked down

“I'm sorry I told koku, you told me not to, and I went and did it, and yeah, I shouldn't have, so I'm sorry- I haven't been the best big brother, it's my fault, I need to look after you more”

I nodded, “You're fine.. Seriously.. I just.. It's my fault.. He's right anyway..”

Yui shook his head, “No, you're talented, smart, kind, your a good kid, I don't understand why he's like that, he said it to me too, he's obviously just having a shitty day and needs to take it out on something”

“Or in your case, someone..” He added

I looked down, he ruffled my hair, “it's okay.. Just please don't give into his bullshit, he's doing it to hurt you, so please don't listen” he told me

“He's doing it to feel better about himself” he told me again

“.. But why would he make me feel that horrible.. He compared me to you..”

He sighed, “How parents probably compared him to his brother, so it got passed on, like how I told you about genya and his dad, it's trauma. It makes them do what they learned”

“I'm worried we may be like that, especially you, even though you're really kind- this is all you've grown up, you didn't have the kindness of mama or dad, you can't remember it, you've it known this”

My heart sank..

I don't want to be like that… especially gyokko.. I don't want to be like that

“It's just a thought, I don't know, I don't think you will, it's just a worry I have.. Because well, it could happen to anyone”

I nodded.. It made me feel horrible thinking I could be rude.. Maybe even abusive.. I would never though.. If I was, I'd never forgive myself, I'll never do that to anyone..

“I wouldn't do that… I really wouldn't..” “Not consciously, No, but remember, they drink all the time.. On alcohol they're completely out of control, you see genyas dad? How he acts? Gyokko? It's on alcohol, or other things.. Possibly drugs” “yeah but it's fucking gross.. I'd never have it”

He shrugged

“I dunno, I'd you're addicted to it, I don't think you'd care about the taste”

I hated the thought that yuichiro thinks I'll end up abusive.. I won't.. I don't want to hurt anyone in my entire life.. Not a single soul. .

“Well, it's dark, it's almost 10pm, let's go to bed”

“... It's 10..?” “Yeah, gone ass was crying for so long” “Oh, sorry-”

....... This next part was part of a different chapter so here's that, it may be really hard to digest- I'm sorry

Uh.. So, next few chaps won't be enjoyable.. That's for sure, so I'm really sorry, I just- yeah

Genya pov

Fuck.. Fuck it's happening.. It's happening again… 

Mui… mui please pick up… . 

I dialed his phone… . 

I waited and waited until I heard it pick up… 

“Mui! Mui please i-”

‘Heyyy, mui here, you've gotten to my voicemail.. Leave a message- or call again?’

… . 

I called again.. 

Mui… .. Mui.. Please.. P-Please pick up.. 

‘Heyyy, mui here, you've gotten to my voicemail.. Leave a mes-’

I cut it off by ending the call, and frantically texted him… 

Please mui.. 

Help mui please

I need help

Mui

Mui please

I'm fucking serious

Where are you..?!

Mui

Mui

Mui

Mui

Mui please

I'm sorry

Answer me

Fucking answer

I'm not joking.. 

Mui I need help.. 

Mui..? 

Why the fuck isn't he answering..?! Is he mad at me..?! Ignoring me?! 

I need help! Fucking fuck fuck! 

I called him.. Spammed him.. But nothing worked… . 

Fucking hell.. Mui.. Please… I love you… 

Don't let this happen to me mui… . Please respond.. 

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“Hey gen!” Mui said, climbing onto me

I pushed him off, he looked at me sadly, “You okay…?” He asked

“I would be” I said, he tilted his head, he seemed confused, I rolled my eyes.. Fucking dickhead.. 

“What happened-? Is everything okay…?” 

I stared at him angrilly, before walking forward, speeding up, “Genya..? Don't ignore me..” He said

That's when I snapped

“Well don't fucking ignore me either!” I snapped at him, he stood back.. “Huh…?” He asked, I snarled st him, “Don't act fucking dumb” I said angrilly

Maybe it's a misunderstanding? Maybe I'm overreacting? But either way, I was fucking mad.. 

I don't want to see his stupid face.. 

“Just leave me alone, like you did” 

He seemed shocked.. Worried.. “Huh..?” “Genya you aren't making any sense…” 

I stared at him angrilly, “Leave me alone, don't you get it?!” I yelled, pushing him back away from me, as he was slowly trying to grip onto my arm

“I…” he said, he looked almost terrified, I rolled my eyes, “piss off” I said, before walking away and going to my locker.. 

I looked behind me.. Seeing him with shiny eyes, of course, he was going to cry like always

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Mui pov

I started to cry… 

I- 

What the hell did I do… ? 

Mui.. You fucking asshole.. What did you do?! What is wrong with you…?! You just ruined genya.. He snapped.. He actually snapped.. What the fuck did you do..?! 

I started blaming myself like crazy while watching him walk away.. 

I said.. I'd never make anyone upset.. What did you do mui…? This is exactly what koku meant.. 

I made him angry just by giving him a hug… what is wrong with me…?! 

Why did I hug him… what..? What happened..?! 

I started shaking.. Hyperventilating.. 

Yui quickly saw me standing there.. And ran to me.. 

“You good-?” He asked, he had senjiro standing next to him, I turned to Yui.. And buried my head into his shoulder.. And burst into shaky.. Uneven sobs.. 

He rubbed my back, “The fuck happened..?” He asked, I shook my head, “I want to go… H-Home..” 

Senjiro looking panicked, “Mui..?” He asked, and patted my head, 

“Don't go home, gyokkos there, you can't go home” “I'm going home…” “No the fuck you aren't, with no way to contact me, you aren't. what happened..?!” he asked, I shook my head, and sug my fingers into the back of his uniform

“Why the fuck.. Why am I like this..?! I ruin everything!” I said, he shook his head, “Koku didn't mean that shit, I told you thi-” 

“It's not because of that! I fucking ruin everything! I hate this!” I sobbed, he patted my head, “...Can you go to geny-” “N-No… N-No..” 

He immediately frowned.. I think he knows what happened… 

“Senjiro? Anyone home?” he asked, senjiro thought

“.. Brother is, he's having a mental break from work…” “If mui needs to go home, can he go to yours?” “.. I… yes? He may not like it..”

Why are they so nice.. I don't deserve this shit… 

I'm so sorry genya… 

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