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CHAPTER TWENTY : the club kiss

"are you falling in love?"

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— mei pov.

pretty boy

YOU CUNT YOU DIDN'T SEND
ME THE NOTES FOR MUSIC

why would i do that for you

bc you're in love with me

go fuck yourself ask someone
else not me

ooo no thanks

i'm still mad at you

Bipolar you held my hand

so i could get out of that sitch!
stop thinking about it weirdoooo

i know you think about me
ALLLL THE TIME

thinking about you is like having
suicidal thoughts (i never get them)

Ok.

anyways yk youngjae was there

and u showed ur feelings for me in
front of him by flirting aww

do you never take ur delulu pills 💀
and no, i wanted to piss someone off

YOUNGJAE???? YOU WANTED TO
PISS HIM OFF?? u want me

um no not him

don't lie he was so mad at you

ok he was but i wasn't intending
to piss specifically him off

who then????

u don't need to know

fuck off go die

then u say i switch up

MY SWITCH UPS ARE REASONABLE
I AM LITERALLY A WOMAN

and mine are just because you piss
me off but it's funny when you look
all flustered bc i'm better than u

and i'm yet to do the same

u can't make me flustered

i swear i will

okay u tell urself that!

i prob will i always have the urge to
either slap or kiss you and it's always
the first one

sorry nepo baby

Kill yourself

bipolarrrrrr

true you walked away when i mentioned
that night. that broke me. i hate u now.

yeah maybe bc i didn't wanna talk
about it bimbo

I DIDNT THINK YOUD KNOW WHAT I
WAS TALKING ABOUT

well i did so never speak about it again

BORINGGG WE COULDVE RECREATED
IT 💔💔😭😭😢😢💔💔

cry about it bc we will never

so you didn't know it was Me

i said not to talk about it

ugh i'm not studying with you tomorrow
if ur not gonna talk ab it with me

tough bc you have to LOL but
we are not talking about it

"your flirting throws me off" i will
literally kiss you if you dont stfu

ew don't it does throw me off

bc i'm so distracting😜😜💕💕‼️

yeah in an annoying way

bye have a nice day
day 383838 of you breaking my heart

day 383838 of you never shutting up

Haha make me

rmb when i said 'both' to that thing
you said abt kiss or kill or wtv

When u admitted to wanting me but then
went i dont kiss nepo babies 🤓🤓🤓

yeah if u don't stfu i'll take it back
and i'll block you

ok sorry bipolar musician boyfriend

go entertain hanbin instead

no i can't
i'm going to think about you💕

you always do i bet

i always think about that one night😍🤞

bye.

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- 1st person.

flashback — three months ago

youngjae and mei were on a walk down a long street of restaurants after finishing a meal that mei had paid for. she knew it was a stupid choice to take him out on a fancy date, but she felt incredibly nervous for the consequences of what she was about to do. so she had to end it off with something nice before the bad parts.

it didn't feel nice though; he was on his phone the whole time, and made her leave early just so he could talk to the waiter. it was definitely suspicious, but she wasn't too focused on that, nor did she completely care.

he was a horrible person, and her overthinking was taking over as youngjae walked shamelessly on his phone. he was holding her hand yet she felt extremely empty with no sense of warmth.

"youngjae?" she calls, making the taller stop walking as he turns around to her with an annoyed face.

"what now?" he almost yells, "you're talking too much."

"i have something to tell you." she looks up at him. and as their eyes meet, he realises she was being serious.

"what?" he turns to her fully, letting go of her hand to cross his arms.

"i'm breaking up with you." mei sighs, trying not to cry as she looks at youngjae's expressionless face. "and i fucking hate you."

mei expected this, to be honest. she expected to be heartbroken at one point this year, just not so soon. and especially with an absurd reason.

imagine dating someone that you thought of as your comfort, but they only end up using you in the end. it made her feel absolutely worthless; the guy she had loved was just a pervert that wanted money. it felt like all of the love she gave was useless.

he only shrugs, "okay. is that all you wanted to say to me? i knew you were going to do this." he remains expressionless with his arms still crossed.

"so that's your response? okay?" she scoffs, the tears begging to fall. "you don't even care? at all?"

"no." he chuckles. "when did i ever care?"

mei felt her heart shatter at those words. she couldn't even believe he had said that to her after everything. "youngjae what did that relationship even mean to you?" her eyes turn into pools as the tears were still forcing out.

but she shouldn't cry; he's been treating her like absolute shit for the last few weeks, and he even got his own mother against her. mei was always stronger than this, and she should've known his reaction wouldn't be the best.

"that relationship..." he starts, looking down at her awfully weak looking body. "there's nothing that really meant anything."

"i did everything for you. i always let you kiss me even if i didn't want to, i bought you millions of won worth of gifts, meet my parents, agreed for us to be public, helped you cheat on exams, god i could name more, but for you to only say okay and that you never cared when we break up?" she scoffs.

"you're hwang mirae, who the fuck would take a relationship with you seriously?" he chuckles, "couldn't you tell i was using you?"

mei's tears started to stream down her face. "i always knew." she gulps. "but i thought there was at least some feelings."

he tuts. "oh, rae, you're clueless." youngjae then laughs dryly, pulling her closer by the waist, avoiding what she had just said. "but why would you want to break up with me so soon? we weren't even properly public yet."

mei stiffens in his arms – completely the opposite from normal; whenever she felt things like that, she felt butterflies, her cheeks go hot, her smile grew bigger. she was just in a fat state of being flustered. but now, she feels uncomfortable.

"you stole my money, stole yuta's car.." she tries to get out of his grip, and sighs as she fails to do so. "did you only use me for your own pleasure or something?"

he cups her face, yet she was still stiff and completely unresponsive to the action. "maybe." he smiles. "you're just so fucking perfect though, even if i did those things you'd still come back to me right?"

"bullshit." she scoffs, finally managing to shove his hand away from her face. "you treated me horribly these past few weeks, don't act like you still love me."

"can you blame me?" he chuckles. "look at you, you're pretty, smart and rich. that's what every guy wants." his eyes go down to her lips all of a sudden, "having you as my girlfriend is the best flex, you know that right? you should be thankful someone actually loves you."

"that WAS your only flex, and you never even loved me apparently." she rolls her eyes, forcing out of his touch. "if that's all that matters to guys then i might aswell date a girl." she jokes, about to walk away.

youngjae rolls his eyes as he walks back towards her, pulling her back. "fine then, if you really don't want to be with me anymore then enjoy no one loving you." he whispers, "people only want you for your money."

his switch up made her sneer at him with a glare, "yeah yeah whatever. go cry about me leaving you, you did it to yourself."

"you do know you're just a pretty girl, right?" he chuckles. "i won't cry over you, but look at yourself, you're crying over me."

she felt too weak and wasn't bothered to fight back or start a huge argument, but she just didn't know what to do after being told she was just a pretty girl. "you just told me i was perfect, don't get all mad just because i'm breaking up with you."

youngjae sneers. "i'm not mad, i knew you would break up with me, but just not so soon. we weren't even public yet."

it's the way he used to beg to be public when mei never wanted to. she loved him, but knowing her status, she would never want to be public with someone like him.

"well good fucking day you're single." she glares at him. "deal with it, you were probably just going to use me again anyway."

he shrugs. "whatever then. if you want to end it so quickly then i'll let you, but just know no one will fucking love you again."

"take a look at yourself." she laughs in his face, her upset mood changing from his odd remark. "you needed me for you own things. without me you and your family would be nothing."

"yet you begged not to sue us because you loved me." he laughs back. "at least i got what i wanted now.

she scoffs. "you're unbelievable, honestly. i just paid for your fucking meal before this, and you made me leave."

"i was giving a tip to the waiter, she was nice." he shrugs.

"sure, give her some other tip of yours or go fuck yourself." she rolls her eyes at the boy she was all smiley with yesterday. could you even imagine that this past week they were cuddling all of the time?

he chuckles. "don't be jealous of me, rae. you know how much my mom loves you, she'd hate to see the way you were talking to me."

"your mother is a cunt, she drives me to dropping out of uni she's that annoying."

"aw, shame. your parents still love me right?" he leans forward to her. "i was the perfect boyfriend anyway."

"yeah, fuck off. " she says before quickly walking away. if she really wanted to, she would still be arguing with him. but she wasn't going to waste her time like that.

so instead, she decided to go to her only resort of a bad day, which was alcohol. she then opens her phone to text her best friend about the short event that had just happened.

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junjun<3

i'm single it's time for me to be a HOE

NO UR NOT BEING A HOE TF
give yourself time to heal girl

ur supposed to support these ideas renjun
i have a nice plan that i thought of approx.
30 seconds ago

ur not going on a dating app

what makes you think i wanna do that

bc u finally broke up with youngjae

i wanted to go to that new club ACTUALLY

the one near that college?

yas

ooh i heard my friends are going there
tonight tooo it seems good

Would u hook me up with your friends💕

1. they're into men (preferably)
2. you're staying a virgin on my watch
3. LET URSELF HEALLLL

ugh i will find someone i know i will
i am huang mei i get bitches

u should've gotten that guy's snap
when you were in london last time

i said NO i have a BOYFRIEND
i'm loyal you know this already

ok whatever but no hookups!

drunk makeout sesh with a woman?

you kissed a straight girl last time

Ok. hot man then.

maybe but who

complete stranger

hmm but be careful when ur there

WDYM UR SUPPOSED TO COME
WITH ME IDIOT

I AM but i ain't drinking i'm there
to support my drunk friends which
now includes you x

u can't even drive me home

mei we have money there's something
called a nakamoto yuta

i love yuta i wanna kiss him

ur kissing anyone but him

im joking
we're tight like family gang🤞🤞

right..!

i wanna kiss someone now youngjae sucks
like yesterday he bit my tongue and i got the
massive ick i swear on my life that was like a
quarter of why i broke up w him

Why did i need to know this

bullying my ex boyfriend. 💕

it's okay you'll probably find someone
to kiss and OMGG

WHAT ARE WE OMGING AT

a lot of boys in my uni are going to
that club tonight to celebrate our lil
monthly evals so you might see them

Oooo i found myself a target 😘

what
who

no one i'm just going to find a guy from
your uni and then i'll make him obsessed
with me

so ur going to use a guy as rebound

ew no i'm not gonna actually like someone
i just need saving from youngjaes trauma x

and if you actually like him afterwards
then what

i'll delete his number 😜
i'm a healing woman now but i genuinely
need a kiss bc over a year with a shit kisser
was horrible

idk how you're one of the top students
in korea you sound like an idiot

WDYM...

you sound like a kissing addict

BLAME IT ON YOUNGJAE HE LITERALLY
KISSED ME 25/8 I AM AN ADDICT

okay i'll pray you find someone but
anyways mei are u like actually ok

i just asked to go to a club which
i never do. i am not okay.

bbg come over we'll make you
some breakup food xx

Yes pls. my parents are AWAY too they'd
be fuming when they find out what youngjae
did to me

it's ok he recently got into a huge
argument with our top student
so like no one likes him

the one yunji gets giggly over

yes that top student

idc abt him x i'm better x

sigh 😓😓

anyways i'll be omw soon make sure
u get me food bc i want to have my
depressing meal before the club x

okay queen x

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"mei for fucks sake." renjun groans, taking the cup from her hand. "that's enough." he lifts it higher so she couldn't reach it. she had drank a little too much in the past two hours.

the club was packed with university students, which renjun identified as boys from his university since hid friend's dad owns it.

she frowns and gets on her tiptoes to try get it from the boy's hand. "renjun give me it!" she slurs. "just one more."

"you said that half an hour ago." he sighs. "i know you're upset but you can't get blackout drunk like this." he watches as the tears started streaming down her face.

"please.." she sobs, covering her face with her hands as she keeps thinking about all of the good moments she had with youngjae. "renjun i need to forget about him."

"you already said you were going to kiss someone." he chuckles, placing the cup on a random table. "stop crying over him."

"i can't." she cries. "i couldn't even find anyone here, this is useless."

renjun sighs, pulling the girl into a hug. "god how bad was it?"

"do you think no one is ever going to like me again?" she asks, making the boy frown.

he looks at her to wipe her tears again. "bitch did i just hear the huang mei say that?"

"fuck my mascara is going to be ruined now." she sobs into his chest. "do you really think so though? i feel horrible."

the boy laughs, patting her head. "no, mei. can't you at least try enjoy it here without crying about an ugly guy?" he lifts her face and wipes her tears that were still streaming down her face. "if you actually tried to interact with people, anyone would want you."

"no." she sighs. "i need more to drink so i don't have to think about it." she comes up with an excuse. she's never had this to drink much before (besides the one day she met youngjae at a party).

renjun scoffs. "you do realise you have queues of people wanting to be with you right? and you're STILL crying over a guy that treated you like shit?"

"but i miss him." she cries, "i don't want anyone else."

"i don't know what you've been drinking but you definitely don't think that." he laughs in her face. "why don't you go to the dance floor and find someone? i'll come with you."

mei sighs, "what if no one wants me?"

"mei oh my days." he groans. "i'm not even joking, you'll find someone here. but you just need to be careful." he drags her to the neon floor where almost everyone was and the air was fucking hot. "do you want me to stay here with you until you find someone?"

she shakes her head. "no they'll think your my boyfriend." she laughs. "but ill try."

renjun rolls his eyes. "okay fine, but i'll be with my other friends if you need me, make sure to call me." he pats her head. "you deserve better."

mei nods and once she watches his figure walk away, she starts to cry again. she would never cry so hard over someone, maybe it was just the alcohol getting to her.

"fuck how am i going to find someone when my makeup looks like shit." she curses to herself, trying to fit into the hyped mood everybody was in. there was a lot happening on that dance floor. she turns to her left and sees two people kissing, and she immediately starts to sob again.

she wasn't the crying over a guy type at all, and even her drunk self was weirding herself out by how upset she was about him. she was even forcing herself to not think about youngjae but she couldn't even try look happy.

she felt alone in such a crowded space full of mostly university students. everybody around her was dancing, kissing, laughing, talking and just having fun. but she was stood still, crying while thinking about her ex.

she watches as a guy walks up to her, "are you hwang mirae??" he slurs, pointing at her. she was so out of it that she could only nod in response. "oh my god you're soo pretty."

"thank you." she fake laughs as he walks closer to her, and if she knew any better, she'd knew he was trying to kiss her. "um, what's your name-?"

he was obviously as drunk as her as he chuckles. "you're youngjae's girlfriend aren't you?" he shouts over the music. "are you trying to cheat on him with me?"

she pauses, and just by the mention of his name, her eyes start to water yet again. she turns around straight away and speedwalks in her heels to the other side of the dance floor.

"fuck sake i missed my chance." she sighs, holding her head up. "i just want to be blackout on the floor now." she cries to herself. "there's no one. i give up." she complains, until she feels two arms wrap around her waist.

she turns around to meet a taller boy looking down at her. her vision was so blurred she couldn't even try recognise or look at his face. but from her poor eyesight: he was fine as fuck.

"hey." he says into her ear, the music was too loud to even hear properly and she had no idea what he had just said to her. "why are you crying?" he asks, wiping her tears with his thumbs.

mei only looks up at him without a response, making him chuckle. "why's a girl like you sobbing here? are you alone?" he asks, pulling her closer.

a remix of 'cooler than me' by mike posner and gigamesh started to blast into their ears and she was still admiring him. "are you single?" was her first question.

"i don't think i'd be here holding you if i was dating someone." he chuckles, "but are you okay?"

there was something about his appearance that made her want him immediately. his voice was soft and even from the faint sound of it over the music, she liked hearing it. the way he was leaning closer to her face made her feel an insane amount of butterflies.

"yeah." she says, wiping her tears quickly. "what's your name?"

he smiles. "if i'm honest i thought you would know who i am. do you not?"

she shakes her head. "am i supposed to? you don't look to familiar to me."

"i'm quite the talk around here." he chuckles, "do you really not recognise me? i go to that private university."

mei failed to engage in the conversation longer; she was too busy staring into his eyes and just admiring him. she didn't even know how but he made it so easy for her to forget she had broken up with her boyfriend earlier that day.

"are you listening, cutie?" he says, tapping her shoulder. "is the music too loud for you?" even if she was to never see him again, she would never forget him from how perfect he looked just then. spoiler: she obviously fucking forgot.

she doesn't respond to his question. instead, she pulls him into a kiss. it was like she wasn't just crying over her ex a minute ago, this is what she wanted to do to get her mind off of him. and even from a few seconds she could feel the heartbreak feeling waving off already.

the remix of  'cooler than me' was still playing as she finally was doing something in the crowd of students. during their little moment, she had no idea why she was kissing a new guy so easily after such a heartbreak.

she could only feel his smile throughout the kiss, and she tilted her head as his right hand went from her waist to her neck as he pulled her closer (if that was even possible).

her mind was too full to think about what the fuck she was actually doing. but as long as she was enjoying it, then she didn't care. this was way better than any romantic shit with youngjae.

kissing a new guy on the same day was definitely a bad idea. but it felt so good for her, and even after less than a minute of meeting it was what she wanted. she loved this, and she wanted to do it forever.

the two soon enough lose their breath, stopping the small make out session. their eyes were glued to each other's as the boy brushes his hair back with his free hand, making mei giggle to herself.

the boy chuckles. "do you normally kiss people ten seconds into conversation?"

"no, first time. that was a perfect first time though." she drunken girl laughs back.

he nods. "so do you really not know who i am?"

she shakes her head. "am i supposed really to? i feel left out if i didn't know you while everybody else does."

"no, it's just surprising. i thought you only kissed me because you knew me." he says. the taller boy looks to the left, and he frowns and looks panicked. it was like he saw something, or someone. "should we go to the bathroom? privacy." he mouths.

mei giggled and nodded, letting this stranger just take her away without even having a proper conversation. you could say she was already a little obsessed. renjun would be glad to know she found someone as soon as she left him.

once they reach the bathroom, the boy notices how it was too crowded to talk. so he quickly took the chance to pull her to another area just around the corner where it was darker, but the purple led lights on the wall made it easier to see each other's face.

as soon as she saw his face clearly, she tried to recognise him. he looked somewhat familiar, but she still didn't know him. "so can i finally know your name?" she asks.

the taller boy shakes his head. "that's a secret, i'm surprised you haven't recognised me."

"why the fuck would i know you?" she whines, "you should know me instead."

he pulls her closer and their faces were too close, way closer than earlier. "i do know you, but i don't know how." he whispers with a small smile.

she felt shivers from his touch, "why can't i know your name?" she whispers. "just tell me, you can't do that." she complains with a pout.

the boy chuckles, cupping the right side of her face. "no can do, cutie." he whispers back, not letting mei say anything else as he pulls her back into a kiss.

mei melted into it, her arms going back to his neck and their bodies were pressed together in the dark space. this is exactly what she needed from earlier, and she was enjoying it a little too much now.

thankfully, no one was disturbing them. she was still annoyed at the fact she doesn't know him, but she was too into the kiss to be too pissed off about it. he was hot, so who cares.

her thoughts of her ex were fully gone, and the alcohol was still getting to her as she was still drunk kissing this stranger. she may have met him less than an hour ago, but she knew she would always remember how perfect it felt.

he seemed like the softer and innocent type, yet he tasted of soju and he seemed experienced. well obviously, if he was this attractive and was known then she wouldn't be surprised if he had kissed other people many times before.

but just the thought made her annoyed and a bit jealous. she felt that he might also know her and could be lying or using her. but then again, she was just kissing him to get rid of 'youngjae's trauma'.

she knew that after tonight, she'd be obsessed with him. since he was so 'known' it wouldn't be hard for her to find his socials or figure out who he was, he was someone who is unforgettable.

and that was how she spent the next hour; having a whole drunk makeout sesh with a stranger and talking to him without knowing his name, and who apparently somehow knows her. she knew she would either completely forget everything or remember him forever.

anyways, after their multiple little kisses in between a few giggly talks, they finally broke apart to finish it off. her hands were still resting on the back of his neck. "what time is it?" she asks with swollen lips.

he checks his phone, "three in the morning." he starts to play with her hair, and he seemed to be sobering up way earlier than her.

mei panics, making her finally sober up a little. "shit i was supposed to be driven home earlier."

the boy shrugs. "same, my friend got us a private driver or something. but i can walk you home, it's too late for buses or taxis."

she looks up into his dark eyes, "would you really? how far do you live from here?"

"not too far, but you're not walking home on your own at this time." he says. mei doesn't know if it's because her ex was never this caring, but that made her really fucking happy.

"oh thank you." she smiles. "can i have your number?"

he chuckles, "i'll give you it after. we should get out before you arrive home dying in those heels."

mei admitted to her feet aching like a bitch, and he dragged her to a staff area not too far away from where they were. "wait here, i'll get you some more comfortable shoes."

mei slid to the floor as her body ached, she was still struggling to fully sober up and she hiccuped before getting her phone out, waiting for the guy to come back.

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5 members

I judt kised the hoytedy man ivr rver
seen in my life 💕

ningning:
youngjae is not the hottest man
you've seen in your life don't lie

NO not hin i kissrd someoen elde
He waf so besutiful and i tjink im
in lvor witj him he wetn somerhre
else now

xiaoting:
YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND MEI

shuhua:
U KISSER A RANDOM????

yuqi:
YASSS CHEAT ON HIM

ningning:
GIRLY WHAT IT'S 3AM

guys I brojr up witj him yofay
orrrr yesteryday

yuqi:
??????

shuhua:
YOU WHAT

we brok up.  snd i kissef someron

xiaoting:
MEI WTF

yuqi:
WDYM YOU BROKE UP

ningning:
AND UR ALREADY MAKING OUT
WITH ANOTHER MAN???

fuvk hes so hot and i coudlfn help myslef

shuhua:
are you falling in love? ALREADY?

shuhua:
yass fuck youngjae he was shit anyway
MEI NEW BF ERA XXXX

xiaoting:
wait... mei where are you and why
are you drinking bby

tjat nee vlub becas i watend to forget
sbout him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i did

yuqi:
HOLD AWNNNNN

yuqi:
i swear park jisung's dad owns that
place and like everyone from that uni
is there right now....

Renjun told mr evrryoen wass tjere

ningning:
WHAT IF.... IT'S SOMEONE FROM THERE

xiaoting:
UR ONTO SOMETHING

shuhua:
MEI EXPLAIN EVERYTHING

yuqi:
do it drunk too xx

okay so.i broke uk with him sftrr our
date thrn i weny to tjat nee club snd
founf a guy eho wss hot sn wr kissed

shuhua:
honey did you get his name

no he edpepcyef me to know iy
eprctrf
exprcter
exectef

shuhua:
he expected her to know it

ningning:
thank you

yuqi:
IS HE KNOWN???

apparentllu im suppsed yo know him
ughhhhhfhfjf i miss him guys i want
himd sooooo bsdddddddd fuck yuonjse

xiaoting:
i mean at least she's getting over him
somehow guys...

shuhua:
now we gotta find out who

shuhua:
what does he look like

hot

xiaoting:
LMFAOOOO

xiaoting:
so he's probably going to that uni,
is popular, and he's single

xiaoting:
i'm texting ricky about this

shuhua:
TELL US TOO

shuhua:
TELL US IF HE KNOWS

gUYS MY BPYFRIEND CAMR BACK
he sayd hes goign to wlak me hom
BAIIII💕💕💕

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longest chapter bc i felt bad for slow updates. 🤍🤍 xx i wrote half of this hangover sorry

it's a lot to read so sorry if it was boring xxx (5100 words WTAF!!)

so like haha hao club kiss teehee. do we like or no (i died writing it)