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"𝑰'𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒐 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒂𝒚,
𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒘𝒌𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒅,
𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒔𝒕,
𝑰 𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒕 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈, 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒂 𝒇𝒐𝒐𝒍."

𝑻𝑾𝑰𝑪𝑬 - 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑺𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚 𝑩𝒆𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒔
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I crunch my water bottle in my pale thin fingers. The loud crunching barley makes an impact on the roaring room. My top row of teeth we're anxiously bitting away at my soft, rose, pink lips. My breathing comes out hitched with each breath and the room gets tighter and tighter. As if someone turned up the atmosphere and it got harder to breathe.

My chocolate candy eyes scan the room hoping that their was something-anything- to help keep myself distracted from this on growing anxiety.

The insides of my body felt like they were being flipped upside down. My heart is crying out for pain and I'm sweating so much that I think I may have ruined my flat winged eyeliner.

For a girl of seventeen, she already had mapped out her future with goals and achievements. One of the high dreams was to debut under JYP Entertainment, one of the best and successful company's out in Korea.

Yes, I've been with JYP my entire life. From the first dance cover I did in my small lilac room with my stuff animals on my bed and my once bare walls filled with drawings, till now. A seven teen year old girl who helps around the company.

I crumbled my water bottle harder.

Being in the company as an employee had really bestowed manny advantages upon me that nobody really ever had. I was basically inhaling the idol career at nine. Others would kill to be next to JYP. -But this wasn't JYP entertainment. This was produce 101. Where they whip you into shape.

Produce wasn't to be taken lightly. In order to be able to even breathe the sweetly sticky audition air, the process was overwhelming. With all this hard work I should be already up and singing with my group.

But no matter how ‏‏‎
hard I work, nothing ‏‏‎
will ever come simple.‎

Music of other groups who were either practicing in the brake room or preforming up on stage blasted in my ear. My two best friends were on their phone next to me.

Lee Hyori and Sung Yuri. Both two beautiful and talented girls.

Being in a smaller group to audition had its advantages and its weaknesses. If you auditioned on you're own, their wouldn't be anyone their but yourself to cover you're own weaknesses. On the other hand, you instantly gained all the attention in the room. Unfortunately in the group the attention is divided and you needed to somehow make yourself stand out for attention. But you had you're peers to stand strong with you.

We were all just a bunch of hungry hungry hippos. The small plastic balls were peace's of attention and the competition started not on the dance floor but in hell.

Yuris angelic voice somehow over all the ruckus softly makes its way into my ear and I instantly relaxed into the plastic chair. I closed my eyes as more lines from Fin.K.L "Everlasting Love" rolled into my ears. Honestly....I don't know what I would do if they weren't here with me. I probably would've collapsed and become one with the dust ground.

'Do they even clean around here?' I groaned and looked at the ground. 'I could make an army of dust bunny's'

Soon all sort of relaxation I've ever known had been ripped out of me. Over the loudspeaker, I heard our group name being called. I internally, more like externally, screamed. Hyori gripped onto my wrist and pulled me up to the front table. The employees had handed us necklace tags and we hung it over our grey T-shirts and black shorts.

The audition clothing were atrocious and unpleasant to wear. Everyone had the same, oversized grey hoodie and shorts. Everyone waltz into the room with their perfect makeup and gorgeous 3 week planned outfit for them to only look like clowns when we were forced to change.

The three of us stood in a perfect line and introduced ourselves in order. Hyori stumbled over a few of her words while introducing herself. She clasped her hands behind their back and pinched herself with her index and thumb. This already wasn't a good introduction.

After our small but 'graceful' introductions, we scrambled into place faster then James Charles getting hacked-

The melody filled the room as the three of us gave our absolute hardest on the small stage. Everyone was their, watching us. The Vocal coaches to the contestants. Lee Hong-hi kept a straight face and writing things down while the rap trainer, Cheetah was bopping their head to the melody. Soon our dance came to an end, I tried to show the world my best side and that I wasn't out of breath when in reality I wanted to collapse on the ground.

Lee Hong-gi gathered everyone in a group huddle to discuss our performance. The crowd whispered and murmurs.

"Wow their really good" one girls voice echoed.
"I know, the competition here, Aish"

She gave the other vocal trainer, Soyou, complete control. Soyou looked at us. "We've decided to take Ha Eun.....and nobody else."
Gasps and confusion filled the room. Hyori squeezes my hand and Yuri full on bawls her eyes out as she gives me a deep hug. "Win for us" she whispered.

Slowly I made my way onto a chair as I gloomily watched my best friends and teammates disappeared back to where they walked in from.

One girl behind me gasped and told her teammate "Oh my god, they were so good"
"This is crazy" a male sighed.
"We're doomed, NA.U"
"Should we just quit now? This is nonsense"