Chapter 71: At Ease
Something was different in the eyes of the creator. He continued to live on the memory of Jungkook at the beach with his lover as if he was putting himself in his shoes. Nothing in this world became so clear other than this moment to him as of right now. Through there, he listened, and oh did he listen, to the way Jimin softly spoke to the android, something he could have never recalled doing in the first place towards the android. It was only then did he realize that he was never this kind to the creation.
Kim Seokjin and Jung Hoseok were never caring and respectful towards the creation from the very start. All he could recall was telling him his flaws and expecting him to be better. Jungkook was just a creation, Seokjin just didn't know he was capable of bottling up his pain until he listened to Jungkook now, speaking down on himself each time Jimin tried to show him love.
What unfolded before him was something way different. He hated to admit it but he finally knew what Hoseok and Jimin truly meant. He watched Jungkook break down into tears, allowing guilt to consume him and his regrets to lead him into confessing about things he wasn't so proud of and Jimin never talked down to him at all. He was comforting, careful with his words and gentle. There was nothing else that was left to be said at that moment but to stare at the perfectly painted words Jimin had whispered through his tears to the one he loved. Perfectly painting the true definition of love on a canvas.
Suddenly, Seokjin paused the memory and began to think. Carefully running his own hands down his arms until he hugged himself and pondered the true thought of love that was being displayed before him. Everything became so clear to him that he only regretted so many decisions in his life that led him to this very moment.
"I... I remember..." Seokjin whispered to himself as Jimin allowed every tear to escape his gaze since he wasn't able to wipe his face at the sight of the loving memories that were played over to him again.
Silence filled the room as Yoongi was still confused. He didn't understand how Jungkook was able to feel that way when he was an android himself. But due to the android scanning that creation, he understood he was different in many ways. Yoongi only assumed they were the same in some way but now that he saw what he was capable of, he wanted to learn how to approach love in a similar way. Somehow, his deactivation was no match for his original drive to become human too. Yet, he was puzzled about this yearning he had that he only held onto Jimin and continued to spill many questions through his charming blue eyes.
"I remember when... I would tell him those things. I am so much of a perfectionist that I... beat up my own creations to the point where I was so cruel... I had no idea Jungkook would absorb those things. Maybe Hoseok and I... just didn't know what we could create and we didn't know how different he would become. He grew a mind of his own..."
"Seokjin..." Jimin whispered softly as he looked away from the screen and towards the creator who was thinking back at every little thing he had done to Jungkook.
"You know... I made that creation one day, thinking it would be the project that will change everything. I reeled Hoseok in with the idea and next thing you know... we were side by side, discovering everything through the tip of our fingers. He thought I was crazy at first but he fell in love with the idea the second Jungkook first began to operate. Oh, you don't know how happy he was..."
"It must have been perfect, wasn't it?" Jimin asked. Just then, he began to hear a chuckle erupt from Seokjin's mouth.
"It was. The moment was so beautiful, I remember giving Hoseok one of the biggest hugs I could and he did the same, only he carried me into the hug as well. I can tell this was going to be the best moment of our lives...but..." Seokjin took a pause and finally turned his chair around to gaze upon the android laying on the steel surgical table. "Something went wrong... he became too aware of his surroundings and developed faster than we thought. His actions were completely unpredictable and... he began to love but it wasn't the love you and I know, it was his own definition of love that was... envious. He threw tantrums like a child when his favorite human, Kim Namjoon, wouldn't come to work. That creation was so attached, he wouldn't want to recharge until he was able to see the human he was intrigued by!"
"I knew he was the clingy type... he mentioned something like that before."
"Oh, but he was insane about it! He loved to observe Namjoon and any android that dared to talk to him, he would dismantle them in seconds! His jealousy was horrifying. When Jungkook had a human he was so into, he would stop at nothing to get to them and learn so much more from the way they lived. I realized that he was dangerous when he began to get aggressive each time we told him Namjoon was already in a relationship at the time. He took down so many androids, I was pushing the idea to Hoseok that we would have to deactivate him soon but Hoseok refused! It wasn't until Jungkook harmed Namjoon that I decided to pull the plug on this project, but the way Jungkook cried and begged to be better, was what manipulated Hoseok into pitying him. Jungkook was able to manipulate Hoseok in that very second with those green eyes of his bleeding through the sparks of every tear he shed."
Jimin watched the way Seokjin gazed at Jungkook. It was a melancholic stare that left Jimin observing the way Seokjin's smile faded the second he touched on the time Hoseok left him for Jungkook.
"Hoseok... told me he was going away for a while, that he wasn't feeling well and wanted to take some time off after Jungkook was deactivated. Hoseok was so close to that creation, he was more like a father to him, but it was a strict father and son relationship where his love was tough and Jungkook tried so hard to please him by adapting and behaving so close to a human. It just wasn't enough at the time. I assumed Hoseok was broken and he needed time to grieve after Jungkook was taken apart but I just didn't know that Hoseok... left with Jungkook and abandoned me. It wasn't so easy after that. Do you know how it feels to fight so hard for something that once you have it, it doesn't belong to you whatsoever?"
"In a way... yes.." Jimin responded with a sigh. "Love was something like that for me... it has been a long and difficult ride but I know now... that I was able to have love in my hands for as long as I could. Only this time, it's resting in the palms of your hands now. Even if you decide what to do next, I hope you weighed your options..."
"I've weighed them... I took Hoseok's words into consideration and now I... realize that if I placed myself in your shoes, it is all the same. You and I both know loneliness at some point in our lives and how much harm solitude could cause. It's true, no one came to save me... but now that I have control to decide if I want to live down that route or change for the better, I know my answer."
Seokjin took another second to watch Jimin's eyes tremble. He had no idea what was coming next and fear engulfed him in a matter of seconds. Only now was he left to question what Seokjin meant by that. He watched the creator rise up from his chair and fix his glasses before approaching Jungkook. Even if Jimin didn't know what was going to happen next, he couldn't help but to become hysterical once again.
"Please... please, Seokjin!" Jimin found himself begging. Before, he was too distracted by Seokjin to even come to terms on what would happen, he didn't seem to wake up until now when he recalled the life or death situation Jungkook was out under now. Helplessly, Jimin watched as Yoongi only looked down at Jimin and back onto Seokjin once again. Not even knowing the decision Seokjin chose.
There, Seokjin pulled a chair right by Jungkook and took out a few instruments within the drawer of the surgical desk. As soon as he held onto a sharp tweezer in one hand and a nozzle to a blowtorch in the other, he picked at a cable of Jungkook's as Jimin was forced to watch and wonder if he was taking him apart or looking into his own heart to save Jimin from endless pain that was coming towards him.
"You know Jimin...." Seokjin spoke as he stood in the way Jimin locked his gaze towards just so he wouldn't see what came next. This alone caused Jimin to shake through his own tears.
"Please, Seokjin... don't do this..."
"I really liked Jungkook... he was different... and even if he was the cause of my loneliness, I feel like in a way, we could have had more time together to bond. I just wish I could have been gentle to him much sooner. But if that was the case, I wonder what would be the outcome now? Would it be the opposite?" Seokjin asked as sparks began to emit from Jungkook's compartment. "Hoseok left me out of his own choice because he believed Jungkook was worth throwing me away like I was nothing. In a sense, I am the one taking your happiness away and it's up to me to decide if I want you to be left alone in solitude or to love freely and become happy despite all the stress you are being put through now."
"SEOKJIN, PLEASE!" Jimin begged louder as he choked on his own tears. "I CAN CHANGE HIM AND MAKE HIM SO MUCH BETTER IF YOU-"
"Jimin, the only thing I won't allow is... myself to be reflected onto you. I wouldn't want you to go through the hell I went through. The anger, the jealousy and the hate I felt towards Jungkook for pulling me away from the only person I wanted to be around. I don't want you to resent me, you're a beautiful soul inside and out, I just wish I could have been the one for Jungkook like that but now I know, he won't need me... he will need you and only you."
"W-What... what are you saying?"
"I'm saying you and only you are the one for this creation. I would hate to live to see the day I become the reason why another hates and hides in solitude, deprived of the love he had for another. I wouldn't want to see you that way. You're a perfect person for Jeon Jungkook, I won't take him from you. I know if I was in your shoes, I wouldn't want him to be taken from me too."
As Seokjin said those words he finally pulled away after a few more sparks emitted from Jungkook's wires. He sealed the cut wires back together, unplugged Jungkook from the PC far from him and finally closed the compartment. The second Jimin watched Seokjin step back and see that Jungkook was no longer attached to the PC, he was speechless and tears never failed to fall from his eyes.
"Yoongi, let him go. We should give these two some privacy," Seokjin mentioned as Yoongi released Jimin in seconds. Watching the boy quickly run to his android abruptly. "Jimin, you're a smart boy, please don't make me regret this."
"Thank you, Seokjin!" Jimin sputtered through his tears and watched as the two left him alone in the room. There he stood, standing by his lover and holding his hand within his despite the size difference as he longed to see Jungkook once again after such a scare. He waited for Jungkook to turn on by himself now and of course, he didn't mind waiting now that he knew his lover will be alright. Jimin was able to get through the persistent creator and now, his heart was at ease.
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