Chapter 24: Trust

The sun already set hours prior; dark and cold pallets of dark blue filled the canvas and snow began to fall from the sky once again. During the late hour, Jimin refused to go to sleep. He laid on the couch as he faced the television where his reflection was looking back at him. He questioned many things in his head as he silently thought of who could be watching over him as he laid here. The young man didn't pick up the sense that he was being watched at the moment, but that didn't stop him from pondering about who's been watching him.

"I close every door... I draw every curtain shut and I check everything before I go to sleep... yet, I still need someone to stay by my side as I rest because I'll still feel it when I'm alone," Jimin thought silently. "Maybe I should install cameras here... I might have a stalker in my hands... but the funny thing here is, I don't know anyone else! Anyone else I know is my family... and Yoongi... but he... he wouldn't remember me if he's out there. He was deactivated; either they wiped his data completely or scrapped him. It's impossible..." Jimin thought to himself and continued to look at his own reflection before closing his eyes. "But why do I want it to be him so badly?"

Jimin was opening Pandora's box by sitting there and pondering without another distraction in his busy mind. He wanted to know who was causing his sleepless nights and wished it was someone familiar just so he wouldn't live in constant fear. At times, he just wished it was Yoongi, but then again, the truth would always upset him. As he laid there, closing his eyes and tearing up at what could have been once the regrets began to swarm his mind, Jungkook finally stepped into the living room and caught Jimin tearing up on the couch.

The android raised a thick brow and approached the human tearing up as his eyes remained closed, dwelling on those sweet memories that were forever unobtainable to him now. As Jungkook approached the young man, he stopped in place and looked down, watching the tears run down his face until he pushed his hand forward to comfort him. Jungkook leaned in until he was on his knees before Jimin and captured the tears of the human within the tip of his index finger before switching to his thumb to wipe it away easily.

"Jimin... you're crying...are you okay?"

Jimin slowly opened his eyes and quickly sat up; he acknowledged Jungkook wiping away his tears, but this was something he became shy towards when it came to reminiscing on the one he loved before. Jungkook knew about Yoongi since Jimin recalled opening up about him, but never enough to fully understand how much the android meant to such a closed off human being.

"I... I just... I was just thinking..." Jimin replied and dried his own tears before facing away from the android. "It's... it's getting late... I should be going to bed now,"

"If you need me to stay I will, if not, I understand," Jungkook mentioned as Jimin only stood up and continued to dry the tears that just wouldn't stop racing down his beautiful gaze.

"You... you can stay..."

"Do you need a moment?" Jungkook asked as he watched Jimin nod his head and walk down the hallway until he reached the room he was bound to. This wasn't his own, in fact, it used to belong to Yoongi when he was there. Now, the young man couldn't recall the last time he slept in his own room.

With the sight of Jimin still facing the old memories from the one he loved so much before, Jungkook remained on his knees in front of the couch where Jimin laid. With the sound of the door closing right after, Jungkook only kept his eyes locked onto the couch until the hue of his irises shifted from a calm blue to a dark crimson color.

"I'll wait..." Jungkook said to himself. The android then sat onto the couch and began to count the minutes until he could try to comfort Jimin again.

The android knew the human wasn't very approachable at the moment and he somewhat understood it, but he became frustrated; jealous even. The fact that Jimin refused his comfort and chose to be alone at a moment like this, caused Jungkook to fail at understanding that he, of course, didn't know how hard it was to move on from someone so quickly. Jimin felt like he could forget about Yoongi the next second, but when he least expects it, he could also miss him dearly. It was complicated for him and the android only wished to understand it, but he didn't. That's what made him frustrated.

"I'm somewhat closer to being human... I should know what he's going through but I don't... I don't..." Jungkook muttered to himself before letting out a scoff. "I want to know... it's the only way I could feel human..." he went on and noticed through the reflection that his eyes displayed the red hue he always tried to hide. "Control it..." Jungkook whispered and just then, he was able to switch from the red hue over to the blue ocean tone he usually had. Jungkook was able to control his emotions so easily and hide what he truly felt.

Jimin laid in bed hugging a pillow closely as he tried to dry his tears and force the thought into his head that Yoongi was never coming back. He went through this so many times, he was getting exhausted from having to pick himself back up again when his mind had to accept that many weeks ago, he was loved and now, he wasn't. Like alcohol rubbing on an open wound, Jimin became uncomfortable with the fact that he had to endure this horrid pain in order to heal. He just hated the process of having to come to terms with the truth even if he hated it with a passion.

"He's not here... he's never coming back... stop thinking that he will... he won't..." Jimin went on and on in his head while the grip he had around the pillow grew tighter. "I've been over this already... I've cried so many times, when will it end?! Will it ever end? Will I ever find a moment where I can move on from him? It's been weeks already... I... I can't dwell on this any further," the young man whispered through his soft sobs and remained laying on the bed in complete silence.

The room filled with sniffles and his heart pounded against the pillow his nails dug deeper into. To him, this was his usual routine for when he missed the one he loved before, he wanted to believe that he would eventually become numb to the pain so he remained there and waited for time to pass by and his tears to dry. He was accustomed to this since he had no other way of moving on from what pained him. As he laid there, minutes swept him by until his eyes closed and he cried himself to sleep.

However, this rest wasn't peaceful at all. Goosebumps formed over his soft skin and his body froze while his grip around the pillow solidified. He was stuck in place like a statue; not a trembling breath escaped his mouth at a moment like this. It all became too familiar to Jimin now that he understood the feeling of gaze detection too well. As Jimin remained over the bed, he longed to call for Jungkook but even when he tried to speak up, nothing but a cut off squeak from his voice erupted.

"Fuck.... It's like I can feel it's eyes traveling around on my body... I can't live like this!" Jimin thought. Many shivers shot through his cold blood until he slowly began to move his fingers. Desperately trying to move something in order to break out of the cement he was sealed into.

Jimin counted. He counted as he slowly began to break out of the dry cement closed around him until he was able to sit up. His eyes fixed onto the wrinkled bed sheets sitting over his body and noticed that he never wrapped himself in the covers before. The sight of this concerned him and begged him not to look up to where the source of the gaze remained, but he dared to know who stood steps away from him.

"Hello, Jimin.... Are you doing alright now?"

The calm and warm voice called out to him like a beam of light cutting through layers of cold darkness. The second Jimin heard the sound he wanted to hear, fear raced out of his body until it was no longer a word in his dictionary. His brown gaze slowly looked up and met with the blue stare of the android before him. There Jeon Jungkook stood; a gentle smile was formed over his charming face allowing all the right chills to ease the human just sitting on the bed.

"H-How long have you been standing there?" Jimin questioned and blushed as he tried to have a grip on his question so Jungkook wouldn't find a way to ignore it. This was something that did leave Jimin concerned.

"Not too long..." Jungkook answered and let out a chuckle. "Congratulations, Jimin, you've found your stalker~"

"Ah, stop playing around, you know how scary that is for me!" Jimin laughed along to what Jungkook mentioned and laid back on the bed to let out a sigh. "I hate you..."

"No, that's not how you feel," Jungkook played along with a smirk as he approached the bed and stood right by Jimin. "Jokes aside, are you feeling better now?"

"I'm alright..." Jimin replied and slowly began to say up again and hold the pillow over his lap while he looked at the android standing by the bed.

"Do you want to talk about it? I've heard humans need to vent about things in order to feel better about topics that bother them. We've done it before, so why don't we do it now?"

Jungkook offered support and comfort in many ways; many ways Jimin never knew other androids could understand, but with the idea that Jungkook was not like any other android out there, allowed the relief to flow through Jimin. He smiled softly to himself and finally nodded his head. Knowing that he could trust an android that only hoped to protect him.

"You... won't deactivate, will you?"

"I'm not going anywhere anytime soon."

"Okay..." Jimin replied and held onto the pillow carefully as he watched Jungkook sit across from him.

Keeping his distance was something Jimin didn't think too much into. Yet, Jungkook made sure he kept this in mind in order to avoid any distractions while the human told him about the things that pained him. This was a big moment and Jungkook knew it, so he refused to push Jimin's train of thought to another direction in order to listen. Something other androids were not equipped to understand but Jungkook could.

"I... tend to reminisce about him..." Jimin began. "I try not to but it happens all the time. Min Yoongi; an android I just can't seem to forget; how could I? It's too difficult to even think of. At times, I feel like I can move on, but then when I think about the little things, he suddenly comes to mind and it's like he's taunting me... constantly taunting me... he deactivated when he said he could handle any information I put to him and I.... I trusted him.... then... he deactivated and I didn't know what to do," Jimin confessed and teared up as the grip he had on the pillow over his lap tightened. "At times I regret trusting him... if I didn't trust him there, he would still be here but I wouldn't be close to him as I was. My trust for him was valuable... and he knew it too... I just... I just wonder if he saw this coming..."

Jimin quickly tried to dry his own tears and take pauses as he looked up and met eyes with the android before him. Having the fear of losing his friend too as he told him about what caused his endless nights.

"I'm alright, keep going. I'm listening,"

Jungkook assured Jimin, letting his words ease the buildup of fear that grew within the human. This constantly knocked it down and allowed Jimin to continue all while the android watched the gleam in Jimin's eyes stand out. He could paint a portrait of how beautiful the colors of red and pink stood out from Jimin's pale skin when he blushed and Jimin knew Jungkook just couldn't stop looking for that reason alone. With a moment they bonded together, Jimin knew that now he kept all his trust with this android and a small infatuation that was bound to bloom into a beautiful rose soon. He just knew it.

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