TUESDAY, 23:01

Gays Only

Sungjin
hey guys.

Dowoon
hello

Sungjin
idk why i even texted i have nothing to say

Sungjin
well, i do but....idk

Dowoon
??? what is it?

Sungjin
it's not my place to say anything

Sungjin
but

Sungjin
things are going to get really bad soon

Sungjin
and i'm worried

Dowoon
uhhhhhhhhh what ??????

Wonpil
why? what happened?

Sungjin
i'll ask younghyun to tell you guys

Sungjin
):

Dowoon
okay?

Younghyun
alright so uhm,

Younghyun
uh

Younghyun
sungjin i ,,, can't do it

Sungjin
why not? the others are trustworthy

Younghyun
yeah but ,,,, hnng

Younghyun
i've never told anybody the truth, besides jae of course

Younghyun
i don't think i can.

Sungjin
yes you can

Sungjin
please, just tell them. they deserve to know, and i know you don't want to lie anymore

Younghyun
okay

Younghyun
well

Younghyun
i'm,,,, not homophobic

Younghyun
i lied

Younghyun
because,, uhm,,,,,,

Younghyun
when i was in middle school & my parents found out that i'm gay, my dad was pissed

Younghyun
he did...awful things to me that i don't feel comfortable repeating

Younghyun
and so...i pretended that he turned me straight

Younghyun
then the tormenting stopped

Younghyun
only sungjin knew this whole time what really happened. he was my only friend at the time. i trusted him to keep it a secret, and he trusted me to tell him if anything bad happened again

Wonpil
oh my gosh...i'm so sorry younghyun ):

Dowoon
yeah....i can't believe that happened

Younghyun
it's really okay, don't feel bad for me

Wonpil
may i ask...how'd your parents find out?

Younghyun
well...it's a long story but i guess i'll explain anyway because it's important

Younghyun
so,,,, this dude named kim inseong and i were best friends back in 7th grade.

Younghyun
y'know, we'd hang out nearly every day. he and sungjin were good friends too, obviously

Younghyun
it was the 3 of us like a squad

Younghyun
but...one day...i revealed something at my 13th birthday party

Younghyun
sungjin, inseong and i were playing truth or dare in my bedroom

Younghyun
sungjin asked me, and i said truth. so, he asked me to reveal my deepest secret

Younghyun
i was hesitant, but the two assured me they'd keep it secret, and i trusted them, as they were my friends. little did i know only one of the boys would keep the promise

Younghyun
"i'm gay" i told them. sungjin immediately hugged me, told me he supported me fully

Younghyun
inseong, on the other hand...acted different

Younghyun
he seemed awkward and said he was cool with it, but his voice didn't sound sincere whatsoever. i just brushed it off as him being shocked or something

Younghyun
but it wasn't actually the case.

Younghyun
he was very weird around me for the next two weeks or so, and i didn't really know why

Younghyun
and then one day.

Younghyun
that day i'll never fucking forget.

Younghyun
he came to my house when i was over at sungjin's

Younghyun
he told my parents everything

Younghyun
they called me to come home immediately. i thought i was in trouble for maybe getting an F on a test for science, or not doing my laundry like they told me to

Younghyun
but no.

Younghyun
the moment i stepped through the door my dad grabbed me by the collar, dragged me into the living room, and began to scream in my face

Younghyun
i can barely remember what he said specifically, but it wasn't fun

Younghyun
my mom didn't do anything. she let him yell at me and grab me by the wrists until i bruised

Younghyun
i do remember "i won't have a fag as a son"

Younghyun
that's,,, really stuck with me

Younghyun
the next few months were terrible.

Younghyun
even my teachers noticed the bruises on my limbs, and the scratches littering my body

Younghyun
but when questioned, my parents always came up with some excuse

Younghyun
it worked every time.

Younghyun
inseong avoided me like the plague

Younghyun
until, in 8th grade, after i somehow convinced my father that i'm actually straight, he snapchat me

Younghyun
he told me i'd have to pretend to be a homophobe & NEVER date a guy or else he'd expose me to my parents once again

Younghyun
i was so scared

Younghyun
so we made our deal. he wouldn't do anything to me ever again, & we'd never ever interact.

Younghyun
and i'd pretend to hate gays until the end of high school

Younghyun
and...i'm pretty sure i would've continued this lie for the remainder of this year but,

Younghyun
i fell in love with a boy. stupidly.

Younghyun
and i treated him like shit. it's a wonder he even likes me back

Dowoon
who?

Younghyun
jae.

Younghyun
this whole time i've had the biggest crush on him

Younghyun
so i was so shitty to him. i wanted him to hate me. i think it worked at some point. but i couldn't handle him hating me, so i apologized

Younghyun
and that brings us to the current problem

Wonpil
which is?

Younghyun
gn0esn1___93 is inseong

Younghyun
i knew the moment i saw that username

Younghyun
and it's weird because jae even admitted he knows who he is. apparently inseong has dm'd him before on the blog, but back in sophomore year. he doesn't even remember why, the chat got deleted.

Younghyun
but that's not relevant

Younghyun
i contacted inseong and he found out i broke our deal

Younghyun
which means...

Wonpil
oh my god

Wonpil
he's...

Dowoon
he's going to tell your parents.

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....AND THE BIG REVEAL!!!

gn0esn1___93 is kim inseong from sf9 !!!!

congrats to no one for guessing it hAh yeah barely anyone on here stans sf9 so i didn't expect anyone to get it

anyway i love him a lot (he's also my bias wrecker!) and he's an amazing person irl!!!

💖💖💖💖
btw gn0esn1___93 is just inseong backwards, but the i and o were changed to a one and zero!
93 is his birth year (:

anyway stan sf9, and goodbye for today 🥳