What is depression?

Depression is waking up and immediately going 'nope' rolling over and going back to sleep.

Depression is feeling nothing. Like your body is on auto pilot. Like you're in a half asleep, half awake daze.

It's feeling like you're disconnected to earth and your brain is literally just white noise.

It's not being able to think, feel or even cry.

It's looking up at your ceiling at night and asking yourself all the what if's, going over everything you wish you said, everything you wish you didn't, all the tears you waisted, all the regrets

It's being still awake at four in the morning and trying to find something, anything, to help.

It's making plans because you know you have to, it's pretending to laugh and smile so much you forgot what your laugh really sounds like.

It's wanting to talk about something but knowing it'll cause arguments, so you keep it inside and let it kill you, slowly.

It's living in the past, it's nightmares and awful memories.

It's giving in.

It's a fight, that I'm tired of.

But not tired as in sleepy.

I'm tired of lying,
I'm tired of faking,
I'm tired of arguing,
I'm tired of crying,
I'm tired of hurting,
I'm tired of the pain,
I'm tied of the hunger,
I'm tired of the nightmares,
I'm tired of fighting,
I'm just tired of being tired.

And I don't think I can do this on my own anymore.

Please save me from my prison of pride.

Please help me.