I relapsed today...... I fucked everything up..... I think I'm developing a crush, yeah another one, on someone who will never be mine. He's, yeah it's a guy surprising, really amazing, but he's happy with his girlfriend.... I hate myself because I fall in love so easily.... I switch from one person to the other and I hate it because then I get my heart broken so much easier...... I HATE EVERYTHING! I'm sorry, but my emotions are everywhere, I hate myself, I hate everything about myself... I feel like none of my friends really care for me except a few.... I'm sorry I'm ranting.... but I fucked up badly

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PLUS IF MY MOM FINDS OUT SHES GOING TO SEND ME TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL AND I JUST WANT TO DIE RIGHT NOW