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Warning: fake death, and tears.
Cas looked at him and shook his head and said "yes brother. Zadkiel is back."

~•~ time skip to two weeks after hunting down Zadkiel and it taking the loss of sleep on your body~•~
Gadreel has been trying to get you to sleep but you only sleep a few hours. You never did take a break you had to find Zadkiel she had information on Metatron. After what he did to the angels he deserved to suffer and when you find boy is he gonna wish he was never made. You had just gotten home from a hunting a nest of Vamps you had blood all over your face and clothes. You throw your duffle bag on your bed and took a shower
~•~after shower~•~
You fell face first in your bed falling asleep as you think of ways to make Metatron pay...
~dream~
You started at your reflection in a mirror you wash your hands and looked back into your eyes they are pitch black and you pull out an angel blade. Then you hear a flutter of wings you turned around and faced Gadreel you stepped closer he pleaded " (y/n)!!!, Please I know your in there!! Fight it!!!!" You stepped closer as your head was screaming at your body to stop and drop the stupid blade. You advanced closer and stabbed him. Your eyes turned back and you hurried behind Gadreel and caught him you then felt a sharp pain on your chest you set Gadreel down on the ground tears flooding out of your eyes as you look at the man you loved laying dead on the ground because of you. You the lifter your shirt to investigate the pain you say burnt wing marks on your skin. Crying you put down your shirt and picked up the angel blade and stabbed your self
~end of dream~
You shot up in your bed crying and you screamed "GADREEL!!!" The image of you stabbing him made you sob harder
A few seconds later Dean and Sam rushed into the room guns in hand. Sam and Dean put his gun down and Sam rushed to your bed side and pulled you into a huge bear hug and asked "(y/n)! are you okay?!"