Jungkook gasped, but fuck, he hadn't felt Taehyung's lips in so long-

Jungkook grabbed his face, feeling Taehyung's hands place themselves on his waist. Jungkook tilted his head, allowing Taehyung to press his tongue into his mouth.

"Nngh-" Jungkook whimpered, Taehyung's hands roaming up his shirt and feeling Jungkook's curves beneath the cloth. Taehyung pressed Jungkook further against the wall, feeling his loins burn at the soft whimpers escaping the other boy.

After what seemed like ages, Taehyung pulled away. He looked at Jungkook, who fluttered his lashes against the other boy, all his previous anger lifting from his skin.

"Tae," Jungkook squeaked softly, cheeks tinted. "You-you kissed me~" Jungkook's pretty doe-like eyes widened. Taehyung's facial expression changed from lustrous to realization and he pushed Jungkook off him.

"W-what am I doing?!" Taehyung stammered to himself, eyes showing anguish and confusion at his urge to kiss Jungkook.

"Taehy-"

"I have to go. I- S-sorry, Kook- I have to go right now." Taehyung breathed out hastily and grabbed his bag. He rushed behind the building and towards the dorms.

Jungkook's heart was racing. Fuck, Taehyung kissed him-

Why would he do that? That had to mean something, right? Sure, Taehyung looked baffled after doing it- but clearly him kissing Jungkook had to have an inner motive behind it.

*

"What do you mean he kissed you?"

"I mean he kissed me, Jimin. What's so hard to explain?" Jungkook scoffed and Jimin just rubbed his face in confusion.

"So- let me get this straight.. or gay- you guys got into that fight, and began yelling at each other- and then he just started making out with you?? And you kissed him back?!" Jimin said, more of a statement than a question. Jungkook sighed, scratching his forearm.

"Y-yeah.. but- okay, listen, why would he kiss me if he's over me?" Jungkook asked and Jimin just groaned and laid back down on his bed.

"I don't know- maybe he did it without realizing. You guys did hook up for a good month and a half." Jimin mumbled and Jungkook pressed his lips together, turning so he could face Jimin's bed.

"Or- m-maybe he.. I dunno.. still wants me. Or something." Jungkook said hastily and Jimin snickered.

"I don't know, Kook. I don't want you to get hurt again." Jimin mumbled and Jungkook clutched his blanket tightly.

"I won't! I don't care about him anymore.. I'm just curious. That's all." Jungkook said quickly and then turned his back on Jimin. He heard Jimin sigh under his breath and bit his lip while drawing little shapes on his bedsheet.

Taehyung Taehyung Taehyung Taehyung. Taehyung kissed ME! Me me me- he kissed me-

Jungkook felt himself blushing and curled up into a little ball, giggling quietly to himself. He still likes me~

But see, Jungkook was a little dumb. A little naive, maybe. Deep infatuation does that to people. He couldn't help but get his stupid hopes up. Couldn't help but dream about Taehyung kissing him again, and professing his love to him. He couldn't help it.

He wished he did.

*

"But father, they're my friends!" Taehyung yelled, and his father glared an angry look at him.

"You don't make friends with faggots, Taehyung." His father snapped, and Taehyung felt himself growing angrier.

"I don't give a shit about what you have to say- I'm going out with my friends." Taehyung grumbled, and his father snickered.

"Don't you dare step a foot outside this house, young man- or you'll be grounded for another month."

Taehyung clenched his jaw, fist growing tighter in anger.

"You're really fucking grounding me because I'm friends with a kid who's gay? Seriously?!" Taehyung roared, and his father's vein in his neck grew bigger.

"Tell me, Taehyung." His father growled, walking up to him. "Are you gay?"

Taehyung's eyes faltered, and he gulped uneasily. "N-no."

"Good, because you know your mother would've been very disappointed if you were." Taehyung's father continued, and Taehyung felt his stomach churn in discontent.

"M-mom wouldn't have cared-" Taehyung choked out, still unable to hear the mention of his mother's name.

"Yes she would have. She told me. She'd disown a child of hers if he was gay. Just like I would- so don't get any funny ideas."

Taehyung felt like vomiting, but instead, he just smiled.

"Good thing I'm not."

*

"Did you hear?"

"I know, it's so unbelievable. V, of all people."

"I really didn't expect it, I mean, he's such a fuckboy."

"I bet a lot of girls are really pissed.

Jungkook heard voices behind him talking about V- Taehyung- and it made his eyes widen. What were they talking about? He got anxious as he entered the food hall, seeing his friends sitting around their table, snickering and whispering to each other.

The way the girls were talking... it made it sound like...

"W-what's going on?" Jungkook asked, sitting down beside Yoongi.

"Nothing. Nothing happened. C'mon Kook, let's go to class." Jimin said quickly, rushing to grab his arm.

"He hasn't even eaten breakfast yet, Jimin. Calm down." Jin snickered and Jimin gulped.

"What's everyone whispering about?" Jungkook asked and then he saw Hoseok smirk.

"It's V." Hoseok said and Jungkook tilted his head, his heart unconsciously beating faster upon hearing the boy's name.

"What about him?" Jungkook asked, looking over the cafeteria, trying to spot the silver haired boy. Suddenly, he spotted him-

Taehyung. The one who kissed him yesterday, with his lips all over Eka's.

"He asked Eka out."

Jungkook's eyes widened. He felt his insides crumble, something he got kind of used to.

"W-what?" Jungkook squeaked out and Namjoon laughed at Jungkook's shocked expression.

"I know, I reacted the same way. Can you imagine? Our 'non commitment', 'no relationships', 'strict hookups' V asked a girl to be his girlfriend. Must really like her."

Jungkook felt like bursting into tears. He felt like walking up to Taehyung and slapping him across the face. He felt like pushing him and screaming why.

"Oh." Jungkook let out and saw Jimin sit down beside him, squishing him over a little.

"C'mon Kook, let's go to class early, yeah?" Jimin said, sending Jungkook's broken heart. Jungkook looked at him, eyes a little glazed.

Before Jungkook could say anything, a voice interrupted his thoughts.

"Hey guys-"

Jungkook snapped his head up to the voice and saw Taehyung- leaning his forearms against the chair where Hoseok was sitting.

"Bro- didn't know you liked Eka like that." Namjoon snickered and Taehyung laughed hesitantly.

"Yeah.. I-I guess I do." Taehyung mumbled and then looked at Jungkook, who was looking into the distance, looking like he was trying not to cry.

Jungkook knew Taehyung was looking at him. He knew he was. He could sense the brown deep eyes boring into him. Looking at his every move.

"V!" Loud voices yelled and the rest of the football guys piled onto the remaining seats on the table where the seven were seated. One of the guys clapped Taehyung's back and the other began laughing and asking him questions about Eka.

Noise. So much Noise. Noise that Jungkook wanted to cancel out. He wanted to be alone. He wanted to leave.

"Well, V you're the last member of our group to ever have a proper girlfriend- so good job." Yoongi snickered and then Jungkook heard a loud laugh from Hoseok.

"Are you kidding? Did you forget our little Jungkookie here?" Hoseok said and Jungkook felt Hoseok's hands ruffle his hair.

"Guys-" Jimin started, but the boys continued.

"Seriously, Kook, when are you getting a girlfriend?"

Obnoxious.

"Yeah, you don't even look at girls."

Loud.

"How come you don't hook up with girls, man?"

Noise.

"Yeah, you're never with girls! Mina was looking at you the other day-"

So much Noise. Jungkook had had enough. Enough. He felt like he was going to break. Any fucking second. He felt thin as porcelain russian dolls, but filled with nothing inside. So fucking small, so fucking vulnerable.

"I'm not getting a girlfriend." Jungkook breathed out.

Taehyung just kept hurting him. Again. And Again. And he couldn't. He couldn't take it. He couldn't- he just- he couldn't do it anymore. How many times was he going to allow himself to let his heart break? How many times was he going to let Taehyung kiss him one day and fuck a girl the next?

How many times was he going to let Taehyung screw him over?

"Why not? C'mon, bro, just look at the hot babes around the-"

Fucking hell-

"I'm gay!" Jungkook yelled loudly and literally everyone shut up. Not just his table, which was full of the football guys. But tables around him.

Everyone heard him.

"Yeah- I fucking-I fucking said it-" Jungkook mumbled, standing up from his seat and looking at the boys.

Namjoon's eyes were widened. Hoseok's mouth was gaping. Jin's eyebrows were lifted. Yoongi's eyebrows were furrowed. The other football guys were staring in pure confusion. Yugyeom was kind of smiling. Jimin had his hands against his face. Taehyung was-

Jungkook couldn't decipher the look on Taehyung's face.

"W-what?" Hoseok choked out, and Jungkook just felt some kind of sudden urge to say everything bubbling in his stomach.

"I'm gay. G - A - Y, GAY. Not straight. 100% FULLY homosexual! Not one bit into girls! I-I like men, and boys, and-and penis-"

"Jungkook what're you doing?" Taehyung said softly. Jungkook looked at him and glared.

"I'm not getting a girlfriend. Ever. I'm not hooking up with girls. Ever. I don't care which fucking girl was staring at me. And I'm sick and tired of hearing all of you always talk about girls!" Jungkook snapped.

"Oh- w-wow." Namjoon mumbled and Jungkook snickered. Jungkook looked up and saw the rest of the kids in the food hall looking at him weirdly. Jungkook was so fucking angry. So angry. At-at himself, for thinking that Taehyung had changed and actually had feelings for Jungkook. At Taehyung, for being a fucking fuck boy who fucks around all the fucking time.

For fucks sake.

Jungkook climbed onto his chair, and Jimin grabbed his leg. "Jungkook what the fuck-"

"Did everyone hear that?" Jungkook shouted loudly, gaining everyon's attention. Usually he's so quiet, everyone was staring with widened eyes. He could see everyone, almost. The people who he barely knew. People who sat next to him in various classes. People who saw him as a 'popular straight jock'. People who he saw getting bullied for being gay.

"I'm gay!" Jungkook yelled out and there was some kind of a joy building up inside himself after saying these words out loud.

Everyone was staring with widened eyes, jaw dropped. Some kids started laughing, some grimaced, some even clapped. Jungkook smiled when he heard one girl cheer loudly. It felt so fucking good to finally say everything out loud. Jungkook got off the chair, whispers and loud voices erupting through the food hall.

"Fuck you." Jungkook growled at Taehyung, before storming out of the food hall.