Today was the day of my mothers funeral

Today was the day I was an orphan

I know I got my dad but I don't consider him my father

I will never consider him my father

I look in the mirror that's in my room

I had a black skater dress with my black heels

I had my hair down

While I was looking in the mirror I saw flashbacks of me and her together laughing and crying and hugging

Now I won't have that anymore

She won't walk me down the Aisle when I get married

While I was staring into god knows where I felt 2 hands on my waist

I went back into reality and saw gray

He put his chin on my shoulder and kissed my cheek

He whispered

" your going to get through this love "

I smiled and turned around and kissed him

He took my hand and walked me down the stairs

Everyone was there waiting for the limo

I hugged everyone

The limo came and I went in first and sat down

I was quiet the whole way there

I just looked out the window

We reached the place

The place where I won't ever see my mother again

The place where she's going to be 6ft under ground

Away from me

She was in her casket

Ethan bought a huge bouquet of sunflowers

Sunflowers was her favorite flower

She said the flower made her happy and reminded her of me cause I'm her sunshine

He handed everyone a flower

I went up to the stand and said a whole speech about her

The funny times

The sad times

The weird times

And just plain boring times

I couldn't talk anymore and I just ran off

I ran into gray's arms and cried

Other people went up and talked

Everyone went up with their flower and put them on top of her casket

I was the last one to put it on

Once I put it on the casket

I blew up

I started crying

I fell to the ground but gray ran and catched me in time

He took me and hugged me tight and we walked away

We walked to a nearby park

We sat on the swings

He tried to take my mind off of it

But nothing could ever

I just put a fake smile on but of course he knew

He dragged me to get icecream and I had to admit that it made me feel better

What  am I saying

Food always makes me feel better

We found the limo and everyone was there

I walked in and fell asleep

Just a quick nap

Today was tiring

We reached my house and I went inside with my friends and Grayson and Ethan and Cameron

We decided to have a sleep over to help me feel better about the whole situation

I found the alcohol

I felt like I needed a drink

No

I deserved the drink

After everything I've been through I needed it

I took a red cup and poured drinks for everyone

We had a lot to drink

We decided to play drunk truth or dare

It was aris turn

"Mhmm Alyssia truth or dare " she said

" of course dare " I said grinning

" okay then I dare you to do a handstand while kissing gray" she said

Shit

I didn't know how to do a handstand

I did it and kissed gray with tongue

I felt like spider man

I guess my drunk side knows how to do a handstand

It was my turn and I knew what I had to do

" Ari truth or dare? " I said

" dare " she said smiling

" ok then I dare you to play 7 minutes in heaven with Ethan " I said smirking

" oh umm it's up to Ethan. " she said

" I guess we can do it . It's a dare " Ethan mumbled

I saw them go into the closet

I knew they were going to just talk

All of a sudden I heard something drop in the closet

I smirked

Time was up and they came out blushing

Her hair was messed up a bit and he got some lipstick on

I smiled and gave ari a look

She rolled her eyes

We played games until 3:00 am until I started felt my head hurt

I stood up from the floor and wobbled my way into my bedroom

I plopped right down into my bed and put my head right down onto my pillow

I started seeing stars and planets and aliens

I closed my eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

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Okie dokie well I finally published
I also just saw that I hit 600 reads
And I wanted to say thanks so much
I honestly don't know why I have that many reads
My books suck ass but thanks anyway

Today was the funeral of her mother
She had a melt down
And then she decided to have a drink
And get drunk

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