So as anyone who's actually reading this would know, I'm in love with what I thought was a wonderful guy. And for this, I'll just use real names, cause I realized they'll never see this. Okay, so I'm 'in love' with this guy. As you know he's the center of my world. Well, as time goes on he becomes less and less important in my life. We don't really talk as often and I've been finding some other lights. My friend Lenore is one of them. I love that girl to the moon and back. I've known her longer than my other friends. Since kindergarten really. She always makes me feel better when I feel like crap. Daintiest thing ever. One look and you would assume that she spent all her time inside reading, but not her(I feel like I'm describing pre-serum Steve Rogers). She's on the school lacrosse team, with sunburns to prove it. She has the spirit of a tiger and the sense of balance like a newborn deer. Her pale hands are always covered in henna tattoos. She's been taking art all throughout middle school, and she's one of the best artists I know. Her hair is hella short, one side is buzzed down, and she recently dyed some of the hair pink. She's always made of smiles and hugs, she's like the sun after a rainstorm. She makes flower crowns in her free time and is always willing to admit her faults. I really am in love with this girl. The less I love Jeremiah, the more I love her.

At this point, Jeremiah is getting on my nerves. He's always giving me these mixed ass messages. He sends me suggestive texts and says things that would imply certain things, like these messages, are hella sexual.

WTF

Just today I saw him kissing up on my friend, you know his ex-girlfriend. And then for about an hour now I've been participating in a highly sexual conversation. I wanted to humor him, make him think I'm still head over heels. But, it was time to stop. I told him If you have no intention of being involved w/ me then stop talking about me deepthroating you. It fucking annoying. I let him think that he has a real effect on me, but I had to stop.
Now back on the topic of Lenore. I am in love with that girl to no end. She knows that I love her, but she's still my best friend. The way I feel about her is way different then it was w/ Jeremiah. I feel content when I'm around her. She gives me a sense of, "Nothing will hurt you because you got me." And David, but I'll talk about him later. What really took the cake is when she decided to buy pride keychains for all of us. It's amazing to have a friend to make LGBTQ+ jokes with. For me to be able to open up to someone. For her to accept me for who I am. I mean literally, no one in our friend group is straight, except for the three guys we hang out with. So it's nice. She is everything I would ever want in a girl, kind, funny, cute, and very heartwarming.
God, I love her.