"because i'm jealous, okay?"

those words keeps on repeating every single hour inside his head and renjun kept on being distracted by it. it's been a day since jeno confessed to him that and surprisingly, nothing changed between them. jeno still went on to proving himself that he is a boyfriend material and can actually be a proper boyfriend meanwhile renjun, renjun is actually the only one acting odd.

maybe he's the only one being affected by it.

even tonight, jeno's words still haunted him. renjun then groaned, seems like he can't be having his sweet sleep for the night.

"because i'm jealous, okay?"

❝bloody hell,❞ renjun groaned very loudly as he turned his body around. he pulled his pillow with him and covered his head with it, making sure to also cover his ears. ❝stop thinking about it.❞

but seems like the more he reminds himself not to, the more he remembers it.

❝okay listen up renjun, you piece of little spoon.❞ renjun now started to talk to himself. recognizing the name he used for himself, renjun shook his head and quickly sat up on his bed. ❝no, i'm a knife.❞

even the male's vocabulary is rubbing on him. he hated how felt like this towards the younger. he is basically just hurting himself and what's worse is that he is well aware of it.

bringing back the past, he partly blames it on jeno. if that male didn't just confess to him and bring him hope that someone actually appreciates him, he wouldn't have caught feelings for him.

renjun scoffed. ❝then the next day he goes on telling me that he didn't mean it?❞ he then let his body fall back down on the bed with a pout. ❝what a jerk.❞

"renjun!"

the chinese widened his eyss before once again covering his ears with his pillows. ❝am i going crazy? i can even hear him.❞

"lee renjun!"

❝aw come on, you like him but you're not that crazy to change your last name to his.❞ renjun complained, finding it odd how he can actually hear jeno's voice as if it wasn't inside his head anymore.

"little fucking spoon!"

renjun flinched from his position and snapped his head quickly to the window only to see a rock being thrown inside the room and landed exactly right next to renjun. the chinese immediately removed himself from his covers and ran quickly towards his open windows.

with his eyes wide open, renjun couldn't believe that jeno is standing right at their backyard with a rock on his hand.

❝are you trying to kill me!?❞

jeno stared at the rock on his hold and gave the chinese an innocent smile. ❝i was just trying to get your attention.❞

rolling his eyes, renjun sat on the frame of the window before mumbling, ❝you have been bothering me in person and even inside my head.❞

of course, it wasn't loud enough for jeno to hear it. the male then threw the rock and cleared his throat before asking the chinese, ❝are you sleepy?❞

renjun faked a gasp after hearing his question. ❝i probably am jeno, see? my eyes are drooping.❞

jeno knew how sarcastic renjun can get but he can bare with it. he chuckled at his answer but then had a worried look on when he saw renjun not minding where he is placing his hands. ❝be careful!❞

❝i'm very sleepy that i don't think i can entertain you right—❞ renjun felt himself leaning back.

he was about to hold on to the window's frame but everything was too late that he slipped when he squirmed. he shut his eyes very tight, holding back a scream as not to wake his parents up, and clenched his fists. what he was waiting for was the impact on the ground.

which he never get to feel.

❝are you usually this light or did you just skip dinner?❞

the next he knows, he's already being carried in jeno's arms. he couldn't hide the red tint on his cheeks as he admired the male that's shining under the moonlight, his visuals glowing.

❝so, i'm going to ask again.❞ jeno flashed him a smile, not planning to put him down. ❝are you sleepy?❞

even when he was in a daze with jeno's gorgeous visuals, he still managed to give him a proper answer. ❝i don't think i can be after that fall.❞

well, he indeed fell for jeno.

the younger male cheered as he carried renjun around their house and up to the front door, stealing slippers from the welcoming mat for renjun to wear. but even if he did have slippers for renjun, he still didn't put him down.

that didn't matter anyways. what mattered was what jeno was doing and where he is taking him.

❝great! we are going on an adventure.❞

🍑

renjun uncomfortably sat down the wooden floor and gave jeno a look. ❝by adventure, i actually thought we'd get lost in the woods.❞ he said before having his eyes wander the place they are in. ❝not settle in an old treehouse we built when we were kids.❞

❝why are you so upset about it?❞ jeno chuckled at the short male's reaction. ❝don't you miss this? we usually come here whenever we have a problem to talk about.❞

renjun's eyes that was busy scanning the treehouse went to jeno when the younger heaved a sigh when he laid his body down the wooden floor.

❝and i still do, always.❞

scooting closer, renjun played with his fingers as he didn't know what to say. he didn't have to ask what was wrong, he knew it's about his family. to be more specific, it's about jeno's father. ❝how is he?❞

staring up to the ceiling that's already falling apart and a small hole was showing the night sky, jeno took a while before he could answer. ❝he found a new one.❞

jeno would oftentimes update renjun about his father's affairs with other woman and he felt bad for thinking that the two were probably racing for who gets the largest number of girls they have. ❝that's the second one this month.❞

❝i just hope he'll finally settle with her.❞

renjun then decided to lay right next to jeno and get comfortable on the wooden floor. he took time watching the night sky that's shown in the hole in the ceiling. ❝you wished for that the last time.❞

❝i know.❞ the younger male groaned, turning his body sideways to face renjun. ❝i miss mom.❞

renjun was aware that jeno is intently staring at him which gives him a reason to just continue looking up the night sky. ❝the view is so beautiful.❞

with a smile on his face, jeno couldn't agree more. ❝indeed beautiful.❞

was jeno looking at him? yes. was he the view he meant? probably. did jeno just call him beautiful? renjun actually wished he didn't hear it.

because he did, he knows that jeno was referring to him.

it's not something to be happy of because he is hoping that maybe he actually has a chance with jeno. maybe he won't be just one of jeno's flings, maybe he'd actually be jeno's the one—

renjun shook the thoughts away, reminding himself that he is messing with an unloyal boy.

❝jeno—❞

renjun turned to his side and just froze from his place when he saw the male still looking at him with his eyes glittering.

jeno admired the small male. he may not be somebody in other people's eyes but for jeno, he's the only one that stood out. renjun is more than a somebody to him. he looks so simply beautiful by just laying there looking at him.

he could just kiss him.

renjun noticed how jeno was moving closer to him and he didn't even know why he did the same. they leaned closer to each other and even closed their eyes. renjun waited for it, he waited for something to touch his lips but nothing came but air. hot air, in fact.

only to find out that jeno fell asleep.

❝my god.❞ renjun looked away and faced back to the stars above. a chuckle then came out of his mouth, he was going crazy. ❝among all time to sleep jeno, it just had to be now.❞

and to think they were about to kiss.

❝great way to ruin the moment.❞

but with him so busy mumbling things about how disappointed he is with jeno sleeping at a very wrong time, he didn't notice jeno still conscious enough to actually hear every word he said.

jeno's lips then curved up as he scooted closer and placed an arm on the smaller's waist, startling the chinese.

❝you're still awake?❞

❝nope.❞

❝i thought you fell asleep!❞

❝i did.❞

❝jeno!❞

❝renjun, sleep.❞

and the night went on with them spending a wonderful time inside the old treehouse they had built when they were young and innocent.

⚊ t b c ⚊