❝oh, what is that smile i see?❞

renjun rolled his eyes at jaemin who suddenly appeared the moment he got out of the building, pressuring the chinese to tell him about he and jeno. renjun would just give him a knowing smile at every question he'd throw at him, jaemin wouldn't accept a smile as an answer. he needed words.

❝come on!❞ the tall male tugged the short on by the arm. ❝a simple yes or no wouldn't hurt.❞

the chinese gave jaemin a look, wondering why jeno would like to meet up in front of the building when he knows that jaemin is there to bug him. seeing renjun looking like he was waiting for the question made jaemin go all excited, clearing his throat and getting ready.

❝are you two finally official?❞

and with that, renjun gave disappointed him with a smile.

the younger huffed at renjun who is not giving him a clear answer. he is a friend, what would hurt telling your friend the truth? what is jaemin talking about, of course he'd get hurt. ❝i can see that i'm not important to you.❞

maybe sulking would do.

but renjun only chuckled at him. ❝i will tell you.❞

jaemin's eyes sparkled as he had his attention back to renjun.

❝but first,❞ the short male then pointed a finger at him, putting him in the hot seat. ❝tell me about you and donghyuck.❞

and that's what jaemin didn't expect for renjun to ask. rubbing his nape, the taller only let out a nervous chuckle while he looked away from the curious chinese. ❝it's a wonderful day, isn't it?❞

seems like jaemin is avoiding the topic which renjun had his brows raised at it. ❝don't ignore me like that.❞

❝ignore?❞ jaemin laughed as he playfully hit the other's shoulder. ❝my friend, i'm not ignoring you.❞

❝then donghyuck—❞

❝are you busy later? want to grab some food?❞ jaemin said, cutting renjun off. ❝i know a nice place to eat.❞

❝i'M nOt iGnOriNg yOu.❞ renjun mocked the younger one as he clicked his tongue at him who is just smiling as if he had just not upset him. ❝why are you dodging every question about donghyuck?❞

because he might slip and expose his own feelings to you. jaemin then showed him a smile, convincing him that he isn't hiding anything from him. ❝i just don't find the need to ask me about our status.❞

❝then would you be fine if i said that to you about jeno and i?❞ renjun shot back with a brow raised.

honestly speaking, yes. in that way he won't get hurt. but he was renjun's friend and he started to annoy him to admitting that he and jeno are together so it would be strange if he just drops the topic off. huffing, jaemin went back to clinging to renjun. ❝come on, tell me!❞

❝okay, i think distance is needed here.❞

jeno then came pulling the two apart, setting himself in the middle for jaemin not to cling to renjun anymore. seeing how annoyed jeno looked made renjun chuckle while jaemin was fazed by how cute his chuckle was, getting back to his senses when jeno glared at him.

crossing his arms, jaemin moved away. ❝so what is it really, you two?❞

❝what you need to know is that,❞ jeno followed, crossing his arms, and leaned close to the younger. ❝renjun and mine and i am renjun's.❞

jaemin almost gagged at what jeno had told him. ❝geez, i shouldn't have asked.❞ yeah, he shouldn't have because he didn't know it would hurt this bad.

the two laughed at jaemin's reaction, looking at each other after. staring at jeno with eyes filled of affection, jeno stared back and admired how renjun started to look beautiful each day. holding the chinese's hand, it didn't fail to go noticed by jaemin.

❝where should we go today?❞ renjun questioned, getting excited to spend the rest of the day with jeno.

pouting, jeno looked over to renjun with an apologetic frown. ❝you see, my friends had dragged me to their party in this bar.❞

hearing that made renjun's eyes widened. a bar? wouldn't that mean loud music, alcohol, and girls? renjun wanted to stop him from going, not allowing him to, but he didn't want to be the type who cages someone from their freedom. and thinking about it, he and jeno aren't officially together yet so had no right to stop him from going.

❝i promise i will go home not late than nine! i will send you a message once i get home.❞ jeno raised his free hand to make a promise. ❝i won't even get myself drunk tonight.❞

jaemin was still there to witness it all but stayed silent as he wasn't in the place to meddle with them. although, he was worried looking at renjun who showed a forced smile. judging by jeno's reaction, he didn't even notice that smile being faked by renjun.

❝just take care of your self, alright?❞ renjun said, caressing jeno's hand that he was still holding on to.

❝i will.❞ jeno smiled, getting renjun's approval. he then looked over to his side, startling jaemin with his glare. ❝you better bring renjun home safely.❞

renjun then slapped jeno's biceps, telling him to stop scaring jaemin. ❝i'm not a kid, i can go home by myself.❞

"hey jeno!"

seeing a group of guys calling jeno by a distance, renjun had a bad feeling about this but shrugged it off. this was the different jeno he is with, he is done with his past attitude, renjun already trusts this jeno he is with. have his feet tip toed, renjun placed a short peck on jeno's cheek before patting his shoulder to send him off.

❝bye.❞ jeno gave renjun one last smile before walking up to a group of guys.

both jaemin and renjun stood there as they watched jeno walk away while laughing together with his group of friends. jaemin was the first one to divert his eyes from jeno to renjun, feeling bad for the chinese. really, jaemin badly wanted to scold jeno for even having the audacity to go to a bar. but who is he to say that?

❝jaemin?❞

the younger blinked, just realizing that he had been staring at renjun for quite a while. ❝y-yeah?❞

❝is the offer still available?❞

jaemin was clueless for a second before finally getting what renjun meant. he then curved his lips up to brighten the mood, ❝there is this one restaurant i had just discovered.❞

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their meal ended with renjun and jaemin arguing as to who was going to pay for the meal. lucky for the waiter that tried to calm them down, a specific senior came to view and had recognize jaemin from afar. he walked over to the friends that are arguing and started to join their table, ordering desserts for them and ended volunteering to paying up for everything for the two not to make a ruckus inside the restaurant. they then parted ways after and both jaemin and renjun were now walking down the streets that still had people here and there.

the evening was just right but jaemin couldn't seem to help but be bothered by renjun who looked uneasy. he clearly knew it was about jeno.

❝i didn't know you and mark hyung are close.❞ renjun started, trying to get the negative thoughts out from his head.

jaemin then scratched his neck. ❝well, donghyuck and i are quite good friends.❞

giving the younger a look, renjun couldn't help but to ask. ❝what did he say about you and donghyuck?❞

jaemin didn't know that renjun was going to bring that topic up. ❝h-he doesn't know.❞ just like how renjun had no idea what jaemin is feeling towards him.

❝you're just keeping it to yourself?❞ jaemin really is and he plans on doing that until he moves on. ❝poor you.❞

❝hey!❞ jaemin then pouted, ❝you make it sound like i'm depressed about it.❞

❝doesn't it hurt to keep it to yourself?❞ renjun questioned.

it hurts, a lot if you ask him. ❝you managed to keep your feelings for jeno for around two years so..❞

renjun let out a giggle, ❝you're right. but, wouldn't it be hard getting donghyuck since he already has mark hyung.❞

it's very hard to get renjun knowing that he already has jeno. jaemin didn't know if they are officially together or not but what's the point, either way he still felt like he had no chance. ❝then i'm going to get the both of them.❞ he then managed to joke.

the chinese nudged at how confident he looked at getting two boyfriends at once. after that, he didn't talk anymore. they just let silence take over them as they walked down the streets.

not until jaemin broke the ice minutes after, ❝if you didn't want him to go then you could have said so.❞

heaving out a sigh, renjun wasn't even going to hide it from jaemin since he was pretty much obvious the whole time they were at the restaurant. ❝i didn't want to prevent him from enjoying.❞

❝but what about you?❞

shrugging, renjun placed both his hands inside the pockets of his pants before curving his lips up. ❝i enjoyed our dinner.❞ he said, telling to jaemin that he is also enjoying while jeno is doing the same.

❝no, i meant—❞

and it's as if the gods above were listening to their conversation. the two stopped when they heard loud laughters coming out from the bar they are about to pass by to. the person they have been talking about just then came into sight that surprised both of them. jaemin took a step forward, hoping to get jeno from there, but he was stopped by renjun who had held his arm.

there was nothing suspicious when they saw him, he was just laughing together with his friends but not even noticing renjun and jaemin standing there. it didn't matter, as long as jeno had kept his promise. he looked sober so maybe he didn't drink at all, renjun is probably just worrying over nothing.

not until he saw girls coming out from the bar they were in just a moment a while ago.

jaemin's eyes widened and the first thing he did was to look over to renjun who had his grip on jaemin's arm tightening.

❝renjun..❞

it's okay, as long as he has nothing to do with the girls. renjun reassured himself even though he had already seen one of the girls clinging to jeno and that guy didn't even push the girl away.

it was doing fine until he had seen something that had his heart shattered to pieces.

with his jaw dropped, jaemin had his fists clenched. ❝this asshole!❞ he planned to go and give jeno one hard punch but renjun still held him to stop him from hurting jeno.

jeno looked like he was caught off guard when the girl kissed him, he then started to panic when his eyes had caught a glimpse of a familiar figure by the streets. he quickly pushed the girl away, not caring if she cursed at him, and approached the short male he had just noticed.

seeing him walk closer made renjun take steps back, jaemin being dragged along with him, but it was no use since jeno still caught up with them.

trust me, jaemin was holding himself back when jeno was finally standing in front of renjun.

❝renjun, i can explain.❞ jeno breathed out, not finding the right words to say as he was busy thinking on how hurt renjun was when he had to see that. ❝she was clinging to me! i tried to push her away but she wouldn't disappear so i let it be. nothing happened till she kissed me there! i didn't kiss back, i promise!❞

renjun didn't say a word but his eyes showed it all, it showed how he felt. the tears showed how hurt he is right now.

seeing him cry made jeno feel really bad, ❝please listen to me. renjun, i didn't want to do it. i even pushed her away.❞

❝you pushed her away because you saw me.❞ the shorter managed to whisper out.

jeno shook his head, holding renjun's hands that are shaking. ❝no, i would push her away either way. you know i belong to you, okay?❞

jaemin felt very useless at that moment. he wanted to protect renjun and push jeno away from him but he didn't have the right to do so. he also didn't want to worsen the situation.

❝you love me, right?❞ jeno brought renjun's hand to his chest for the chinese to feel his heartbeat. ❝the renjun i know loves me and would try to understand me. please don't get it the wrong way.❞

just when he had finally thought that jeno changed, that he could finally trust him.

retrieving his hand back from jeno, renjun distanced himself from jeno. ❝but the jeno i know loves no one but himself.❞

he was stupid to even believe that he can finally love jeno without any hesitations.

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