"Where is she?!" I sat straight up, ignoring the shock of pain, which felt like bolts of electricity that ran through my bones.

The doctor stopped his rambling, standing up straight, his eyes going wide. He straightened his white jacket, placing the clipboard onto the table.

"Where is who?"

Fuck, I'm such a fuck up. "This can't be happening..." I cursed, feeling the familiar pressure behind my sinuses.

"Niall, you should probably sit back. Whatever the problem is, we can fix it..." He walked over to me, helping me lay back.

"No! Get your hands off of me!" I shoved him back, hissing in pain by my ribs.

"Okay, Niall, I need you to talk to me. What is the problem?"

"Where the fuck is Khloe!?" I yelled. I could feel my face growing hot by how pissed off I was getting. "I'm such a fucked up person, I can't believe I did that.. God, she probably hates me." I murmured to myself, sitting back in defeat.

In my defense I really didn't remember...

"Mr. Horan, calm down, we will get her."

"Don't call me that! That is my father, not me. I despise my father!"

"Sorry, Niall, please calm down, sir." The doctor went to the door, sticking his head out. "Khloe."

Wait, what? She's here?

Not even seconds later, Khloe was walking in, a panicked look written across her face. She glanced to me then back to the doctor.

"W-What's going on?" She stuttered. It was as if there was a gravitational pull between us as she kept inching closer to my bed.

"Please, just come here?" I spoke softly, scared as to what she would think. Does she hate me? I was a dick to her.. Did I ruin my chance?

Her head whipped around to look at me, before she glanced back to the doctor.

Can he leave already, I kind of need to talk to my girl.. Well, if she still is my girl...

I stared at him for a moment too, with a scowl on my face. I think he got the message as he cleared his throat and exited.

Prick.

Khloe turned to me again, her tank-top strap falling off her shoulder. I glanced to it, before pulling on her arm for her to sit down.

I scooted over, pulling her into the bed with me. She looked confused for a moment, but I could hear the small sigh of relief that she'd let out when my arms wrapped around her.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled into her hair. I rested my head onto her shoulder, my eyes closing.

She moved a bit to get a better look at me. "I'm confused." She whispered, placing her hands in my chest.

"I've been dreaming about you. Dreams that are far more than just seeing your face."

"Like what?"

"I don't remember them much, but I know the feeling I'm getting when I wake up from them. I was confused because you were in my dream while I was in a coma. It was you and me and it was so personal. Then I heard you for the first time after I'd woken up. I couldn't talk, or even open my eyes, but I could hear you. I just wanted to open my eyes to see if it really was you, but I couldn't."

Her fingers drew light circles over the hospital gown, her eyes never once looking up to mine.

"And that next day, when I finally did open them, and you were there, you looked so different from my dream. Still beautiful, but... different. My head couldn't tell who you were.

It was like some random girl had just walked up to me and hugged me. It scared me a bit, if I'm honest. And then you said you were Khloe, but you weren't the Khloe from my dream. When I watched you cry, for some reason, my heart just felt like it was going to crumble. I don't know how to describe it, but I felt weird. Half of me wanted to just hold you like this, and the other half wanted to return to its natural habits and push you away. That's what I was familiar with, so that's what I did.."

She glanced up to me, dark circles surrounding her eyes. Her hair was all over the place, but she was still beautiful. I move the strap of her shirt back over her shoulder, gliding my fingers back down to her hand.

"So you remember?"

I inhaled then exhaled, trying to think of a way to put this. "Not necessarily, but somewhere inside of me does. I know that this feels right. I know that I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach when I hold you like this. I do remember blue and red lights flashing. I remember staring at you inside the ambulance, but everything is just a big blur. It's like trying to remember someone you've never even met."

"So what's going to happen?" Her whispered voice cracked, making me gulp. I hadn't really planned that far ahead yet... I just knew that I had to make sure that everything was okay with us first.

"Um, I get out of here, and go back to college? Maybe if I get back into my routine, things will return to normal or somewhat normal for me?"

"Am.. Um," she swallowed hard before looking up to me. "Am I still part of that, or are you wanting to start over?"

"Would you want to be a part?"

"Kind of..." She mumbled, looking back down to her hand. "I mean, we were with each other almost every day.. I don't think I can really go back to not having you at all. A friend is better than nothing, I guess..."

Why would she think that she's just going to be my friend? If she hasn't figured it out yet, I'm holding her for a reason.

I realized that I kind of need her if I ever want to get back to normal..

"Who said that you'd be friend?"

"I-um..."

"If you were a part of my routine then, don't you think that it would be best to just continue from where we left off? Try and get me back into a normal schedule?"

"But, now that you have a chance to start over, wouldn't you want to go back to sleeping with girls and partying and stuff?"

So Khloe and I really haven't slept together? Is she really a virgin? If so, why the hell did I pick her to be mine? Why would I want to be responsible for that level of innocence?

And partying? When was the last time I went to a damn party? Did I seriously drop all of this shit over a girl? What the hell was wrong with me?!

"When was the last time I did that stuff?" I'm not sure if she knows, but it's worth a shot.

"Slept with a girl was... around the first of September. And the last party we went to was three weeks ago?" She glanced to the ceiling like it was going to give her answers.

"Why so long ago? And we really haven't slept together?"

A faint smile crossed her lips as if she was remembering something for a moment. "The last party, my ex almost tried raping me and so we kind of distanced ourselves from our friends. All, but Liam." Who's Liam? "And the last girl, I don't really know. That's just what you told me. You said that you'd fooled around but haven't slept with anyone since. And, no, we've never had sex." Her cheeks grew into a rosemary color, lightly dusting her cheeks. "But we have fooled around a bit."

"So you really are a virgin?" It was weird talking to this girl like I didn't know her even when she knew everything about me.

"Yes. I don't really want to be, but that was our "vows" technically to each other. It was out deal." She smiled, lightly laughing as she began to draw circles on my chest again.

"What was the deal, exactly?" I hate not already knowing. It's like I'm re-learning myself.

"That if we dated, there would be no sex. Which isn't really fair, in my opinion." She smiled up to me, the blush reappearing.

"Well, sorry, princess. But, if it was a deal then, it's a deal now." I smiled, laughing softly as she frowned.

It hurt too bad to laugh normally.

Okay, now all I have to do is calm my teenage hormones, and not sleep with this girl, or any other girl for that matter. It shouldn't be that hard right? I mean I guess I've done it before.

"How old am I?" I blurted. It'd really been bugging me and it just kind of slipped. I felt weird asking how old I was, but I guess it's kind of important to know..

Khloe giggled a bit, looking up to rub my cheek. Her touch was gentle and foreign to me, but it made my stomach bubble, nonetheless.

"You're twenty one." She smiled.

"I'm twenty one? Then what's the date?"

"Yes. It's Monday, October 13th, so it's been a month."

"Did you celebrate it with me?"

She frowned, shaking her head. "No. I was in Florida with my parents."

"Oh."

"Yeah, so happy birthday." She giggled, smiling brightly.

I laughed, my fingers running through her hair. I wish I wouldn't have forgotten the time I've spent with her.

Were we dating for long or just a couple weeks? Were we good together? Did we fight a lot? Did we have a good, strong relationship, or was one too controlling, or demanding? Was she one who used me for my money, or did she truly care when no one else did?

Did we talk a lot? Share secrets? Did we kiss a lot or just cuddle? I don't normally like people in my space, but did I allow her? Did I allow her to snuggle me and hold my hand? Did we hug?

I have so many questions, but instead of asking, I'd maybe like to find out for myself. Put away the begging in my head for me to return to my old habits, and learn new ones with Khloe. I want to learn what made Khloe so unlike the other girls.

"Were we dating then, too? When you were in Florida, I mean?"

"No. We were friends, but I was dating Luke at the time."

"And do I know Luke?"

She glanced across the room towards the window, in thought for a moment. The place grew quiet and I wasn't sure if I should have brought him up now...

Wait, didn't she say she almost was raped by her ex?

"Was Luke the one who almost..." I trailed off. I was a little uncomfortable to say it.

"Uh-" she coughed, looking up to me. "Yeah and you and him didn't really get on too well."

"I can see why. I don't even remember the guy and I hate him already." I chuckled and she did too, burying her head into my neck as her arms wrapped around me.

I tried to ignore the fighting inside myself that wanted to push her away and instead tightened my arms around her.

I guess we cuddle.

I smiled and the thought, resting my cheek against hers.

"I'm so happy you're okay." She whispered.

"I'm far from okay, Khloe." I wish I wasn't, but I guess I have a bastard of a father to blame for that.

"I know, but I like to think you are. You've remembered a small piece, who's to say you won't remember more?"

"You sound like Harry." I smiled. Her eyes grew instantly and she suddenly jumped up. Before I was able to say anything, she'd ran out of the room, shutting the door.

Okay, am I missing something here?

No longer than two minutes later, she slowly entered, a light smile and blush on her face.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to run, but I had to make sure someone knew that they could leave now."

Khloe walked back over to the bed, almost sitting in a chair before I pulled her back over, onto the bed. Her smile widened a little.

"Who was here?"

"Just... a friend."

I narrowed my eyes at her, try to decipher whether she was lying or not. Did I know this person?

I let it go as I just nodded. She instantly relaxed, sitting back a bit. "I know something's up, but I won't ask." I stated, fixing my twisted hospital gown. Damn, I hate these things!

Just then, the door opened again, and in walked the doctor, and a new nurse who was holding a try of food in her hand. She set it down on my stand and I immediately thanked her as my stomach started to rumble. I hadn't realized how hungry I was until now.

"Niall, the tests came in. You are aware of the mental damage that had been caused. It looks to be that your skull had cracked beside your left temple, and a bit behind your let ear. A piece of bone is pressing on the brain, causing nerve damage which resulted in you having memory loss."

I nodded, taking a bite of a blueberry muffin. I pulled a piece off for Khloe, sticking it by her mouth. She shook her head, but I shoved it between her lips, making her giggle. I smiled with satisfactory, continuing to listen.

"Now, you have two options, here. One of which requires you to undergo surgery to remove the piece of bone immediately, or you can wait it out for a couple weeks to see if the piece moves or breaks into smaller fractions."

"I'll choose the second!" I spoke right away. There is no way in hell I'm letting these fucking doctors mess with my head. That takes way too much trust, of which I am not capable of supplying.

He laughed lightly, checking off a few things on the paper.

"I would like to see you in here November 2nd at the latest. We ask that you stay one more night to make sure that you are up to schedule with how you should be doing."

Khloe moved a bit, drawing my attention to her for a split second before I turned it back towards the man.

"When you return home," he looked to Khloe "we ask that he continues with his daily routines. Help him get into a schedule which follows one of similarity to which he originally had. By doing this, we hope that his brain can catch up on some things. There is still a possibility that he may remember." He looked back to me, raising his thick, grey eyebrows. "However Niall, I do suggest taking this week off of class. I will write you a note. No physical activity for at least six weeks, or until after I see you again. I will write you a prescription for pain medication, which you will receive tomorrow morning. Take two, twice a day for the next 24 days and you should be all set." I nodded and pulled the glass of water to my lips.

"Hydration counts, Niall, so no alcohol while on the medication. We prefer water over juices or any drink that contain large amounts of sugar as well."

"He's on the soccer team also, is there any way he can continue once he's healed?" Khloe asked, moving a hair out of her eyes.

"I will let him know after his next appointment." With that, he gave us one last glance and smile before exiting the room.

"You're such an ass." Khloe pushed me by the shoulder, laughing as she wiped the crumbs off of her clothes.

"Sorry, but in my defense, you look really boney and pale.. When was the last time you ate?"

"I had a coffee earlier."

"When did you eat, Khloe?"

"I-I... Three days ago..." I gasped, setting the whole muffin in her hand.

"You're eating this. Now. No exceptions." I stated, opening up a thing of yogurt and setting that in her other hand.

"No, Niall, you have to eat." She pushed it away, setting it back on my stand.

"Not gonna happen, sunshine. Eat up. I get food for free anyways."

How the hell can she go without eating for three days! That's ridiculous! It's crazy! She has a nice body and she needs to eat to keep it this way.

"Niall, I am not eating your food."

Why is she so damn defiant? "Eat. Now."

"No."

"Has anyone ever told you how stubborn you are?" I huffed, taking a bit of the yogurt myself.

She giggled and for some reason, all of the irritation that was building in my chest suddenly dissolved and was replaced with a light feeling. "Yes. You have, quite a bit, if I'm honest."

"Good. It's true. But guess what?" She smiled, her eyes gleaming a bit brighter.

"What?"

"So am I, now eat. You're not leaving until you eat."

"Who said I want to leave?" She raised her eyes at me, a smirk forming on her perfectly pink lips.

"Fine. I'll make you leave then."

"Well, that'd be quite mean, you suppose?" She questioned.

I laughed my face then falling flat. "No. Now eat."

"Well, then..." She started to stand up and my heart suddenly dropped. No! She can't leave! I was just kidding!

"Khloe, please don't go. I was just kidding!" I gripped ahold of her hand, turning her to face me.

She suddenly chuckled, looking down at me. "I'll be right back." She laughed. "I was going to get something to eat to bring back up here. I'm not going to eat your food."

I felt my cheeks redden slightly over the panic that had set in just over that. Since when do I fucking blush over a girl? "Oh..." I let go of her hand, earning a laugh out of her.

I like her laugh. It's pretty and light, but not fake.

"I'll be right back." I nodded and watched as she left.

I quickly pushed the try away and stood up, holding onto the drip bar as I walked to the bathroom. My legs felt like jelly after lying in bed for so long. My butt felt numb, and my feet were tingling.

I quickly went to the bathroom and washed my hands before exiting. I sat back onto the bed and for the first time in almost a week, I quickly turned my phone on.

The little apple sign came on, but it was black with a white background rather than the other way around. I feel like I've just jumped into the future..

My home screen suddenly popped up and I went to slide it, realizing there was a password. Fuck. I didn't really think about that.

I tried doing all just ones, then 1580, but neither of those worked. I typed in 1393 and that didn't work.

Fuck, it could be anything.

Khloe suddenly entered the room again, food in one hand, a small plastic bag in the other. A nurse entered in after her, and it was the same old one from this morning.

"Hey, I've got new clothes." Khloe stated, gesturing to the bag. I nodded, looking to the nurse.

"Have you been able to hold the food and water down alright?" She asked me, walking over to my other side. I nodded, setting my phone on my bed. "Good. Would you mind if we took this off then?"

"God, please do." I laughed, and so did Khloe and the nurse. "Thank you, Mrs..."

"Warren." She smiled at me, pulling the needle out of my palm. There was a slight pinch but nothing more than like getting a shot.

"Well, thanks. I can move now." She laughed, placing a bandage over the small hole that was left.

Khloe set her food at the end of the bed before entering the bathroom with her clothes.

There was a small shower, so I'm guessing that's where she went to first. I was proved correct when I heard the water pound against the plastic tub.

"It's really a shame- what happened to you, Niall. We see cases in here all the time. Fortunately, you seemed to make it out a lot better than most. Be thankful that it's only a section of your memory gone. It might seem like a lot now, but we've had many young kids come in here and they wake up having to be retaught everything."

"Yeah, I am thankful. It's just irritating feel like you want to remember but you know you cannot." I stated, just trying to make small talk with the women while she finished up my things.

"I can't say I understand, but I see it often and you just have to be patient. Try to be calm and just relax. Anger usually arises in situations like this and it doesn't help the people around. She'll help you through it, I know she will, but she's going to get irritated too." I nodded, assuming she was talking about Khloe. "It's going to be hard and a learning process, but be patient with her, also. It's going to be hard for her to help you adjust and you just have to help each other."

"I'll try my best." I stated, not really sure what to say.

I was thankful when Khloe walked out of the bathroom, though. She was dressed in black yoga pants and a teal blue shirt, her towel-dried hair was pulled into a messy ponytail.

Mrs. Warren, the nurse, smiled at us both before pulling off her rubber gloves and tossing them in the trash.

Khloe sat on my bed, where I had somewhat pulled her next to me. She helped of course because if the pain that was still aching on my side. She pulled the blanket over her lap before opening a wrapper which contained a peanut butter cliff bar. She also had an apple, cut up grapes, and an orange. I was kind of surprised by how healthy she was eating.

She handed me my phone which I began to try and break into again. I sighed when it buzzed saying that I had to wait one minute.

"Do you know this damn password?" I asked Khloe.

She chuckled, swallowing. "Yes. It's 1197."

Eleven ninety seven? November nineteen ninety seven? Mum's death date? Of course it's that... why didn't I think of that before?

I quickly typed it in and of course my home screen was brought up. It started to buzz erratically, making me jump slightly. I quickly locked it and set it on the stand. Khloe laughed, making me smile.

"Where'd you get the clothes?" I asked, watching the nurse leave.

"Harry brought them to me." She smiled, sticking the cliff bar to my lips. I took a small bite, then nodded.

"How did Harry know I was here? Has he asked questions?" She froze for a second before clearing her throat.

"Promise to not get mad?" She asked timidly, fiddling with the wrapper in her hands.

Oh God.

NIALL IS FREAKING 21 YEARS OLD!!!!! I'm literally sobbing my eyes out!!!!!

I was supposed to post this yesterday, but I was too busy being Niall from Texas for the day (if you're on twitter you'll understand ;))

But it's up now, so yay! Love you guys! thanks for everything!!! Xx