"listen Aug I love you man and I want the best for yuh , I don't want you to fall in the same footsteps like your brother man"

"You gotta girl na if they find out about her you know they goin after her"

I was really fustrated with people tellin me this . Do you how hard it is ? My family need food it aint just me and my momma its also cha and ha kids.

"I need the fast money man! I'm behind on rent we barely got food dawg and its 5 of us now. For sho now i need this money"

"Listen i'll give you money every month until you get back on ya feet..but for now this ya last week.. i cant keep you here-"

"Mane why you doin this to me! You see how hard things is for m-"

"I done lost a good brother and ya momma lost one son already she dont need to lose another one" that shut me up. Whenever people mention my brother i always go silent.

"Who goin provide for them if you gone?"

"See why i'm doin this na..since this ya last week look for a part time job somewhere..dont wait on me to give you money" he pulled me in for a hug.

"I love you mane" i just nodded and pulled away. I took my leave.
I pulled out a blunt real quick cause i was stressed right about na.

When i felt good i went to bring Mya to the car.

I turned the car on and we were off to her house. The car was in complete silence only thing you hearin is the CD Mya put in so i let the music sink in.

I've been waiting on you to ask for help
But you keep turning to someone else
But you can't do this by yourself
When will you see this
Your friends have all let you down
And your family just ain't around
Now your faith is on the ground in a million pieces
Well your plans didn't work out
And your love life is burnt out and you never stop to wonder why
Could there be something just ain't right
Maybe you need me by your side
When will you see
That I'm the only one you need I keep
I keep calling out what about me what about me
Your looking everywhere but to the one who truly cares
I keep on calling out what about me what about me

By now we reached Mya's house "we here" before i even got another word out she slipped out of the car and left.
Damn. I slammed my hand on the steerin wheel in fustration.
Lord knows what i gotta do to get her to act right with me.

I just went to my chill spot and pulled out blunt afta blunt.
Mya Cd was still playin.
I just looked up to the sky

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I was just thinkin on how ama do this thing called life. This was gonna be hard for a nigga.
I feel so alone now.
I just remember the two song on Mya's cd that i actually paid attention to. What if i try God?
Would he make a way for me like he did for Mya??

Nah man. If God oh so loved me he wouldnt put me through all this mess.

Dont blame god for something you caused upon yourself
The voice inside my head said.

Man whatever i aint had no choice.
**********
Mya been on my mind the rest of the week. I did all that i could this last week. So nope i barely went school and when i did Mya would ignore me.

I really sat and thought about my life. I really wanna be there for my family.

"Eyy man.. i aint seen you in a minute" dennis said as he sat next me on my porch.

"Been busy man.." i continued smoking my blunt.

"Eyy look man..we all got a story man and Mya convinced us that we should try Jesus ...i'm not sure about this whole church thing but i dont wanna die young..just like you i got mouths to feed" i just looked at him. I didnt bother say a word. He was right.

"Anyways man..we all goin with Mya to church . You should tag along ..it would definitly change Mya's sulky mood" he pat me on the back befo leavin.
Ahh hell ion know what to do.

Mya POV

Do i miss August ? Yes.
Do i wish he would drop this gang thing and make money legally ? Hell yea.
I havent heard from him since the chill day.

I feel hurt that he is still gonna do this drug dealin thing knowin god forbid that he could end up dead. I dont want him to continue this.

I miss his foolish self. The way he talks. The way he would get comfortable with me. The way he would joke around. The way he made me feel beautiful.

"Mya hurry up ..Rebecca is outside!" My mom just snapped me out of my thoughts. I grabbed my bag and start to walk out.
I was wearin a nice fitted dress..that was Navy blue accordin to my mom.

Rebecca helped me to her car and as we both got in we made our way to church.

"I cant believe you finna bring these teddy bear thugs to church..i didnt think it would be possible" i had to chuckle. This girl was ridiculous.

"Look at you being all awesome and stuff" she gushed. I flipped my hair acting cocky. "You know how i do boo"

"Okay lets not start.. cause it look like i boosted yo ego too damn high" we busted out laughing.

When we reached she helped me out.

3rd person POV

"Hey boys" Rebecca said.
When the turn and saw Mya they all gasped "Damnnnn" they all said.

"Myaaa" they all went to hug her. "Right because i'm invisible!" Rebecca yelled. " oh crap i aint even see you" dennis said faking surprise. She glared at him.

"Eyy Mya .. i aint wearin no fancy clothes cause i aint got none. I got some J's on my feet a polo and jeans" Robbie said and she nodded.

"Thats cool. We aint pose to dress fancy anyway.. were just suppose to dress in what we comfortable in"
They all agreed.

"Fa'real ?! Got a nigga in a tux and all this crap my momma made me were these fancy shoes-"
"Pause.. your mom made you wear these?" Dennis asked.

"Yea-"

"Nigga you seventeen ..you suppose to say what you want. Like mama ion like them shoes i aint wearin it"

"For my momma to thump me up right ? Well na i aint tryna walk around tellin people i walked into the door" robbie made everyone laughed.

They all parted ways when August came around. He couldnt help but look at her up and down.

"Sup guys why yall all quiet now?" Mya was confused. Just a second ago they were all makin noise now they're all quiet.

"You look so damn beautiful" he came closer to her and leaned down to her ear "..this dress make ya behind look a whole lot bigger ma.....damn" she began laughin lightly and pushed him back for some personal space. Even though she wanted him close as possible.

"Wasnt expectin you to be here.."

He shrugged. "I wasnt expectin to come myself eitha"

She nodded and turned her head some where else.

"Look i took what you said and what everyone else said into consideration... some people dont have what i have and i should embrace it and not take advantage of it and so i decided to try God out and see what he's all about.. my boss let me go too .. this was my last week thats why i havent been around much.."

She was shocked and proud of him and he could see it in her eyes. "Not one day had gone by that i didnt miss you... that i didnt think about that beautiful smile of yours and how ya face light up when we talk about food" the both laughed.

"I missed yo crazy self" he lifted her up as they hugged.

They both jumped when they heard the guys awww-ing and clapping.

"Finally. Now guys the service bout to start lets go".becca said pullim everybody in.

As they began walkin August was admiring Mya's behind. "Damn" when Mya caught on she place the bag on her bottom. "Can you not!" She blushed in embarassment.

"Sorry ma" he said not feelin one ounce of guilt.

***
The worship was legit and intense. The guys loved it but were a bit uncomfortable.

"Eyy Mya why these people watchin me like that ?"

"This woman muggin the hell outta me" August mumbled. This made Mya mad.

"Alright guys gimme a second" i called out for rebecca so she could walk me up front.

"Hii pastor Charles " i hugged him.

"Mya.. how are you?"

"I'm fine i was just wondering if i could pass a small word to the church."

"Sure sure go ahead then lead us in to fellowship" i nodded alright time to go up.

I grabbed the mic and becca stood with me by the altar.
"Goodmornin church"
They all mumbled back goodmorning.

"Now i'm upset because frankly we arent really actin like a church especially with new comers. When new people come they're expected to feel loved . Amen?" They responded repeatin 'amen'

"Now i brought a group of friends .. first time here and guess what ? They are uncomfortable. Because they are gettin all kinds of stares. Let me tell you ... we aint in no place to judge lord knows most of us were probably just like them.. we dont know what they go through we dont know their story and plus nobody is perfect. You should be glad when you see young people comin to church . Encourage them. Atleast they are makin an effort to change. Our goal is to save them not run them out for what ? For them to consider goin back to the streets? No that is not our goal. We all made our mistakes we all werent holy from the start we werent chtistians our whole life . So what would you rather ? Save them or run them back into the streets? " i vented my heart out because this angered me. The whole place was quiet before people started clapping.

"Right now we just want you to encourage somebody and hug them" the dj was suppose to play music but he was still searchin so i stalled for him.

"Dont judge me just love me
Leave it all up to Jah
Dont judge me just love me
Cause none of us are perfect

You know my name not my story but yet you wanna act like you know it.
Dont judge me just love me
Dont judge me

Just then he found a song so i made my way down to be in a bone crushing hug.

"Remind me not to get on your bad side"i chuckled at this fool.

"I appreciate you ma.. you mean alot to me" he pecked me before hugging me again.