"I cant take you nowhere I swear!" I was so embarrassed.

"Aye ma I was only asking questions"

"Now when pregnant we all know the milk increases in the breast and sometimes the nipples are just really hurting or it's swollen-"

"Right, so Mrs. Barkley , we the men have to caress it ? Take care of it right ? Ease the pain?"

She chuckled "yes Mr. Alsina, I was actually getting there"  I looked him dead in the eye I was about to smack the hell outta him.

"I mean you can actually be the first example since you're so eager" my face turned beat red . Jesus help me.

"Well first you want her to be comfortable , you can sit behind her and she can relax on you like a pillow. You embrace her and you can begin to massage her bust for her-" I wanted to crawl in a hole. He held my boobs from underneath and lifted it a bit "ouuu" he looked at her "that's a lot of milk" oh my Goodness

"What if she's already on a bed , I mean don't I get to be in the front then?" All I wanted August to do right now .. was to shut the hell up.

My boobs are hurting yes but I don't want to get sexually active in a class full of people that I don't even know ! August can just touch me sometimes and it happens. I just prefer to be home alone with him.

"I think you have a boob fetish"

"Negative. I have a you fetish"
He smirked and pecked me. "I'm just tryna show niggas how it's done"
He playfully tilt my boob and tried to run from my smack .

"Mrs.Barkley , is she allowed to abuse the father ? Isn't anger unhealthy for the baby?" He played smart .

"Correct" she chuckled.

After massaging my boobs he just went ahead and publicly asked " Mrs.Barkley is there a step where we get to help the moms practice breast feeding before the baby comes ?" Well alright Jesus take me now.
Just take me now.
 
She coughed uncomfortably and chuckled. The other couples chuckled as well .

"You can in your private time."

"I could've given you a concussion with all them smacks to your head. But your head is hard as rock" I rolled my eyes but he smirked "I know"

"I'm done with you"
We had just gotten home.

"C'mon ma, you know I was just playing. That class boring as hell"

I rolled my eyes playfully walking towards the bedroom "yeah whatever" I mumbled

I hopped on the bed and took off my shoes. "Baby you want something to drink ?"

"Sure bring me a water"

"Shoot, that's all you was going to get anyway"
Shaking my head.

I turned on the tv and it landed on the news
"Shanae porter leaked photos of her encounter with superstar August Alsina"

"And is reported to be pregnant with his baby?"

Here's me trying to figure out if it's real or not and just then August walks in.

So my eyes falls on him.  I didn't say nothing and he just wen on about "shit shit, why people always doing me this"

"They just want my money" he went and got upset.

"Hmm" was my only response. And he got more upset. What in the world am I witnessing ? Cause I swear I'm the one that's suppose to be emotional. But I'm really chill. Mad but at the same time until I know the truth I won't react.

"What ? You believe them and not me ?"
Confused I'm like "what?"

"How'd you even come up with that ?"

"Well you sitting there all mad and what not so I gotta ask"

"So you made an assumption based off of my silence ? I can't process stuff now ?"

"What's there to process?"

"August are you being for real ? No tell me for real is you carrying a baby of your own? Cause I need to know?"

"Ma , you the only one carrying my seed!"

"Well okay" I shrugged. If he say so then hey that's my husband I gotta trust him.
If the evidence turns out he is I'll know he lied. Done.

"Well that's even if it is my seed"
I chuckled shaking my head. I felt a rage coming and that's not what I want my baby's to experience right now .

But ... it just happened.

I took the lamp and swung it at him, but he ducked just in time.

"YOU SENT HIM TO THIS HOUSE !! YOU SENT HIM TO WATCH OVER ME . YOU SENT HIM TO TAKE CARE OF ME! YOU!"

"Ma , hold on no-" I cut him off.

"You start accusing of some shit I never did , I held you down from day one . My loyalty for you is solid."
I breathed out, with tears threatening to leave my eyes.
"You'd think after everything we been through you'd know that by now. But I guess that meant nothing to you huh? You the one out here clubbing and doing stuff but I'm the one that's cheating." Shaking my head .

"I'm outta here" I grabbed my bag and my keys.

"Wait wait hold on ma" he stood in the way
"Move out the way August"

"You carrying my babies I can't just let you leave like that fo you do something crazy and hurt yourself"

"I need to go"

"What you mean by you outta here ?"

"It mean I'm outta here" i brushed passed him.

"Obviously you don't trust me and everything we been through meant nothing to you. I mean if my love for you means nothing to you , why the hell stay ?"

I walked out the door opening my car door. I rushed in the car.

"Wait wait so you not coming back ? Babe wait !"
I turned the car on and started to reverse
"Mya!" He knocked on the window.

"There you go! Running like you always do" tears in my eyes , I took my wedding ring off and threw it at him.

"Take that cause it means nothing to you anyway!" Shock written on his face, his eyes start to water but I kept reversing and drove off.

I needed to protect my peace for my babies. August has some issues of his own, that he needs to solve. He need to solve it before these babies come out because I can't have that around them.
I was gonna take a whole trip . Just away from everything for a lil bit.

I decided to call my best friend let her know what's up
"Hey babe, umm just letting you know I'm going on a flight"

"Hey, why you sound like you crying ? What's up? When you leaving? Let me come with you"

"Umm let me just have a few days to myself and then you can pull up"

"Lord , was it August again? I promise you I have a pending slap for this man"

"I'm not even tryna stress I'll hit you up"

"Lil mama I wanna be sure you're okay as well as the baby's"
Sighing
"I'll be alright , just give me a few days"

"Alright baby"

"Thank you , see you sooon"

"I love you"

"I love you too"

It's so funny how people love the idea of marriage but don't know all the stuff you gotta deal with behind the title.

I mean I got money now. I just wanna be somewhere where I can be at peace.
I booked a quick flight to a place I've never been,

I went to the Caribbean.