I sat on the couch 5th night in a row watchin tv and waitin for August to come home.

He has been avoidin me. When i come home and i wanna talk he gotta go somewhere.

Then he doesnt come home till like 3/4 in the morning.

We gotta talk. Even if we dont like it.
A marriage wont work if communication is poor.

It was goin on 2 am and he still wasnt home.

I was really gettin tired. Could've barely keep my eyes open.

August pov

I came home and again i found Mya laid out on the couch sleeping.

It was past 3 and i really wanted to sleep.
I was a bit tipsy too so i kept stumbling.
I went to drink some water to stabilize myself.

I watched her sleep. I sighed. This marriage thing was gettin real hard.

I been gone for a while so i dont know if she been doin things on the low.

I seen Yazz and Quan girls cheat on em. Just a little time away can give a girl enough time to find another man.

I been gone for a while now. She had more than enough time. Chris.

I dont wanna believe it but it could be true.

I picked her up bridal style and brought her to the bed .

She held on to me tighter when i was about to let her down.

"Come to bed Aug"

"I'm comin. I'm just gon change my clothes" i lied.
I didnt wanna be in a bed where there was a chance another man was up in there.

She let me go and i went to change my clothes and go sleep in the other room.

I had so much on my mind.

Mya's pov

I woke up and guess what as usual August wasnt next to me.

I went and did my hygiene and went to make breakfast. I bet he was gone too.

It was like 10 now. Chris wanted me to pass by the studio. He wants me to do a whole album. Crazy but soo true.

People loved the song i made and are expecting to hear more from me. I actually got paid for that.

This could be like a job for me.

I'd have to talk to Aug about that. Not sayin that i wont do it if he doesnt agree cause i will.

Surprisingly August walked in . In full clothing like he was about to leave.

"Mawnin" he mumbled going in the fridge.

"Morning" i stopped what i was doin and faced him.

"August we gotta talk " i sighed.
"Now you wanna talk? Last time you walked out" he closed the fridge facing me.

"You really hurt my feelings" my eyes started watering.

"What about mines? I been gone for long i dont know what you been doin behind my back" i was soo confused.

"I'm your wife you suppose to trust me" he sighed shakin his head.
"Not now Mya i gotta go to work"

He left me sniffling in the kitchen. He was really pissin me off with this crap.

I really just wanted to have a happy life.
I looked down at my stomach and started rubbing it.

"We'll get through this okay" i mumbled.

I got ready to go to my doctor's appointment and then i was heading to the studio.

I hopped in the car and made my way to my appointment.

I was going by myself . Yup by myself.
Something me and August was suppose to be doin end up in me doin it all by myself.

I entered the building and asked for Mr.Brown. I went straight ahead to his office.

"Heeyy Mr.Brown" i smiled entering fully.

"Heyy Mrs.Alsina , how are you today?"

He hugged me . "I'm just a lil tired"

"I can imagine" he went to prepare his machine and i went ahead and sat on the bed.

"No daddy today?" I shook my head.
"We're actually havin a really rough patch right now and i dont know how to break it to him" i explained.

"You know what i think?" He started off saying.
"I think that no matter what , a man would be thrilled to hear the heartbeat of his child despite the current situation" makin me feel a bit bad.

"I'm scared. I dont wanna stress so much. Now is just not the right time"

"Okay . No problem. The rest of your friends arent coming either?"

"I'm not sure , everyone's busy so i guess its just me" i was really sad i had to share this moment alone no lie.

"Alright . Lets get started. I'm gonna need you to lay down." I did as i was told and he told me he was gonna put a gel on my stomach and then we'd be able to see and hear the baby's heartbeat.

When he finished explained he was about to put to the gel on my stomach when Rebecca barged in the room with Dennis and Chris behind her.

"Sorry i'm late Dennis fat behind had to stop for donuts" she looked so annoyed i had to laugh.

"You didnt think we'd leave you go through this alone right?" Chris said with a raised eyebrow.
"You expectin my nephew child, i gotta come check on him and see how he's doin" Dennis said eatin his donut.

"I got a whole video diary to do" Chris shrugged pullin out his phone and started recording.

"Alright since the whole gangs here lets get started shall we?" I had some tears of joy runnin down my face. Becca came and wiped em all away.

"Alright here is the baby's head " he started pointing out.

Dennis wiped his eyes "lil man already got ya big ass head"

"No swearin Dennis! " i scolded him while the rest laughed.

"We dont know the gender yet either so relax" becca defended.

" this is the baby's heartbeat." This made me shed more tears. Hearin it made me tear up.

"Heartbeat is nice and steady"

It was such an emotional moment that had everyone shook.
I really have a life growing in me.

When we wrapped up at Doctor Brown me and Chris headed straight to the studio.

I wanted to finish this song i started. Chris been sendin me beats and i work on em at home so when i go there i just lay it down.

u sleep on the wrong side?
I'm catching a bad vibe
And it's contagious, What's the latest?
Speak your heart, Don't bite your tongue
Don't get it twisted, Don't misuse it
What's your problem?
Lets resolve it
We can solve it, What's the causes?
It's official, You got issues
I got issues, but I know I miss you

Am I supposed to change? Are you supposed to change?
Who should be hurt? Who should be blamed?
Am I supposed to change? Are you supposed to change?
Who should be hurt? Who should be ashamed?
Am I supposed to change? Are you supposed to change?
Who should be hurt? Will we remain?
You need a resolution, I need a resolution,
We need a resolution, We have so much confusion.

When i finished Chris looked shocked. That's when i see Drake and Khaled in the back, had me all nervous.

"Guuurl your voice" was all Khaled said in amazement.

"Your lyrics is legit man" Drake said

"You have a gift. You rock these old school beats." Chris said shakin his head.

"This is goin be another hit for you and i know it" Khaled said.

"Another one" Chris said low key mocking Dj Khaled.

"Thank you " i blushed. "We just heard you outside and i had to hear this angelic voice close up" Khaled explained.

"Ayye if its cool with you , we could do a song together sometime" Drake suggested.

"Me ?" Shook wasnt even the word to describe how i feel.

I looked at Chris and he shrugged as if saying go ahead. So i nodded. "Sure sure no problem"

"Alright see you around" they dapped Chris and side hugged me.

"Nice meeting you .." waitin to hear my name. "Mya"

"Mya" he smiled and they both walked out.

"I met Drake " i whispered to myself then again to Chris. He smiled back "i saw "

"He hugged me" i fangirled "saw that too" he chuckled.

He ordered pizza for us to eat and finish off this song.

Took us a while but we got it done. It was late at night and man was i tired. I wasnt even sure if it was safe to drive with me this tired.

"Aight byee" i side hugged him and dipped.

When i started drivin i found it hard to keep my eyes open. I was so tired. My bones and body were just cravin sleep.

I didnt notice i was drivin in the wrong lane until i heard the car blowing his horn. I jumped in fright swung back in time.

I stopped the car in the parkin lot by Mc Donalds. I almost got in a serious accident. "Sorry buddy, Mommy's just a lil tired" i rest my head back. Somebody knocked on my window i realized it was August.

"Are you crazy?!" He cussed me. "What the hell you doin drivin in the other lane?! You couldve gotten yourself hurt!" I looked away in shame.

"I just got tired and i zoned out. I didnt mean it" i explained he sighed.

"Aight hop in my car and ama send T to pick up ya car" i nodded. I got out and got in his car.

He started drivin us home.
"Where were you coming from becca's house ?" He asked. I was driftin off to sleep but i still replied.
"Nah at the studio with Chris." He nodded and continued driving.

He tapped me when we reached home but i was so tired he had to come round and lift me up.

He carried me in the house in our room.

I was feelin that warmth coming off of him. I didnt want it to leave me again.
When he placed me on the bed i kept my arms around his neck.

I looked at him through my half opened eyes
I know he was feeling what i was feeling. So i leaned in and kissed him.

It was so passionate. I missed being like this with him. I pulled back and lifted my arms waiting for him to take my shirt off me .

He took his time doin that and resumed kissin me .What went from just kissing led to makin love.

It felt good to be in his arms again.
I fear what tomorrow brings.

The next day when i woke up August wasnt next to me. It made me frown. Thought things would've changed.
Dissapoited is what i was feelin.

When i checked it was past 1 in the afternoon. I slept sooo long.

I did my hygiene and when i stepped in my kitchen there was a ton of roses in a vase and and the counter with loose petals on the counter.

The card said  ..
I'm sorry
Be ready at 8 pm
A.A.A

Finally we were gonna talk and things were gonna get fixed. It could go back to normal now.

Breakfast was already made. The i'm sorry kind of breakfast.
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Let me know, let me knooow

When I feel what I feel
Sometimes it's hard to tell you so
You may not be in the mood to learn what you think you know
There are times when I find
You want to keep yourself from me
When I don't have the strength
I'm just a mirror of what I see

I laid down what i wrote down this morning.

"I love this man. Things must be good with you and August now?"

"Somewhat we're goin out tonight so i might get the chance to tell him"

"Thats wassup"

"Well i gotta go get ready aight ? see ya"

"Aight be safe"

Listen i made Cha do my hair. Kay kay Chay and noonie did my nails and toe nails.

Talk about a real squad.

They picked out my dress as well. It was kinda revealin yet elegant.

Accordin to Kaykay if you can rock both revealin and still look elegant i'd have August droolin over me.

Her words not mine.

"Yaaass auntie werk that dress hunny" Kaykay was just too much at times.

"Thank you guys soo much for helping me out"

"No problem hunny we got you . You our fam" Cha said huggin me

"Yeah auntie dont sweat it " Chay said

"And you for the dress advice" i hugged Kay.
"Dont mentioned it " she waved me off.

"And noonie for my nails" i kissed her cheeks. "Your welcone auntiie"
The humble one.

"You have fun girl . These lil girls got school tomorrow so we gotta dip" we said our goodbye's and i went to wait in the hall and waited for him to show.

I waited.

And waited.

And he never showed.