❝ any moment might be our last. everything
is more beautiful because we're doomed.
you will never be lovelier than you are now.
we will never be here again ❞

This is a story of a love that was not meant to be.

When Bucky Barnes left Captain America at the edge of the water, conflict waging war inside his heart, he thought it was the end. How could he now move on, after everything in his life had been a lie, when everything he'd been conditioned to know was gone? Soon after leaving, Bucky found himself in the streets of Madrid. Unable to understand his own mind, Bucky lay low, stealing when he needed to, trying to find a semblance of a normal life while his mind screamed for him to destroy himself. After one month, Bucky thought his end would arrive soon.

That is, until, his salvation came in the form of a woman with pink lips and fresh, wild eyes, a girl of strawberries and sunshine. Picking up Bucky when he found himself slumped in an alley after a nasty brawl, the woman saw that he was in need of help, and didn't hesitate to come to aide. Next thing he knew, Bucky was awoken by a little girl the age of ten jumping on his chest, poking his metal arm and smirking at his grunts of pain.

There, the love that would not last blossomed.

After staying with the woman, named Marina Castell, and her rambunctious child Reine for a few days, Bucky found he didn't want to leave. The life Marina lived drowned him in a world of empathy and laughter, pillow fights and learning to dance. The more he watched the two, the more he couldn't bear to part with them. Marina showed him that there was more to life than what you were made out to be, and Reine, with all her strange qualities (particularly an odd amount of strength) showed Bucky that fire can find a home under flesh. Bucky saw Marina to be the beacon of hope in his now tumultuous life, and he fell in love with her. They both did.

It would be their end.

Through many dangers, battles and heartbreak, they stuck together; Bucky and Marina, and their hard edged daughter Reine. A mismatched family of fire and light and pain. Through Civil Wars Marina kept Bucky together, moving them all to Wakanda to heal his mind, making sure to be there when he awoke. They watched Reine grow in the fields, and their love grew stronger. Marina stuck with Bucky when the war of Infinity arrived on their doorstep. When Bucky left to fight, promising Marina he'd be back, she believed him. .

How was she to know it was the first and last time he'd ever break a promise.

Then the Snap. Marina, frozen, a scream erupting from her lips, watched as her fourteen year old crumbled to dust in front of her. When the panic died down, she raced out to find her now husband, and saw nothing but that same choking, biting, blistering dust. Marina Castell, a woman of soft lips and pastel smiles, turned black and rotten in that moment. She lost everything. She broke, as much alive as the dust which had taken the two people she loved most in the world. Devastated, Marina stumbled through the world, her life draining out of her, grief finding a home in her now shriveled and broken heart.

And then the past caught up to her.

    Five years later, when the Avengers finally win, Bucky Barnes and his surrogate daughter Reine reappear. When the battle ends and the dust clears,  they embrace each other as if they are the last two people on earth. They come alive again, given a new chance to rebuild their lives, to be free.

    Only Marina Castell is not there with them. She does not have a chance to be free. Instead, she lies cold and blue in an unmarked grave on international soil, never to be seen again; murdered. 

Even in death she is with them, but at what cost?

ANA DE ARMAS marina castell

( made by louvrewolves )













DAFNE KEEN reine castell

( made by Raichia )

SEBASTIAN STAN bucky barnes

ANTHONY MACKIE sam wilson

BEN BARNES alexander lagard

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DANIEL BRÜHL baron zemo
WYATT RUSSEL john walker
EMILY VANCAMP sharon carter
ERIN KELLYMAN karli morgenthau
DANNY RAMIREZ joaquin torres

with the rest of tfatws cast as their respective characters

❝ LOVING YOU WAS ❞

❝ A LOSING GAME ❞

scan to listen on spotify !

i. blood // water by grandson ii. rasputin by boney m. iii. as the world caves in by matt maltese iv. before you go by lewis capaldi v. rhinestone eyes by gorillaz vi. hayloft by mother mother vii. safe and sound by taylor swift & the civil wars viii. the falcon and the winter soldier by jared moreno luna ix. arcade by duncan laurence x. everybody's gotta live by love xi. love story by sarah cothran xii. my body is a cage by arcade fire

COPYRIGHT

All rights reserved © bymgraceee

This story is a work of fanfiction that uses characters and plotlines from the Marvel Cinematic Universe, owned by Disney. I do not own any of the characters belonging to these companies, nor do I own the plotlines and story of tfatws. I am in no way associated with the creators and executives of this franchise.

The only thing I own are the original characters and plotlines, and everything that goes with them. So please, do not steal this idea, I've worked really hard on it and if you do, that's incredibly rude and you should be ashamed.

I do not own any of the gifs and graphics used, those belong to their separate owners, which I am not affiliated with. Any copyright infringement was unintentional.

WARNINGS

Themes such as canon typical violence, gore, and major character death (already mentioned). Mentions of torture, PTSD, trauma, experimentation, self-harm, suicide, and language.

the main theme of this story is grief, and overcoming the loss of a loved one. Due to this, the characters in this story will be going through heavy trauma with thoughts and actions that may be disturbing for some readers. if anything mentioned above makes you feel uncomfortable, I completely understand, and you have every right to click off this story.

CREDITS

As I know of right now, I have not copied or stolen the layout from a previous author, but if I am mistaken, I would very much appreciate if you could let me know. Thanks!

a/n: well, well well, what do we have here? y'all I'm literally so sorry for the SUPER long intro but it had to be done to explain everything.

There's a lot more that will be explained later on in the story, and the prologue (which is in two parts) will basically be a much more detailed summary of Bucky and Marina's story through Winter Soldier to Endgame, and the real book begins in the first episode of tfatws.

I honestly can't describe how excited I am for this fic, I feel that it is probably the heaviest story I've written (get ready for a LOT of mental torture, ptsd, trauma, etc...) and the characters are all some of my favourites! ANYWAYS, thank you for reading this story, and don't forget to comment and vote if you like, and perhaps give me a follow. enjoy!

New closing gif made by the incredibly talented shangchis

Love you, Mal