I'm ashamed,

thoroughly ashamed.

For I'm not in control of my monster.

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It growls.

It claws its way out. 

It beats upon the bars that holds it.

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It snaps.

It rears its head,

and I shiver as it grins and takes over.

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I'm lost

in pain and shame,

for my moster and I will scream your name

...we'll scream until I'm sober.