Dear Crush,

I know that we don't talk that much, but I still feel gravitated towards you. You pull me in with your jokes, your friendly demeanor, your smiles and your hilarious quirks. You're witty and inquisitive. Hard and mean, but soft and gentle. You are the epitome of what I'd like to see in a guy, so it hurts when you don't talk to me. You talk to all the pretty and popular girls. They giggle at all your jokes and flirt with you nonstop, especially her (you know who). You bought her chocolates. You blow each other kisses in class, but she broke your heart by giving those chocolates away. Her reasoning being that Valentine's Day had already passed.

It hurts. I know you like her, but I like you too and I feel that if I was even half as pretty as her, you'd look at me different. Maybe even talk to me more. I don't know anymore. I pray for the day that you'll actually speak to me on the way home. We live mere blocks from each other and you've only addressed me once at the bus stop.

You seem to add everyone on snap except me. Even my crazy friend who you rejected on Valentine's Day. Even she gets your affection. You still talk to her. As a matter of fact, you talk to my friends more than you ever talk to me. Am I disease prone? Am I a sickness you want to get rid of? I don't bother you. I let you be since I've noticed every conversation I now enter with you comes to an end.

I feel sad, thinking that I'd find love again. I broke up with my ex in December and now I feel lonely. He was a jerk and I miss his friendship, but at least I had someone. I was hoping you would be my special someone, but I now realize that's some stupid rubbish. The only thing I do now is simply admire from afar. You have taught me that. If I say nothing, I'll never get hurt.

I don't blame you for not liking me. Honest. I just wish you'd given me a chance or tried to know me better. I know I've probably messed up all chances with you at this point, so let's be friends. If you'd even want that at all.

My perfect date with you would be going to Subway (my favorite place) and just spending time with you because that's all I've wanted since the very beginning. I'm really not asking you for much since you like another girl. I

Sincerely,

Nelsa