jackie💕.

i finished packing my stuff and sighed, i will forever hate packing no matter what. today i am moving back home.

lyss is currently otw home from the gym so im waiting on her. i haven't been home in like a month so ik imma have to throw allat food away lord.

a few minutes later she walked in drenched in sweat. why does she look this good tho ??

"hey ma" she smiled kissing my cheek.

"hey how was the gym ?" i asked.

"it was good.. you going somewhere ?" she asked making me look up from my phone.

"um well so i decided to yk move back to my apartment" i said.

"oh great thanks for the heads up" she said.

"im sorry i just need a little personal space" i mumbled.

"meanwhile, you OFFERED to move in lol. but okay its whatever" she said as she got out some clean clothes.

"yeah bcus you were really struggling nalyssa. it's not wrong for me to want personal space" i said.

"so like what ?? you ain't have enough space or you just don't wanna be around me ?"

"stop that's not what i meant, it just got to the point where i do wanna be alone" i said.

"okay" nalyssa responded as she typed on her phone.

nothing probably telling her mom on me at the moment or her sister.

"bae" i said.

"hm" she responded not looking up from her phone.

"why is it so wrong for me to want and need space ?" i asked.

"it's not, but leaving when i got attached is basically abandoning . you could've told me sooner. i never did anything for you to feel like you don't have space but okay".

"you grown asf, do what you gotta do and what you feel is best for you" i said.

"you act like im breaking up with you. im not abandoning you baby yk where i live and you're welcome anytime" i said.

"are you gonna be okay staying alone tho ?" i asked.

"you ain't care when you just packed yo stuff up so but yeah imma be good."

"mental been doing good, healing process is good and i got all my faith in God that he got me covered. ion need nb" she said throwing her phone on the bed.

"nah the way you acting rn is crazy to me. you acting like me and the team just said forget you when that's not the case. im still gone be here for you".

"how am i acting tho jackie ?? if i just decided to pack my stuff and tell my gf the last day that im moving out because you're clingy how would you feel ??" she asked.

"i never said you were too clingy tho nalyssa. and ykw you are clingy but that has nothing to do with that. everyone needs alone time sometimes and that's okay." i replied.

"okay jackie im not finna argue with you" nalyssa told me.

"then don't baby. nb tryna argue but you sitting here putting words and my mouth and twisting what im saying."

"like yeah i should've told you earlier and im sorry but i didn't want you to think that im neglecting you & i understand what you're saying but im not neglecting you" i said.

"im about to go shower. text me when you make it home" she said grabbing her clothes.

"baby" i sighed. i shook my and put my suitcase down on the floor. ik how nalyssa get about her feelings.

and ik she wouldn't be happy about me leaving but ian think she would actually thinking im leaving cus im tired of her or wtv she got going on inside of her brain.

"okay well i love you and call me later" i said.

"i love you too" she said closing the door.

3/3 best friends 🦋.

jackie: so i told her and guys she did not take it well 😔. sum bout she im leaving cus she clingy and im neglecting her.

a'ja: why are you leaving ??

kp: no not neglecting 😔. she told me a lot of people left after what happened cus they ain't wanna deal with her cus she was healing she lost a lot of friends after the attack.

jackie: i just wanted a little alone time. nun personal yall know how i love to be alone sometimes.

jackie: omg.. lord that's not the case at all 😫. my poor baby 🥺🥺🥺🥺.

a'ja: ik i just wanna hug her. we know you love her tho and she know that too jack🤞🏾.

i hearted the message and headed home. it was so cold and empty in here lol.

nalyssa🐐.

i walked into the locker room with my beats on and my music playing loudly. i slept 6 hours last night so that's good. it's definitely a start.

setting down my stuff, i changed into my aces shirt and shorts and then put on my shoes. "she ain't you" by chris brown was playing loudly through my beats.

"hey.. you okay ?" tip asked tapping me.

"yeah just chillin" i said taking them off and sitting them in my locker.

"that's my chain" kb said staring at me.

"oh yeah, uh i borrowed it for my photoshoot thanks i really appreciate it" i said making everyone giggle.

"yw ig even tho you didn't even ask" she said shaking her head as she laughed.

"are you ignoring jackie ??" chelsea asked.

"nope. im just chillin ian got no reason to ignore her" i said.

"then why didn't you text me back ?" her soft voice asked.

"bcus you said you needed space so i'm giving it to you" i said confused.

"bae that's not what i meant and yk it" she said.

"that's why you moved out tho right ?? you said you wanted space and by space you mean from me so like what ??" i asked.

"nalyssa" jackie said staring at me.

"lord" kp said shaking her head.

"neglected tf outta me just like everybody else" i said scrolling on my phone.

"nalyssa" jackie said again.

"im not neglecting you tho i-

"guys let's be mature adults before yall start arguing" a'ja said making me shake my head.

"im not finna argue with her" i said.

"baby you was the main one who said communication was important and you're not communicating wimme" jackie told me.

"you told me you needed space tho jackie so what is there to talk about ??"

"okay guys let's stay calm" syd said.

i finished getting dressed and walked onto the court. i stretched with and warmed up with kb and jack did the same with kp and a'ja.

"why are you acting like that towards jack lyss ?" kb asked breaking the comfortable silence.

"i'm not. she said she wanted space" i said.

"okay but i don't think she meant it like that. are you mad because she left or cus she didn't tell you or what ?" she asked.

i could see jackie looking over at me. she looked so sad and hurt and maybe i am overreacting i just don't wanna lose her.

"idk it just feels like she doesn't wanna be bothered by me. the way she just got up and left and she said she needed space so it makes me think that maybe im too clingy and she was tired of me" i mumbled.

"make sense, but jack loves you & we all can tell. but ik jackie and she loves to be alone when she can so it's totally normal for her to want space" she said too me.

"yeah." i said.

"and what else ?? cus that's not all" she added.

"it made me feel neglected. cus i lost so many friends after the attack happened cus they didn't wanna deal with me being sad and traumatized".'

"and with that being said, they left. one of my close friends from high school we did so much together she was one of my go to people. she said my trauma was too much to handle" i said.

"ahhh okay understandable but she's not going anywhere and we're not either." she said as we finished stretching.

we got up and got on the line for practice. we started with offensive drills and worked on the plays. idk but when im mad i always go harder.

we finished practice and i walked back into the locker room and changed my shoes.

"I WANNA MAKE LOVE IN THIS CLUB" a'ja yelled making me giggle.

"yo obsession with usher is crazy" kp said.

"nah fr he not even cute" ac said.

"ntm on him" a'ja said sternly.

"he can sing tho, that's all that matters" kb said.

"bye guys" i said as i walked too my car.

"mama can we talk ?" jackie asked making me turn around. she was wearing a white muscle shirt showcasing her muscles making me shake my head cus they always have me weak in the knees not gone lie.

"there's nothing to talk about. im good and i respect that you want your space and there's nothing wrong with that." i said putting my bag in the backseat.

"nalyssa" jackie said.

"i have a session with my counselor about my antidepressants so i gotta go i will let yk how it goes" i said and she nodded.

"okay i love you" jackie told me.

"i love you too" i said.

getting into my car i pulled off. i looked at my watch and then back at the road and my session is in 20 minutes but i wanna shower first.

i really don't think i need antidepressants anymore but we'll see what my counselor says cus i been working towards getting off of them.

chapter 20🥳! vote and comment💕!