Neil's POV

After morning incident, I directly rode my car from shop towards our house's with avni. Our ride was pin drop silent as no one dared to talk. I was in emotional stress while avni was angry on me due to my past behavior. I think that was my first outbrust on her and I'm guilty for that. I know I did wrong yelling but she should understand me right? But no she took Jim's side which annoyed me more and in reflex I spilled those words.

Right now she is sitting beside me But her face has became pale , and her eyes were red I think she cried in shop when I walked outside. I can literally observe how deeply she was hurt due to my mistake coz For the first time in our lives avni hasn't spoke anything after fight.  I want to pacify her scooping her soft body in my arms but don't know why I'm feeling nervous to do that and even I'm scared to speak after that incident.

But what's making me irked is For that Jim she isn't talking with me,with her best friend. Like seriously? How could she even give my place to an unknown stranger? This thought hurted me most.

Later, I didn't realised how fast we reached our destination. I dropped avni at mehta mansion and without giving any glance at her I went towards my house.

I know I'm hurting more and more with my behavior but I don't have dares left to face her coz I was reason behind her tears.

Sighing deeply, I straightly walked towards my room before anyone could notice my red teary face. I locked my room door and I fell on bed with thud crying.

"How could I hurt her? I made her cry today, just coz of my rage I yelled on her. How could I? " I sobbed soaking my tears into bed sheet. later, I don't know how I slept while crying.

After sometime my deep slumber broke as I heard knock at my door. I wiped my tears off completely  and walked towards door to open.

"Mom you here? " I asked as I saw mom at door step with something In her hands.

"Tillu, go to mehta mansion and give this to neela aunty ,okay!" she says handling me the bag. I don't know what's there in that.

"No I can't go, sorry " I say as till now I'm scared, hurt by morning incident and now I don't wanna see avni. At least not now!.

"Tillu, it's important and it's my order. GO NOW! " Mom says with stern voice. I sighed accepting my defeat.

"Oh God, why me ?" I cried mentally.

After that I freshened my self and left to mehta mansion to give this bag. I entered into house only to witness no one at hall.

"Neela aunty? " I called with loud voice.

"I'm in kitchen Neil, come here " I heard Neela aunty say.

I walked towards kitchen and saw aunty was doing kitchen chores.

"Hey, mom said to give this bag to you " I said chirping as I placed the bag on kitchen slab.

"No Neil, not here! Give this bag to avni " she said doing her work.

My eyes widened.

"What & why her? " I shouted.

"What happened Neil, why are you shouting ? She asked in a concern way .

" Nothing... Nothing " I replied nervously coz I don't want aunty to know about our fight.

"Yea, go and give it to her" she  smiled saying. And I walked towards Avni's room. My heart started thumping hard as I took steps towards her room. Don't know why I'm feeling nervous, scared and what not. After what felt like ages I reached To her door step.

"It's OK Neil go, give it to her and come back " I said to myself, I think it's my first time that I'm hesitating to even go inside of her room.

Sighing deeply, I walked more towards ,I was about to knock but I observed it's all ready opened a bit. Taking huge breath, I entered into the room only to witness something ravishing and alluring.

My heart skipped a bit watching avni who is drying her wet hairs , I think she is getting ready for date.

I inhaled the fresh scent which diffused all around the room, My eyes popped out as I watched avni who is in black crop top with jeans, indeed she looked so cute at the same time sexy.

I gulped a huge lump, and then realized what I was doing .

I was starring at her shamelessly right then she saw me through mirror. She stopped her work that's drying her hairs, turned around and looked at me with Her big innocent filled eyes.  I really felt distracted as air around me got thicker. but I composed myself.

"Hmm.. Mom said to give this to you " I said fumbling as I placed the bad on coach.

I again looked at her, her face was blank and numb. My heart pained watching her like that, never I wanted this to happen where we both even hesitant to  talk,alas it happened.
Breathing heavily, I started to go but her voice stopped me at the tracks.

"Wait.. " she said, actually it was barely audible.

I turned around to watch avni who is walking towards me. After few steps she stood in front, I don't know what's happening until I felt a hard slap on my face.

I startled as I cupped my cheek with my hand , I looked at avni with hurtful eyes but what made me gasp is her face  which is all red and her eyes filled with tears and they were brimming like a stream.

"I hate you " she said, her voice was chocking.

"W... What? " I stammered, my eyes blured as tears covered my vision.

"Suna tumne... I.. hate.. you.. " she shouted, and slapped me again and again on my cheeks with her soft hands.

She was crying, yelling. Her face has became bright red due to hard sobbs. Her breath was ragging, she was sniffing, shedding tears. I felt a sting pain in my heart watching her messed state

"How could you even do like that, you idiot,moron" she yelled hitting my chest continuously with her fists ,that's when I realized how deeply I hurted her.

I looked at her eyes which were only showing pain in them. She was hitting me continuously, taking her anger and frustration in this way. At least she took out her pain out but me?... Suddenly I realized where this fight is going on.

"Av..ni.. S..top it " I yelled and scooped her in my arms giving her a bone crushing hug.

" I hate you.. Tillu... How could you even go like that. Aur tumne bath bhi nhi ki, aur mujae deka bhi nhi.. I hate you". She sobbed against my chest, her tears were wetting my T-shirt.

I let her cry coz I know she is sensitive, and equally she is hurt. but it's first time that she is this much hurt, I myself don't know this side of hers , Her sudden emotional outburst which I never watched.

"Av.. Avni ,I'm sorry " I mumbled. She was about to pull off the hug but I didn't made her so ,I pulled her more closer towards my heart.

"Leave me " she whispered, sniffling.

"First say, I'm forgiven then I'll think about this " I said and kissed her hairs. Still hugging tight.

"You are not, I hate you " she hiccuped like a child.

I chuckled BTW tears.

"Avi.. Hug me back " I say as I saw she wasn't holding me, indeed she was hell angry on me. I thought.

She glared at me in response and I gulped a huge lump.

"Dude I'm gone!".

"Why are you glaring me to death, I'm scared , seriously " I say as I let her go off the hug.

"You should, Tillu I hate you " she mumbled looking down.

"God avi.. Itne bar tumne I hate you bola I think ice-cream, chocolates would feel jealous about that " I said as I wanted to cheer her mood up.

She looked at me with big doe innocent eyes, those orbs are filled with tears.

I felt guilty coz just coz of me she is in that mess. She is shattered  and I never expected that I matter her this much. I was wrong like always, I simply judged her at morning without realizing how much she loved me as a friend.

" Why did you do like that at morning, do you even realize how much I was hurt bolo? " she shouted gripping my collors, my head bowed down with Shame.

"Answer me Tillu, am I even best friend of you or not? " she asked, tears slipped down from my eyes listening that sentence.

That hurted me most. How could she say like that? How could she raise her finger on my friendship? But right now her pain is more than that of me. I understand maybe she spilled in the heat of moment.

"I'm... S.. Sorry.. I r..egret... " I couldn't say much more than that as my throat went dry. My face had a stern look I really don't want her to see my emotional state.

"Avvni you don't deserve me.. You know I'm bad... I shouted on you ...i hurted you. Today you are crying it's coz of me... I don't deserve you " I said, this time my eyes betrayed me spilling the tears out like a stream. I sobbed hard  burring my palms into my face. I wasn't having courage to even speak more and look at her coz guilt started to eat me up like a pest.

"Tillu" I heard a whisper.

But I didn't dared to look at her face ,I bowed my head down ,coz my morning actions flashed in my brain.

"Tillu, look at me " she again said. But I couldn't as now I'm sure I don't deserve her pure friendship.

"Tillu " this time she made my chip up to face her. Her black eyes were filled like a ocean. 

"Yo...u are cr..ying " she sniffed, and cupped my face. I made my gaze down coz I know this is her first time watching me cry.

"I'm sorry, tillu " Her voice cracked up.

I looked at her with confusion.

" I'm so sorry,  she sobbed and at sudden she jumped on me.  I stumbled back due to imbalance and we both fell on bed with a thud pressing the mattress down. She was on top of me & I'm beneath her.

"I'm sorry... I wasn't mean to hurt you but I'm angry that's why I said like that I'm sorry " she said, crying. I ruffled her hairs softly realising why she was saying sorry.

"It's me who have to apologize avni. Morning I just don't know what happened I was scared to meet you as I well know I'm responsible for your cries I really don't want to hurt you but I did I'm sorry " I said as I hugged her back.

We both stayed in that position no one dared to talk as we both were crying mess. A simple misunderstanding created a havoc Or precisely coz of me this all drama started. And I'm so sad about that and now I realised how badly she effects me as well how madly I effect her.

Coming down from my thoughts, I caressed her hairs softly as she placed her head on my chest. I smiled , how I wished she would be there in my arms forever,  I don't know what has stored in my future but right now I would be living in present coz thinking about upcoming only stresses our mind.

"Tillu.. You are heart beats are fast " I heard avni say, she made her face up to look me.

God, her face what's that even God created a pure angel. Her messed hairs due to sobbs, her cried face and finally her lips which were quivering.

"F*ck that's turning me on like hell "

"Even I don't know why they are beating fast, may be coz of you " I said looking at her , actually I don't know why I said.

"Don't flirt with me, tillu" she frowned, her face  glowed like a bulb.

"Ho God,did  she liked that?" I thought.

"I'm not flirting, I'm describing how beautiful you are and how your presence effects me " I said not realising what I'm saying.

"What? " she blurted, that's when I understood what I was speaking.

"Nothing " I say to cover up my words, but she just looked at me. Her lips were still trembling which were just a tease.

I used my one hand to put her hair strands at her back of ear as those were playing on her face making me difficult to look at her angelic face. My other hand was on her soft bare waist as she wore crop top , it was the second reason that I'm turning on.

Unknowingly My hand which was on her face travelled towards her lips. I rubbed her soft pink lips with my thumb in reflex she gasped slightly.

There's is no verbal communication BTW us ,we both were speaking through eyes. Don't know what happened to both of us as till now we never faced this type of situation where we both got lost in the hypnotizing land.

We stared at each other in an odd way, Our glances battled , until tears arose, and we found ourselves crying.

"How could you say like that Avni?. Do you really think I'm not capable of your friendship ?" I hiccuped, tears rolled down with hurt.  She looked at me , wiping her own tears. She hasn't spoke anything, as her deep eyes took troll speaking.

I felt an urge to do something, to forget the pain that I'm carrying mentally . I knew she didn’t have any feelings on me ,I know she love me as a friend , but I couldn’t resist coz I'm selfish. "I'm selfish in my love,  about my love" .

Gosh, Now I can't, I  couldn’t fight against the thoughts that were going through me. Her rosy smell , her soft body ,her black hypnotizing orbs and especially her pink lips was flooding my senses now...

I slightly pulled avni upwards such that her face was in inch distance with mine. In a moment , not realising the consequences I pressed my lips against her in a smooth way , I felt her body stiffen due to my sudden action.

I chuckled beneath the tears.

I Don't know what has gotten into me I started kissing her, her lips were soft and juicy. It felt like I would just drown in the world of ecstasy forever. But to be my surprise avni kissed me back with same passion.

I didn't knew she would, but she did. Can I confirm that she have feelings for me or she will think this kiss is just a heat of moment? But shrugging this all thoughts off I concentrated on kiss.

I licked her lips ,indirectly asking for entrance she slightly parted her petals , allowing me to insert my tongue inside her to taste her pink bud. Our lips moved in a sync as we both sucked each others lips gently. I loved the way her lips fitted mine like a puzzle and I loved the way her lips melted with me,  giving explosions inside of my stomach.

I held her waist more tight Coz at this cozy moment I don't want her to go, I don't want to miss her warmth. We stayed in sleeping position it isn't hurting me coz the pleasure overpowered my mind the thing her lips with me is making me happy. The thing she is responding to my kiss Is making me happy.

Slowly, her hands reached up to my hair. She ruffled them until they got messed up. I smiled through kiss.

Don't know what future would lead us but right now I want to capture this beautiful moment as it is my first kiss with my love "AVNI " precisely " OUR FIRST KISS " but as a friend or lover I don't know! .

POV ENDS

Here it's ends, today is Sunday and I don't have much work so thought to give an update.

Next chapter would be turning point for Avneil. And yeah tillu is pervert isn't he 👻?

Thank u each and everyone for the support guys, I love you so much❤.

~Reshma