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Neil's Pov -

Ring ring..

My phone ringed loudly disturbing whatever work I was doing. After I made avi sleep, I came down to make lunch for her. It's my every day duty to prepare food with my own hands because I can't take risk regarding her health. You may think, what about my work then let me tell you, I mostly do my office work at night or any other free time so that I can look after my cute wifey.

Ring ring..

I jerked out of my thoughts as soon as I saw avi's number flashing on my phone screen.

I Immediately reverted.

"Tiiiiilllllllluuuuu... Whheeere.... Aaaare you? " Avi said in a sleepy voice. May be she is up from her nap. It's been an hour since she slept. And yeah, whenever she needs something I told her to call me or any other member of the house so that she could not walk or shout from the room.

"Yes baby! I'm coming. " I replied smiling.

"Pleaaazzzzzz come soon tilluuu... " she yawned and hung the call .

I switched off the gas and walked towards our room.

I opened the room door only to witness my baby sitting on bed with cute pout. Her hair's were messy, her eyes looked sleepy.

"Avi baby, why don't you sleep for another hour. You still look tired. " I said as I sat beside her caressing her hairs.

She hugged me and kept her head on my chest. I quickly snuggled her into my embrace.

"Tillu.. I'm hungry. " she whispered.

"Ale.. Is my baby hungry? " I asked in a baby tone.

She broke the hug and glared at me.

I smiled nervously.

"Are you hungry avi? " I asked, but this time in a normal tone.

"Yes, now bring my nutella. " she said excited.

"I'll give you nutella but later you have to complete your lunch without any tauntrams okay? " I said sternly.

"Okay tillu, Anything for chocolates." she replied instantly.

I smiled.

Later, I bought nutella box and a piece of chocolate cake.

Avni smiled broadly as soon as I gave it to her.

"Oh tillu, Thank you so much much. " she screamed and started eating.

"After this, you have to eat lunch. " I reminded her.

"I know tillu. " she rolled her eyes.

"Good , now 'll go and bring your lunch until then finish this " I smiled. I was about to go but avi grabbed my wrist stopping me.

"What happened? "

"You deserve return gift tillu. Come I'll give you a kiss." she said smiling.

I blushed furiously before I pressed my lips against her kissing gently. It's been a week since I had a proper kiss. Yep, whenever I give her favorite things she gives me a kiss or else no kiss. She always carves for chocolate while I carve for the kiss.

"I think that's enough , Go " she broke the kiss and pushed me back before I could explore more of her.

"Thanks. " I panted and walked out of room with a huge grin.

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I got back to our room with lunch then I saw avni messed her face with nutella. Chocolate smeared over her face, mouth , every where.

I sighed.

"oh God this girl. " I placed lunch of table before I marched to her.

" Avi ,what did you do with your self?" I said with a fake anger .

She looked up with an innocent eyes.

"Sorry, I got messy " she giggled.

I grabbed towel from the night stand.

"You're such a kid avi. Still eating messy. Now you're the mother of a child. Grow up baby, See what you have done to your face. " I laughed wiping her mouth.

I was about to clean her cheek but avi snatched towel from my hand.

I was confused due to her sudden act. She was looking down wiping her face slowly, Maybe she wants to do herself.

"Okay ,now lunch. " I chirped with excitement.

Avi didn't respond anything. I saw her face which was devoid of emotions.

What happened to her ? Maybe mood swings again.

I shrugged

I mixed contents of food before I bought spoon to her lips.

"Okay ,eat this. "

She turned her head to other side.

"No, I'm not hungry. " she said coldly not looking at me.

I sighed.

"Avi no tantrums , Eat now ! " I said seriously.

"I don't want to eat. Please go"

I frowned.

"Avi, eat it or else.. " I said sternly.

" Or else what? Don't you get that Neil I don't want to eat. " she shouted.

I was stunned. She... She called me Neil. It is the second time, she is calling me that apart from that incident.

I was shocked, I looked at her , her eyes were filled with tears. Her face turned red, I panicked.

I put plate aside and cupped her cheeks.

"Avi, what happened? Did I hurt you. Why are you crying baby. What happened. Are you angry? " I asked restless, tears brimmed down my eyes. Why she is calling me that? Did i do something wrong?

But avi didn't stop crying. She is crying, my avi is crying and I don't know why.

"Avi, you're scaring me baby. Reply please. Is it paining somewhere? " I asked worried. My heart pounced hard with the fear.

She looked at me with an expression that I couldn't decipher. But For the first time, I saw sorrow in her eyes.

First time ,I saw pain in her eyes.

"Dard ho raha hai tillu. " she whispered with tears.

My eyes widened.

"Where ? " I shouted.

Instead of reply , She held my hand and placed it right on her chest where heart resides.

"Yeha. " she pointed her heart.

" Yeha dard horaha hai , in my heart, " she mumbled, I barely heard her voice. It was low and chocked.

"Avi , what happened tell me. Please " I pleaded. I don't know what happened to her, for sure it wasn't physical pain. Emotional pain?

She smiled with glassy eyes but soon it vanished and again tears rolled down her cheeks.

"Why everyone think I'm a kid? " she asked directly starring at me.

My eyes widened. Did she take my word's seriously?. I was about to speak something but she cuts me off.

"Don't speak. please today let me talk my heart out tillu. "

My heart pained listening her sad voice.

It was unusual , avi and sad .

"Why tillu? Why people always think I act like a child ? Do I really act like that? " she said.

I nodded in a no. What she is thinking ?

"From the time I got pregnant everyone, beside saying congratulations they said, how can she carry a baby ? She is still a child?. Even my own parents said that. You know tillu, when I heard this I got hurt so bad but shrugged I it off because I do act like child sometimes. Tillu later I tried my best to be a mature girl, I took injections without any objection, I ate whatever you gave me, I didn't cry, I didn't made anyone stress over me . I tried my best to be called as a mother.. yet.... at the time of baby shower not only our parents, friends, relatives everyone said that 'she act like a child?'. ' how can she take responsibility of a mother?' . Tillu, don't you think it hurts me? "

"That day, You didn't said anything to them, you just laughed along with them like a joke..." her voice cracked.

"Ma..ybe for.. you and others it's a joke, but for me. As a mother who's bearing a child, it hurted me Neil.... So... m..uch.. " she sobbed loudly tears drenched her face.

My hands slid down from her cheeks.

"I want to share this with you but shrugged it off because you were already stressed about me. but today.....Even you called me a kid, a child...I've to grow up. Even after nine months of carrying a child in my womb. People are still calling me a child? Tillu, tell me won't I be a good mother ? Because, These all things are making me think that only. I think I won't be a good mother.. " she cried burying her face into her palms.

My heart shattered listening to her. she is bearing this much pain in her heart yet she didn't say anything to me. She is crying everyday and yet I couldn't saw her agony.

Every day she smiled for us. But it was totally fake. I couldn't see her sorrow behind her smile.

I starred at her with tearful eyes . She is crying , sobbing yet I couldn't do anything. The damage is done, I broke her heart in an ugliest way. I'm such a bad husband, I couldn't even understand her pain.

"Avi.. " I tried to touch her.

"No.. Go away. Don't talk with me " she shouted and pushed me back.

I stumbled a bit before I composed my self. Watching her cry like that that too because of me is making my heart bleed.

Oh God! What I have done with her. I promised her, I swore that I'll always protect her , I will always take care of her, I will always understand her but.. I failed today.

I failed as a friend, as a lover ,and as a husband .

I failed.

She doesn't want to talk with me, she has faith on me until now but today I broke that too. I wasn't with her when she was undergoing this much pain alone.

I took a step back to leave the place, I can't see her crying. I made her cry, I made her go this pain every day.

Avi saw me but didn't stop me. Her pain filled eyes are killing me. Her sorrowful face is the last thing I wanted to see in my life.

I'm bad, so bad. She doesn't deserve me. I made her cry, I made her go everything that a girl doesn't want to. She acted happy in front of us but deep inside she was dying. Everyday.

I ran outside of the room crying. I can't see her in this state. I know I should be there with her consoling but I can't face her, hell her face reminds me of the things I made her go through.

How can i not see her pain? Indeed she is a great actor, she hid her pain from us, from me.

From her tillu!..

I was running outside, I need free air to breathe. I can't bear the pain of guilt.

Guilt of making my love cry, guilt of not understanding her pain.

I was walking out side but suddenly a loud scream made my heart stop.

"TILLUUUUUIIUIUU........"

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