Christmas is supposed to be a happy time...filled with family traditions and decorations. Family and friends gathered together around a tall evergreen tree decorated in tinsel and ornaments with a gentle angel on top. There would be presents in a mound underneath it and people exchanging thank you's and gushing over the random non sense they received. At least that's what my Christmas's' were always like...

My mother would make a delicious Christmas lunch with all of me and my sisters favorite foods. My father would be watching Christmas movies on the television, while me and nymph baked cookies in the shapes of Santa clauses and Christmas trees. We would exchange our presents that night, and would rarely go to sleep early due to everyone messing with the gifts they had gotten. I had always loved Christmas...

This year was different...at least last year I had my mother, but she wasnt exactly in the right frame of mind...and she died two months later. But this year, all I felt was grief... Today was Christmas morning, and instead of being excited and running out or my room like I had so many years before...I was standing in a graveyard, with two white roses in my hand.

I wore the simple black dress that I wore to my fathers memorial service..My hair was blowing freely in the wind behind me. My knee high boots were now covered in the wet snow that gracefully fell from the sky's. And on any other day I would have appreciated its beauty, but not today...

There was moisture falling against my cheek, but it wasn't snow...it was my tears. Tears freely fell from my brown eyes as I stared upon the ivory gravestones of Ted Tonks and Andromeda Black...

"Hi Daddy..." I said as I fell to my knees and gently brushed the snow flakes off of his name plate. I placed a single rose under his name and sat back against my heels. "I know you cant hear me...But I miss you so much" I said as I sniffed and wiped away the salty tears. "I promise you...If I ever meet the mangy werewolf who did that to you....ill make him regret it" I said and let out a quiet sob. I ran my fingers through my hair and kissed the bottom of his headstone before standing. "Merry Christmas Daddy" I whispered.

Before I reached the grave beside his belonging to my mother, I felt a patch of fur rubbing against my leg. I looked down and there was a short scruffy black dog rubbing its snout against my thigh. "Hey Sirius" I said with a sad smile and reached out a gently pat his head. He ran forward and layed down beside my mothers headstone, he gave a slight whimper before resting his head on his front paws.

I shook my head at my cousin before letting out a sigh. I bent down and placed the second rose beside her head stone and just silently stared at it. There were so many different things I wish I could say to my mother, so many questions I wish I could ask..But I know I would never get to. I wish I could ask her why she decided to leave me and my sister...leaving me practically orphaned. "You know there isn't anyone around, Sirius.." I said with a slight chuckle. "Padfoot" looked at me before leaping back into his human form.

"That's better" I whispered as he stood by my side. He wrapped an arm around my shoulder and kissed the side of my head. "You ok?" he asked quietly. I just shook my head, "No...I don't think I will ever be ok with this..." I said as I wiped the snow off of her grave. "It will get easier over time.. you have me, and your sister. You have all of the Weasley's who think of you as family, you even have Draco...you aren't alone baby cousin"

"I know, i just hate that she chose to leave me like that" I said sniffling as more tears fell from my eyes. Sirius just took me in a tight embrace, being much shorter than him he just rested his head on top of mine. "Everyone's waiting for you.. your sister said you would be here" he said kissing the top of my head. I nodded my head and we pulled away, and we linked hands ready to apperate back to Grimmauld place. "Thanks Sirius" I said smiling, he returned it before we turned on the spot and I soon felt like I was being sucked through a tube...

"Ronnie!" I heard a familiar voice yell as soon as I walked through the door. My sister had practically tackled me through the kitchen door way. I laughed before hugging her back, "Hey sis" I said and wrapped my arms around her tiny waist. Her hair was fire engine red today, much to the Christmas theme. Behind her I saw all of the Weasley family standing around and giving me a warming smile. "Merry Christmas dear!" Mrs.Weasley exclaimed as she pulled me into a bone crushing hug. Being so short, Mrs.Weasley was probably the only person I actually was at eye level with.

"Merry Christmas everyone!" I said and walked farther into the kitchen. There were piles of foods lined against the table, and random decorations flying around the room. Pretty garlands were decorating the walls of the room and tiny flowers hanging from the ends...and It felt like the Christmas's I spent as a kid.

I received many hugs from everyone in the room, before making my way to my boys. George hugged me first and kissed my cheek before I was pulled away and into the loving arms of my boyfriend. Fred cupped my cheek and wrapped an arm around my waist before kissing me softly. I wrapped my arms around his neck before kissing him back. "Merry Christmas" We said as we rested our foreheads together, of course Fred was practically hunched over and I was on my toes to make up for our height difference.

"AWWW!" I heard someone yell behind us, I turned around and saw everyone either smiling or laughing at us. Ginny was the one who called out and was clapping and jumping up and down. "you two are so adorable!" She said causing the pair of us to blush and let go of one another. "Leave the love birds alone Gin!" George said laughing as he took a seat at the table. "Yes love birds! sit down so we can eat" Mr.Weasley said giving us a smile that reminded me all too well of my father. he appeared to be a lot better from his snake attack that occurred last week.

Fred and I took a seat beside each other at the table, George was sitting on my other side. Nymph and Remus were across from me with Ginny beside them. Harry had taken a place at the other end with Sirius and Mr.Weasley, and Hermione and ron were arguing about something at the other end, until Mrs.Weasley smacked him across the head and yelled at everyone to eat.

Lunch was amazing, and it was so much like what I remember it being like as a kid. Except this time there were so many more people around the table. Mrs.Weasley was such an amazing cook and I ate until I was ready to pop. Nymph made everyone laugh, she kept changing her facial features to random animals...Ginny was practically in hysterics when her nose turned into a pig snout. Harry spent most of the time in a deep conversation with Sirius, and Hermione kept yelling at Ron about how much he was eating. Me and the twins were so full we were practically falling asleep on one another.

"present time!" Mrs.Weasley called out and tried ushering everyone into the other room. I groaned before leaning my head against Fred. "Come on love" He said and wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to my feet.

Soon the entire sitting room was filled with people. I had grabbed all the gifts from my bag and placed them under the tree, and I was sitting on Fred's lap on one of the chairs by the fire place. George was plopped on the couch between Ron and Ginny, and Harry was still in a deep conversation about something by the door.

"Ok, everyone open my gifts first!" I called out, i motioned to Mrs.Weasley to the gifts under the tree that were wrapped in purple wrapping paper and she started handing them out. I didn't have the energy or recourse's to shop for much, I ended up doing sketchings for everyone. I did have to say I was an amazing drawer and everyone was in awe by their pictures. I gave remus and Nymph a drawing from the day they got married. Nymph looked so cute with her bubblegum pink hair, and her crazy dress.

Harry got a drawing of him catching the snitch, and Ron got one of him winning the quiditch cup. Ginny got one I had drawn of her in the common room one night, she was staring into the fireplace intently and the fireplace gave her an amazing glow. Sirius laughed when he saw his picture was a lion carrying a dog by the scruff of its neck, that picture wouldn't have made any sense to anyone but us.

I gave Mr. & Mrs Weasley a picture of their entire family. George got one of him and Fred doing what they did best and causing hysterics with their pranks in Hogwarts. And finally Fred got one of the pair of us with our arms wrapped around each other, sitting at our favorite spot on the mossy log in front of the black lake.

"Ronnie, these pictures are amazing!" Mrs.Weasley exclaimed as she was looking through everyone's pictures. "You are awesome my baby cousin" Sirius called out and raised his glass to me. I smiled and turned back towards Fred. "Thank you so much...its gorgeous, just like you" Fred told me and he gently kissed my lips before kissing my nose lightly, making me scrunch it up and kiss him back.

"Here's yours" He whispered and handed me a small box, I laughed when I saw it was wrapped in purple wrapping as well. Of course everyone knew it was my favorite color... I gasped when I opened the box and there was a beautiful silver necklace with a small heart dangling from the chain and it had tiny purple stones along the side. "Its beautiful Freddie!" I exclaimed and kissed him hard. I almost forgot we were in front of the entire family until I heard George cough behind me. "Thank you so much Fred..I love it" and he took it from me before clasping it behind my neck making the heart gently hit my chest.

The rest of Christmas was great, I got a purple sweater with a silver R on it from Mrs.Weasley. Me and Ron laughed because we both had R's on our sweaters. I got a new sketch book and pencils from Nymph and remus. Some Weasley joke products from George, and so many chocolate frogs and gummy slugs I would never have to make another trip to honeydukes all year. I got a small charm with a lion on it from Sirius that I added to my bracelet I had.

I spent the rest of the day snuggled with Fred in front of the fire... I loved every second with him..But my thoughts  couldn't help but wander to think if my mother had never killed herself, would I have ever met him at all...