The morning light outside came in around five-thirty. The morning overcast covered the sun and left a blue hue and misty cool climate perfect to cuddle with my girlfriend.

I had only slept a total of maybe three hours. After two more rounds of pure bliss, Bonnie completely crashed from exhaustion and was currently snoring in bed beside me, tangled in the lavender sheets. Her face is relaxed and her hair up in a bun since she couldn't sleep with it down. It was a good thing she tied it up because when we cuddled it made me itchy. She was so spent after sex, that I had to tie her hair up myself. 

Multiple orgasms must be a very tiring yet amazing thing.

I gently lifted her hand from where it laid on my chest and carefully slid out of bed to use the bathroom. My hair was a mess, complete sex hair, and my neck covered in small love bites. I smiled, loving the fact that I had reminders of her on my skin.

I searched my bag for a small cylinder container, popping it open to pull out a joint, walking out to the patio of the bedroom with only a pair of shorts on and my lighter. I stood looking out into the ocean, lifting the joint to my lips as I lit the end of the rolled paper and inhaled the best sedative I knew. 

Bonnie would be out for a few more hours. Usually, we'd have sex earlier, but since we didn't go to bed until late, and especially since we were on vacation, she'd sleep in for hours.

It was something I wish I could do if I'm honest. I hated the fact that I had trouble sleeping. Bonnie helped most nights, scratching my scalp until I fell asleep. But occasionally, even as exhausted as I was, sleep just didn't come naturally. Bonnie thinks it can be from stress or anxiety, but personally, I was just an over-thinker. For example, I couldn't get the thought of Jessy and Daniel out of my mind.

It was starting to bother me again. 

He bothered me.

She bothered me.

The two of them together was worse.

It didn't help that as I inhaled another puff of smoke, down on the beach was Jessy doing her morning yoga. This wasn't as surprising because she was the one that got me into yoga for my back problems, but it really killed my buzz to see her.

I had to talk to her.

I grabbed a t-shirt and walked down the steps towards the beach. She must have caught a glimpse of me in her peripheral vision and quickly turned to look at me. "Harry-"

"Can we talk?" She looked back at the house and then at me with a small nod. "What are you guys doing here? Did Daniel plan this trip, how the hell did that happen anyways, I'm really fucking confused about that?"

Jessy looked down and sighed. "Daniel came to me about six or seven months ago and told me you and Bonnie had been seeing each other. That's when I went to talk to Bonnie and told her there were no hard feelings. I knew how you felt about her and I was glad you guys got together. Daniel began talking to me and I realized he was everything you weren't. We just clicked." I nodded slowly.

"Who planned this trip?" 

"I did. Why does that matter?" She put her hands on her hips, giving me a strange look.

"Because at one point your boyfriend wanted to get Bonnie back. How do I know this wasn't a set up by him?" She rolled her eyes. "Listen I just came to tell you that you should watch out. Alright? This is all so shady, and if he pulls a move on Bonnie, I'll fucking choke him out. Alright?" I turned to leave but was stopped by what she said next.

"How insecure are you in your relationship that you're still worried about her ex?" I scoffed, turning to face her again. The weed was finally being to work and I felt a bit slower. "I mean, here you are talking to me, basically wanting me to keep my boyfriend on a tight leash. Are you afraid that Bonnie would take him back?"

"Fuck off, our love is real, a long time coming. I know Bonnie loves me, and I love her more than anyone has ever loved a person. I know you or Daniel are up to some shit, leave us alone." I warned her.

"I know Daniel is in love with me Harry, so why don't you leave us alone." She grabbed her mat and rolled it before stomping back to her house and I did the same thing going back to mine.

I was too high for this shit.

*

I decided not to tell Bonnie anything about my early encounter with Jess, and simply do all the fun things we had planned to do while here in town. It seemed a bit shady, but I think it was best I just kept it from her until the weekend was over.

"Physical activities were supposed to be sex, not renting bikes," I told Bonnie as I caught up to her on the bike trail around the beach. She looked over at me and smiled, those lines that crinkled around her eyes made me feel all warm and loved up in my stomach. "Fine, it's only worth it because it makes my baby doll happy."

She blushed and did this cute little look over her shoulder before looking back to the trail.

After a bike ride, we went to have a late lunch by the pier at a seafood restaurant. Bon looked so cute with her lobster bib on as I snapped a photo of her. "That's my new wallpaper on my phone." She giggled reaching over the table to kiss my cheek. She gently scratched my stubble and leaned over for another kiss before we were interrupted by the waiter.

We were having such a perfect day, almost done with our meal, when I felt a cold chill up my spine. I looked around the restaurant and even out into the view of the ocean when I finally got a look over at the entrance. There, walking in together we're the last people we wanted to see. 

And yet we kept fucking seeing them.

 "Christ almighty." Bonnie looked over and mumbled something quietly to herself.

If mine and Bonnie's love story was a book, the author really is fucking with us right now and needs to kindly fuck off.

When Jessy spotted us she made an awkward double-take, talking to Daniel and walking over. "Hey guys, I swear we aren't following you guys." She put her hand up to her chest. "We can go, I swear we can just leave right now if you'd like." 

"That would be great-" I began before I was interrupted by Bonnie.

"Of course not, stay, its a restaurant, one of the best in town. Enjoy your meal." Bonnie said kindly. I don't understand how she can be so kind. Here I was trying to get rid of her and she's being nice.

Jessy smiled at her and thanked her. "I promise this will be the last you see of us. After Harry and I talked this morning, I feel like I finally understand how he feels, and I agree. Have a good meal, you guys." She smiled and turned to walk back over to Daniel as they were seated.

I immediately felt eyes burning into the side of my head and a sudden shift in the air. "Uh, what are you feeling for dessert?" I questioned, not looking up just yet. The air went from pleasant to suffocating and the wooden floorboards seemed more interesting now that I felt like I was in trouble.

"What the hell was she talking about?" She whispered towards me. "You talked to her this morning? Alone?"

I cleared my throat about to respond when the waiter came over with the check as we asked him a couple of minutes ago. I wasn't sure what to say so I just shrugged. “I mean, yeah. I just told her to watch out because Daniel seems to be planning something to get you back, or maybe make me look like an idiot."

Bonnie squinted her eyes at me. “So she came to the house and talked to you?” I shook my head. “When did- I'm really confused?” she was also exceptionally mad.

“I went out on the balcony to smoke this morning around five and I saw her on the beach doing yoga. I went and told her that I had a feeling Daniel brought her here on purpose to fuck with us. I told her she should watch out because I guess I was just trying to help.” She stiffened looking away from me now. “It was a short conversation. All I told her was that I didn't want them to ruin our trip.”

“So then why didn't you tell me?” she crossed her arms. “Why didn't you tell me when we were at the house or on our bike ride or this dinner? Something?”

“It wasn't a big deal to me. I thought we wanted them to stay away?” She didn't say anything, grabbing the check and pulling out some money to pay it before grabbing her bag and standing up. “Baby, why are you upset?” She stood up and began walking out of the restaurant. I quickly followed her trying not to cause a scene as we went all the way to the car.

*

The silence was now my biggest enemy. I began to realize why Bonnie would be upset and I felt really bad. Of course, she was upset with me, I had made it seem like I still felt something for my ex a few months ago, and now I was basically looking out for her again. I needed to just cut ties with Jessy and just ignore any sort of contact with her.

I stood by the bedroom door and watched as she lay in bed watching television. Although her eyes are glued to the screen I can tell her mind was elsewhere. 

I went over to sit beside her and turned off the television to hold her hand and catch her attention. “Can we talk?” her small glimpse is all I need to know that she was listening. “I understand why you're upset, I was trying to have her understand that I didn't want her near us. I'm afraid of losing you. But you know that, I've told you before.”

She nodded slowly, “I know.” she sat holding a pillow to her chest. “I just don't understand why you care so much about them or their intentions."

“You care too, Bonnie.”

“Yes, I can admit I'm jealous but can you blame me when your ex-girlfriend looks like that, Harry. The way you snapped at me on your birthday and now you went and talked to her and didn't tell me about it. It makes me feel like you still have feelings for her or that you care.” her voice was sad, but I was frustrated.

“Well I'm sorry you're so insecure about that, but it was a small conversation where I was trying to get my feelings out there about them being on a trip coincidentally at the same time as we are. I blocked Jessy on social media and stuff, but I know you never blocked Daniel-” she gasped.

“Fuck off, look whos talking. I can't believe you would fucking say that to me! So now it's my fault that they're here?”

“Stop cursing at me- I'm not- are you seriously mad because I had a conversation with her?” we both stood. "I didn't think it was a big deal because I'm doing nothing wrong."

“No Harry, I'm mad because you got mad about the fact that she was seeing Daniel, and you decided to not tell me you talked. I'm still mad because you waited six months to tell your mom about us. I'm mad at the fact that I just forgive you so easily when I have every right to be mad at you!” she poked my chest. “I love you very much, and you are my best friend, but you sometimes suck as a boyfriend!”

Not going to lie, that really hurt my feelings. I felt like I was a good boyfriend and did the best in this relationship. Although I will admit that sometimes I say the wrong shit.

Actually, I always say the wrong shit.

“Well then maybe it was better when I was just fucking you then, huh?” 

The moment I said that my body wanted to take the words and shove them back into my mouth. 

Bonnie stared at me and shook her head quietly. “You know for someone who claims they've been in love with me for a long time, you sure have a funny way to show it.” She walked to the bathroom and slammed the door shut.

I stood there for a minute before walking to the door, about to gently tap on it when I stopped myself at the sound of her crying.

I've said this before, but it was rare that Bonnie cried, but this was the second time that she was crying because of me.

*

Thanks for reading. Xx

-k