(Edited/Fixed 9/18/17)

[Tyler's p.o.v]

(Listen to this song while reading ^)

Anxiety bit away at my mind.

I had so many questions.

Am I in love?

How did Josh have anxiety?

Was I a good enough friend?

Did he deserve better?

Of course they were all negative.

I Made myself a promise.

I wont fall in love with falling.

Weather that's with a person or just falling Into my empty mind. My depressing thoughts..

I sighed deeply as I looked at what I had done.

A blade laid near me on the ground as I sat my bathroom, against the sink.

I watched the scarlet blood drip onto the floor.

I bit my lip, holding in my tears as wars waged behind my skull.

No one will ever know what's behind my skull.

Why did Josh just... hang up?

Did I do something?

My mother wasn't home, and looks like someone took that advantage.

A knock echoed through the house. I picked up my blade and hid it in my room, on my desk and under some papers.

Just so my mother wouldn't find it.

I walked down my stairs and cracked the door. I found the scarlet small boy with small freckles that littered across his face, in which admired his beautiful mocha eyes.

"Josh?"

"H-hey Tyler,"

He sounded torn.

"Come on in."

Josh stepped inside looking around.

I walked upstairs to my room, Josh following closely behind.

I opened my door and welcomed him in. I sat down on my bed as he sat at my desk.

"You draw and paint?" He asked while searching the top of my desk.

I started getting a little nervous.

"Yeah,"

[Josh's p.o.v]

I looked at the drawings and paintings that littered his desk. Some were beautifully colored and some were black and deep colors.

I noticed one that looked of blood. I picked up the paper.

Underneath was a blade.

"Tyler...."

I bit my lip hard, probably enough to draw blood.

"D-did y-you...-"

"Josh.."

"Tyler.. answer my question.."

"Yes.. I did."

I looked at the strip of metal.

"P-please..dont hurt yourself.." I choked out.

"Josh.. I don't fall slowly like I use to...i fall straight down..."

"What do you mean?"

"I used to fall slowly with my anxiety.. depressing thoughts.. now I fall straight down into depression and suicidal thoughts."

I sobbed out quietly and stood up, walking over to Tyler. He got up as well and I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him close to me. He rested his head on my chest and just sobbed and cried. I rubbed circles in his back as he calmed down.

"Come here.."

I said and grabbed his bicep, careful not to hurt his sensitive wrists.

I led him to the bathroom and he sat up on the counter. I searched the cabinets for supplies.

I finally managed to find some stuff that would work.

I walked back over to him and held my hand out, asking for his wrist.

He put his arm out and I grabbed it. I cleaned the wounds gently with a cotton ball and wrapped his wrists up.

I brought his wrists up to my face and gently pressed kisses to them.

I looked back up to see Tyler's face a soft sunset pink.

"Why do you care so much Josh? I don't understand why someone as great and beautiful as you would care about someone like.... me."

I shook my head with disappointment and pulled him into another tight embrace.

I pulled away and looked at him. He was biting his lip, tears brimming his eyes in which were about to fall.

"What's wrong baby boy? Why are you crying?"

I saw Tyler shiver at the nickname and I smiled inside, keeping that nickname in mind.

"I.. I never met someone like you who cared about a torn person like me as much as you do.."

I smiled weakly at him and I realized we were both pretty close. I didn't exactly pull all the way back after the hug.

I shifted awkwardly and backed away, turning around to leave the room.

To my surprise, I felt hands grip at my shirt. I turned around and the small boy pulled me towards him, cupping my face and kissing me gently. I was quite shocked because he said we shouldn't do this because of the current situation and if we dated.. it would eventually get around to our mothers.

It took me a few minutes in thought, then I kissed back. His lips were so soft and I melted Into them, almost like vanilla. Our lips were moving in sync and the moment was perfect.. before..

"Tyler?!"

A/N

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Don't mind my horrid grammar pls :) all my chapters are unedited and will be until I have the time to fix them. I have a life too outside of wattpad.

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