(Edited/Fixed 9/18/17)

[Tyler's p.o.v]

"Why would I lie to you?.... I love you Tyler.." Josh stared at me with concern washing through his eyes.

"Love is a lie, Josh.."

"Why do you say that?"

"Because no one actually loves me,"

"That's not true."

"Its very true Josh, and you won't convince me otherwise."

"Challenge accepted."

"Josh, don't even try, you will just waste your time,"

"No I wont."

"Whatever you say.."

Well, I'm obviously going through depression.

Maybe that wasn't obvious.

To some people who actually understand my pain, maybe it was.

Josh was too innocent through, he's too light hearted.

I have to deal with Blurryface; my depression, and hate-

Josh is the opposite. His family loves him, people love him. He's not bullied.

How could someone like him love  someone like me?

I don't understand.

I don't understand life..

I don't understand myself...

I don't understand anything; only Blurryface.

Of course I can only understand him.

Of course.

But wouldn't that mean I can understand myself.

No.

I can't believe we were best friends.

I was loved back then.

Because I was a small innocent, cute child that everyone loved.

Hint;

'Loved'

Because everyone loves children, and as they grow older, love turns into a lie.

Lies lies lies.

All it ever is is lies.

Life is a lie.

--

I snapped out of my rambling and looked at Josh.

I instantly fell in love with his eyes.

No, love is a lie.

I sighed with satisfaction and shifted my eyes to the floor.

--

School was just about ending and I was going over to Josh's house. I don't know what I planned on telling my mother.

I pulled my phone out and opened Messenger.

Tyler: Hey mom, I'm going to a friend's house for a bit.

Mom: who?

Uh...

Tyler: Brendon's.

Mom: Okay, stay safe. Love you.

Tyler: I Will, love you too.

--

Good, she bought it.

I walked to my locker as the last bell rang, signalling dismissal.

I unlocked my locker, looking at Josh a few lockers away.

He was already looking at me, as he noticed me looking at him, he gave me a smile and turned his head to his locker quickly, but not obviously.

I grabbed my book bag and packed my things up, zipping my bag and flinging it over my shoulder. I locked my locker and walked over to Josh just in time. We began walking out of the school, closely beside each other. Our hands brushed together as we walked, both of us looking down at our hands then at each other. My face turned red and Josh's hinted with a small tint of pink. He shifted away from me awkwardly, attempting to stop the vibe that was given off to them as being gay.

We smiled at each other lightly before turning back our focus to our pathway in walking.

After a few minutes of walking, we reached what I had guessed was Josh's house. We walked up to the porch and he opened the door. He walked through the door frame, myself following closely behind.

I looked at a beautiful tabby cat laying across the arm of the couch.

Josh welcomed me in, closing the door behind me. I set my stuff down by the door and he lead me outside to the porch.

"Something to eat? Drink?"

"Um.. just a water please,"

Josh nodded and set off to the kitchen. He returned a few seconds later with a cold bottle of water in his hand.

My attention was brought to his cat in which was making his way over to me.

"That's Oliver," Josh spoke up.

The beautiful tabby sat in front of me, staring into my soul with its forest green eyes.

I put my hand down and the cat stood up, sniffing my hand then rubbing against it.

I smiled gently and stoked the cat's back gently.

Josh still stood in front of me. I didn't even notice until I looked up from the cat.

"OH hey there!" I jumped.

Josh laughed hard. After catching his breath he handed me the bottle of water and sat down beside me.

"What do you wanna do?" Josh questioned.

"Hmm well I don't know what you have,"

"Take a walk or drive, swim, play on the Xbox, play on the Wii?" He suggested.

"Hmm, swim for a bit then play the Wii?" I responded.

He nodded and walked away, returning soon with two pairs of swimming shorts. He had a salmon pair and a black pair with white stripes going down the sides of them. He let me choose, So I picked the salmon ones. Joshua directed me to his bathroom which meant walking through his large bedroom. We walked in and I admired all the posters and decorations. I noticed a drum set and practice pads in one corner of his room.

"You can change in there, meet me down stairs once your done," He smiled and boiiii did I melt.

I nodded and walked into the bathroom, discarding my clothing piece by piece. I slipped on the swim shorts and tied the drawstrings tightly as the shorts were a bit big.

I opened the door slowly, looking around for Josh. Nothing.

I found my self down stairs within seconds, searching for Josh. Then outside.

A well built figure stood in the water, the water just above the rim of his shorts. Water droplets dripping off his tan beautiful complexion; deep brown eyes admiring that. His pastel pink hair was a bit wet. He smiled at me with a sweet smile as his eyes searched me. I felt insecure. What was he going to think of me?

A voice echoed in my head.
"Weak."

"Shut up." I thought.

I smiled back at Josh and walked over to the water, stepping down the stairs. His eyes were on me the whole time.

It kind of bothered me.

I made my way over to him as the cold water soaked into my skin.

"Stop staring," I spoke up.

"But your beautiful," he choked out.

"Im insecure," I responded.

"Why?"

"Because Josh, I don't love myself," I sighed.

He frowned and walked over to me through the water and wrapped his arms around me. I shivered lightly at his touch.

"But your beautiful,"

I shook my head lightly and he pulled away. I looked down off into the depths of the water.

That is until Josh grabbed my chin lightly and looked into my eyes.

"Do I have to make you believe you are lovely?"

I looked at him and frowned.

His eyes pierced into me, his eyes switching back and forth between both my eyes.

He leaned forwards and pulled me into what I thought was a hug, but took me by surprise ...

And kissed me.

Josh.FREAKING.Dun.KISSED.me.

I managed to stop panicking, and kissed him back ever so softly.

His lips were soft, it reminded me of vanilla. It made me melt.

He pulled away gently.

"Sorry-" he began

"Its f-"

"Not" he smiled.

I smiled for a bit until it turned into a deep frown.

"I can't do this,"

"Huh?"

"We can't do this,"

"Why?"

"Our mothers?"

"My mother can't force me to stop seeing the one in truly in love with," Josh responded.

I melted once again. Damn you Dun.

But I knew this wasn't right.

" Love Is just a lie, Joshua"

A/N

So proud of this chapter:) +1000 words.

This is a picture of Oliver, Josh's cat. (In this chapter)

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