Idk what this is but I wanted to write it. It's good but bad at the same time

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I loved Frank with all my heart. He was my husband, I'd do anything for him. I encouraged him when he was in his band. I pro used him we'd be fine when he went on tour for the first time.

But we've been married for years now. And yeah we still loved each other but it was hard. His band was really famous and I was so proud of him. I just didn't like him being away all the time, especially now that the kids were getting bigger.

"Frank, you said you'd be back," I stated over the phone, sitting on the edge of the bed.

"I know, I'm sorry, the tour just got backed up for a little bit," he said.

"You promised the girls you'd be there for the father daughter dance," I said.

"You'll still be there," Frank said.

"It's not the same!" I hissed. "They're in their bedroom crying."

"Can you tell them I'm sorry and that I love them?" He asked.

"You promised that we'd both be there at the dance," I said. "They've been talking about it all week, telling all their friends that you were coming home just for the dance."

Frank sighed and I ran my fingers through my red hair.

"Fine, I guess I'll talk to you later," I said, hanging up.

My eyes watered as took a few deep breaths. I went to the girls' room, seeing them both crying.

"It's okay," I whispered, sitting down as they crawled into my lap.

"Daddy's not coming home," Lily cried.

"I know but I'll still be there," I said.

"But then we have to share you instead of each of us having one person to dance with," Cherry said.

I sighed quietly, kissing both of their foreheads.

"Daddy," Miles said as he walked in. "Why they crying?"

"They're just sad that daddy won't be home for the dance," I said.

"But he pwomised," Miles said. "A-and we go to park too."

"I'm sorry, baby, he won't be able to take you to the park," I said.

Thankfully Miles was younger, he was only two so he doesn't understand as much. But the girls were four and they noticed their dad gone a lot and they missed him.

The doorbell rang and Miles tugged on my sleeves. I sighed, getting up and walking downstairs. I heard Miles following, scooting down the stairs on his butt.

"Oh my god, Lindsey, you're here, thank god," I breathed.

"Where are the girls?" She asked.

"Upstairs, they're really upset," I said.

Miles again followed close behind as we went up to the twins' room.

"Here there, girls!" Lindsey cheered. "Come on, I'm gonna make you two look like princesses for the dance tonight."

"I'm not going," Lily denied.

"Me neither," Cherry agreed. 

"Girls," I sighed.

"Come here, Miles, let's let them talk," Lindsey said, picking him up and taking him out as she shut the door.

"Girls, listen, your dad is very upset that he can't be here," I said. "He wants to be here so badly. He misses you both so much, he loves you."

"Then why isn't he here?" Cherry asked.

I sighed, pulling them both in for a hug.

"Because he had to help some people," I lied. "There was people who needed his help because they couldn't find their shoes and he has to help them look."

"Their shoes?" Lily asked with a small giggle.

"Yeah, isn't that silly," I said, feeling my eyes water. "But he had to stay because he was doing something good."

They nodded and I sniffled.

"Is it okay if he's going something good?" I asked.

"If he's helping people then it's okay," Lily said.

"Great, so how about I get Lindsey to come in here and she'll get your hair and makeup done all pretty?" I asked.

They nodded and I smiled, calling Lindsey back in. Lindsey helped to give them the slightest bit of makeup and curl their hair. I went to my room as Miles followed, watching me as I got dressed into a suit.

"I go?" He asked.

"No, sweetheart, I already told you you're going to stay here and have fun with Lindsey," I said.

"Make me a princess?" He asked.

"Sure, Lindsey can make you a princess too if you want," I said, pulling on my shoes.

I went back to the other room and saw the girls all dressed. They had matching dresses with lace designs at the top and bows around the waist. The only difference was that Cherry's was purple and Lily's was pink; Lily wanted her dress to match her glasses.

"Don't you two just look so beautiful," I said.

They smiled proudly and I smiled sadly. Lindsey took a photo of us as I kneeled down to their height.

"Are you ready to go?" I asked.

They nodded and I smiled.

"Alright, Miles, you be good for Lindsey and have fun," I said, giving him a kiss.

"Princess time," Mikes said, grabbing Lindsey's hand.

"He wants you to make him a princess like the girls," I said.

"Well, I'm sure we have some pretty bows and a nice dress for you," Lindsey said.

I took both their hands, helping to get them into their booster seats. We got to the hall where the dance was taking place. The two girls were giggling excitedly as we found a table where their friend Ruby from down the street was.

"Hey, Joe," I said.

"Hi, Gerard," he said. "Don't you two girls look adorable."

"Thank you," they both said before going to giggle and talk with Ruby.

"Where's Frank?" He asked.

I scoffed. "He decided he was having too much fun to come home to his family."

"But the girls were so excited," Joe said.

"Yeah, they were crying all day when I told them he wasn't coming back," I said. "And he's just being a total dick."

I sighed quietly as food was served and the girls ate happily. I, however, was still feeling awful. The girls were having fun and that's really all that matters.

"Come on, daddy, let's go dance," Lily said.

The twins pulled me up to where the other people were dancing. I smiled as we danced together for awhile, talking and laughing. I loved seeing the smiles on their faces as we all danced together.

As it started to get later, songs started to slow down. I held each girl on each him as I rocked slowly and they rested their hands on my shoulders.

"I wish daddy was here," Lily whispered.

"Me too," Cherry agreed.

That's all it took for them to started crying again.

"Alright, let's get you two home," I said.

I sighed, going back to the table as I set them down.

"I'm gonna get going, I'll see you later, Joe," I said.

"Bye, Cherry, bye, Lily," Ruby said.

They cried, clutching onto my legs as they sobbed. I picked them out, going to the front to sign out.

"They didn't have fun?" The lady asked.

"They did, it's just some family problems," I said. "Come on, girls, let's get home."

I picked them up and got them out to the car.

"It's okay, sweethearts," I said quietly. "Daddy misses you so much but he's helping other people."

"I don't want him to help other people, I want him here!" Lily cried.

I sighed, thanking god that the dance wasn't far from the house. We got inside and hurried over.

"Oh no, what happened?" Lindsey asked.

"They miss Frank," I said.

She helped me carry them upstairs and get them changed and into bed. Miles tugged on my jacket when I tucked Lily.

"Already, stinker, let's get you to bed too," I said.

I carried him to his room, undressing him and helping him into his pull ups.

"Do you wanna pick out your pajamas?" I asked.

He nodded, digging through his pajamas before he picked some out. It was his Spider-Man ones that he got for Christmas last year. I helped him into them because he wasn't coordinated enough to do it himself.

"Goodnight, sweetheart," I said, kissing his forehead after tucking him into the bed.

I got up, walking out but stopped when I heard his quiet voice.

"When's daddy coming home?" Miles asked.

I didn't say anything, turning off the light and leaving the door open a crack as I walked out. Lindsey had left as I went to the bedroom, stripping down to my boxers.

I pulled out my phone, calling Frank. After a while it went to voicemail and I sighed. I dialed his number again and he finally picked up on the fourth ring.

"Hey, Gerard, how was the dance?" Frank asked.

"The girls were crying," I stated. "Don't worry, saved your sorry ass, told them you had to help someone look for their shoes."

"I hope they at least had a little bit of fun there," Frank said.

"When are you coming home?" I asked. "Are you even gonna be here for the twins' first day of kindergarten in a few months?"

"Yeah, Gerard, I'll probably be there," he said.

"You'll probably be there?" I asked. "Frank, you have gotta be fucking kidding me. Do you remember our wedding? The day we adopted our kids? Do you even care about that at all?"

"Hey, Frank, we got another round of shots!" I heard someone shout.

"How long is this fucking tour going to last?" I asked. "You should've been home by now, you can't keep extending it."

I heard a crash in the background and laughter.

"Hey, baby, I'll call you later," Frank said. "I love you."

He hung up and my eyes watered as I crawled into bed. I sobbed into the pillow until I heard my door creak open. I didn't even have to look up know it was Miles climbing up into the bed with me, like he usually does at night.

"No sad," he whispered.

I sniffled, hugging him tight.

"I love you, Miles," I whispered.

"Wove you, daddy," he said.

I cried quietly as Miles tried wiping away my tears with his little hands, just like how I do with him. That only made me sob more.

"You're so perfect," I mumbled.

I fell asleep with my arms wrapped around him as I cried softly.

-+-

A few days later I heard the front door open as I was making breakfast. I assumed it was Lindsey or Mikey but my eyes widened when Frank walked into the kitchen.

"Daddy!" They all cheered.

Frank smiled, giving them all hugs and kisses. I scowled as Frank walked over to me but I stepped away when he tried to hug me.

"Why won't you hug daddy?" Lily asked.

I sighed, giving him a small side hug.

"That's not a real hug," Cherry giggled.

"Finish eating, girls, when you're done you can go watch tv for a little while," I said.

"And when you're done you can have the presents I got you," Frank added.

I sighed quietly as they ate quickly and I washed the pans I used to cook breakfast with. Frank passed out presents when they were done and they hurried off to the tv.

"Got you a present too, baby," Frank whispered, wrapping his arms around me from behind.

"Go away, Frank," I said, moving away and crying my hands on a rag.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

I scoffed. "You left your family for months then you just come back out of the blue with presents."

"I was on tour," he said.

"But you kept extending it, you promised you'd be back weeks ago," I said. "The girls cried all day the night of the dance."

"I'm sorry, I was just living my dream," he defended. "You know I've always wanted to be in a famous band and I finally am."

"But is your dream worth losing your family over?" I asked.

"I'm not gonna lose you guys," he said.

"Yes you are!" I cried, throwing my wedding ring at his chest.

I ran up to our bedroom, slamming and locking the door.

"Baby," Frank whispered from the other side, knocking softly. "I'm sorry, please come out and we can talk about this."

"Leave me the fuck alone," I sobbed.

It was quiet and I thought he left. That is, until twenty minutes later I heard footsteps.

"Daddy, why are you sitting out here?" Cherry asked.

I went over, opening the door and scooping up the kids before shutting and locking it again.

"Why's daddy outside?" Cherry asked.

"Because daddy's in time out," I stated.

"Was he being bad?" She asked.

I sniffled quietly and nodded my head.

"What'd he do?" She asked.

I kissed the top of her head as Miles crawled into my lap. Lily went over to where some of their toys were in the corner.

"Want daddy," Miles said, holding his arms out towards the door.

"Not right now, sweetheart," I whispered.

"Come on, baby, let me in," Frank said.

Lily went to go open the door but I stopped her.

"No, Lily, he's in timeout," I said.

She walked back over, holding a doll.

"When's he getting out of timeout?" Lily asked.

"I don't know," I said.

They played for a while before Miles got tired. I put him down for a nap in my bed, eventually convincing Lily and Cherry to sleep too. I opened the door and saw Frank sitting there, it looked like he's been crying.

"You left us," I whispered, sitting down against the wall in the hallway opposite of him.

"I didn't leave," he denied. "I was just on tour."

"But you wouldn't come home," I whimpered. "Do you want a divorce or something? Do you just wanna leave?"

"No, baby," he denied. "I love you and I love the kids so much. I just got all caught up in the music."

"You can't do this, Frank," I said.

I pulled the picture of me and the girls the night of the dance, tossing it to him.

"You broke their hearts," I said. "They didn't even wanna go because you weren't gonna be there, they were so devastated."

"I-I'm sorry," Frank whispered. "I didn't mean to, I love them so much."

"You went on tour and were supposed to come home weeks ago," I said.

"I'm sorry, baby, please forgive me," he begged.

He held up my wedding ring and I hesitated for a moment, sniffling before taking it and putting it on my finger.

"I'm not going on tour for a while," he said. "I wanna spend more time here with you and the kids."

I nodded, wiping my tears away.

"I'm sorry, baby, I love you so much," Frank said.

"I love you too," I said.

He wrapped his arms around me, kissing the top of my head.

"I'm gonna fix everything between us," he whispered.

I nodded as Frank gave me a soft kiss. I wanted things to be better, I loved him so much. Now that he was back we could really try to make things better again.