When we got closer to class Eren reluctantly let my hand go before anyone could see. We made our way in the class and sat down in our usual seats. Jean and Marco had sat directly in front of us. After sitting down I grabbed Eren's hand under the table. I took a deep breath and looked over at him before whispering, "I want to tell them, but I can't, at least not today." I let out a little sigh after thinking really hard about it.

"Okay, if you want I can help you tell them when the time comes," He smiled and gave my hand a light squeeze.

"I'd like that," I nodded before giving him a little smile. "Oh no," I whispered after hearing a thought from Jean.

Jean turned around and leaned his arms on our desk. "So," he looked both of us in the eyes before grinning like an idiot, "how do you guys like sharing a room so far?" I knew exactly what he wanted to hear.

"Jean stop," Marco nudged him.

"You can't tell me you're not curious too?" He raised an eyebrow.

"No, because it's none of our business," Marco rolled his eyes.

He turned back to us for a moment, "I mean you don't have to tell me but I am very curious, anything you want to share I'm all ears." He smiled and Marco just let out a defeated sigh.

I saw the chance and took it. I smiled before leaning forward and whispering "Well, I think what you want to hear is all the dirty little details right?" I asked and Jean smiled really big and nodded. "Well, in that case, I got nothing for you," I shrugged.

Jean pouted for a second. "Hey, I mean it's not like we're hiding anything, there just isn't anything to say about that topic." I stopped before shooting Eren a devious grin, "at least not yet, but maybe soon," I said before sitting back up and acting like nothing happened. I hope Eren picked up on what I was implying, I mean I made it pretty obvious.

Jean looked at Eren with a stupid looking grin on his face. I could tell Eren was still trying to process what I had said. His cheeks turning a darker red the more he thought about it. Does this mean he is more comfortable with that stuff? Eren thought before remembering that I could hear him. He turned to me waiting for an answer so I gave him one. I smiled and gave him a wink. Well shit. Eren thought before taking a deep breath. He had to put his head down for a minute to avoid getting too excited. It was really adorable.

"Well, then," Jean said before turning to Marco with wide eyes and a smile.

"Thank you for telling us even though you didn't have too," Marco said being polite.

I just shrugged, "as for the normal everyday stuff we just kinda cuddle and shit."

"Do you guys still sleep in the same bed?" Jean asked he seemed just as excited to hear about the little stuff as much as the dirty stuff.

"Yeah, it's nice," I smiled innocently. "It's a lot easier to fall asleep when you're next to someone you care about."

"I feel the same way," Jean said before putting his hand over Marco's. Marco's cheeks instantly reddened a little before he smiled looking back at Jean.

I just smiled it was refreshing watching them. I could definitely see the look Marco was talking about. When they looked at each other there was an undeniable feeling of love between them. I looked down and Eren and could feel the same feeling. I don't know whether I should be excited or worried. Having strong feelings for another person is amazing, however, it has the potential to be absolutely devastating. This one person has so much power over my life and they don't even know it.

I felt some doubts start to slip into my mind. The thoughts I used to hear every day started to come back. Break up with him, they kept telling me. I took a deep breath and shoved them away. They won't ruin this for me. Yes these emotions are scary and they have the potential to hurt me, but it doesn't mean that's what will happen. Even if this relationship does end in heartbreak then all of this would still be worth it.

I looked down at Eren and gave his hand a light squeeze. When his eyes peeked up at me my heart nearly leaped out of my chest. He's probably going to break my heart one day, but I don't care. I smiled at him and I realized how stupid I was being.

I was making him feel like shit for no reason. I held onto his hand under the table and gave him a smile before letting go. I brought my hand above the table and opened my hand for him to take.

He looked at me confused before looking around the room and then back to me. "People are going to see?" He whispered.

I just nodded, "I know, let them see. I'm not ashamed of our relationship," I said giving him a smile I know that what he was thinking every time I would let go of his hand or lean away from him. I know I told myself that it was because I didn't want people to judge him for hanging out with me, but I think it was because I was embarrassed. I spent so long pushing everyone away and now just like that here I am holding someone's hand. I guess I was more afraid of them judging me for being such a hypocrite.

Eren hesitated for a second trying to figure out if I was serious or not. He grabbed my hand and then looked around the room almost as if he thought by doing so the whole class would just stop and stare. I can't blame him for thinking that because my mind told me the same thing. It never happened no one stared, no one even noticed at first. Jean and Marco noticed, but that's because they were still facing us.

"You're not worried about being outed?" Jean asked before looking around the room.

"Nope, I'm proud to be with him and I don't care who knows it," I said and Jean looked down at the ground. I felt guilt radiating off of him.

"Um, Marco-." Jean started only to be cut off by Marco shaking his head.

"Don't feel like you have to if you don't want to," Marco said with a smile.

"But I do want to," he said back with a smile.

"Okay," Marco said before letting Jean take his hand.

Jean looked up at me with a big smile, "thank you."

I just shrugged, "hey I didn't do it, you did."

"Hello class," Eld said walking in the door. "Sorry I know I'm a little late I just came from a teacher's meeting," he said before pulling out the roll sheet.

He took roll and when he looked up at us as he called our names. I couldn't help but take the opportunity. I focused on his thoughts and watched as he gave us a smile. I knew Jean and Marco were dating but Eren and Levi, that's new. Then again it makes sense they both seem to be coming out of their shells more and more. That's good means they are really good for each other. I smiled before focusing back on Eren's thoughts. Eld continued on with the roll and I just gave Eren's hand a light squeeze before smiling at him. I could tell he was still a little nervous but the more reassurance I gave him that this was okay the more he relaxed.

I didn't purposely go out of my way to worry about what other people would think of us, but it was hard to stop myself from listening in to people's thoughts when I caught them staring at us. Which was hard since no one took more than a glance or two at us.

Mikasa was one of the first people to notice. When I looked at her thoughts I just smiled. I thought I saw something between then before, it all makes sense now, she thought.

Sasha was the next one to look over at us. She did a double-take when she saw us holding hands. They are so adorable, guess I should have figured since they are always hanging out.

I switched over to Armin who had looked at me and gave me a smile. They are holding hands, they are such great friends. I heard his thoughts say and had to stop myself from bursting out into laughter. He's so innocent he genuinely didn't think anything of it. Looks like someone will eventually have to tell him if he doesn't get the message soon.

Christa was the next one to look at me. I locked eyes with her and she gave me a smile, Congrats, she mouthed. Well, no need to read her thoughts there.

The next person I saw looking was Reiner. I mean before yesterday I would have expected something homophobic from him, but I found out he and Berthold are dating so I doubt that he would be homophobic. So they are dating. I thought as much when I saw them on the field last night.

I felt a chill roll down my spine so he was the one who went to the field last night, but why? I listened a little longer and hoped he would touch a little more on that.

Last night, man that was a shitty night, his thoughts continued, first we had that depressing lesson then I went back to my dorm just to get an email from my shitty parents asking if they can visit. How did they even get my email in the first place? I mean hell I've made sure to drop all forms of contact so how did they find this? I almost did something stupid last night because they threw me back in such a horrible mindset.

Reiner let out a long deep breath before looking at Berthold and giving him a smile. I'm glad that those two were on the field or I might have lost everything last night. I won't let them get to me never again. I'm happier now than ever with a man who loves me for me. I let his thoughts drift away.

I see. I let out a sigh of relief. I'm glad I was at the field last night. Sometimes all it takes is just seeing someone in the way to stop you and bring you out of that mindset, but for the people that it doesn't stop I'm there to physically stop them and help them.

I turned my attention back to Eld who had finished explaining that we will be going over different powers now since he already went over his. "Metal manipulation," he said. That was today's topic.

Normally I'd pay attention to the lessons even if it's only partially, but I kept having this feeling of being watched. I looked around the room and no one was looking at me at the moment except for Eren who saw me looking around. That's when I noticed Ymir glance next to me and mouth "stop it."

I focused on her for a second and listened to her thoughts to try and see what as going on. These damn spirits need to learn what personal space is. Can they knock it off? Normal people can't see them but they can still sense them. Shit, Levi's looking at me. Hey Levi, I don't know if you're reading my thoughts at the moment but yeah hi.

I just gave her a smile and let out a silent little laugh. Oh so you can hear me well, um I'm sure it's cause you can feel them, sorry about that they don't listen to me all the time.

I just gave her a look trying to ask who they are but I don't know how well that look translated. If you're asking where they are there's one leaning on your back and one sitting on the table in front of you as for who they are, I can't say. They still haven't even given me their names. She thought before shrugging. Sorry.

"Two people?" I whispered to myself before clearing my throat. I could tell Eren heard me and he gave me a confused look. I wanted to put my head down, but Ymir had said there was a spirit in front of me on the table. I just let out a sigh as I closed my eyes and kept my head lowered.

You okay? I heard Eren's thoughts ask.

"Yeah," I whispered back before remembering that I was going to open up to him more which meant actually telling him my true feelings about things, "no." I corrected myself. This was going to be a long class.

What's wrong? His hand gave mine a light squeeze and I did it back.

"I'm not sure yet," I said quietly. I mean I wasn't lying I don't know what's wrong, but at the same time, I know exactly what's wrong.