Levi opened his eyes and I gave him a smile. He must have been really tired he slept for a while. I even fell asleep for like an hour and when I woke up, he was still out. "Morning sleeping beauty."

"What time is it?" He asked rubbing his head.

"A little after 10," I said looking at the clock.

"What? Why didn't you wake me up?" He asked shooting out of the bed before letting out a wince and putting his hand up to his head.

"Because you looked like you needed the sleep," I said before standing up too. "How's your head, it looks like it still hurts."

"I just have a wicked headache that's all, it'll go away eventually. Just a side effect from overdoing it," He shrugged it off. "Let's pick up some food from the cafeteria and head out to the field it's late," Levi suggested and I nodded. We got dressed and grabbed the blanket. Levi grabbed one of his new books and I grabbed one of my notebooks.

After we picked up some food we headed out to the field. We set the blanket out and sat down to eat. It was an easy night. There was no wind and it was just a peaceful night out under the stars. I think I fell asleep a little after midnight. Levi woke me up at 4 am and we headed back to the dorm. We laid in my bed this time. Levi insisted that he wanted to stay awake and that he wasn't going to fall asleep however he fell asleep before I did. I closed my eyes and let myself drift back to sleep.

I woke up and mentally cursed myself. I didn't want to fall back asleep, but at some point, I must have. I looked next to me and Eren was still fast asleep. I could still feel the headache from the previous day. Sleeping it off didn't work. There was still a pounding in my head that didn't show any sign of fading any time soon.

I sat up and carefully got out of Eren's arms to avoid waking him. There was still a little bit of time left for him to sleep before he should get up for class. Today was Hanji's class. I wasn't looking forward to it. It was about power triggers. It was an extra-long class. They had sent an email out saying that Hanji and Erwin would both be there and that students should meet in the school's gym.

They were going to be talking about power triggers. It's definitely a serious topic that needs to be addressed. However, that being said I would rather skip this class. It's a topic that most people avoid talking about since it's the most tragic events to happen in a person's life and that can be a very hard topic to talk about without throwing some people into traumatic flashbacks.

One thing is for sure I will really have to be lookout going to the field tonight. Every time there is one of these there is at least someone who thinks about ending it all. Whether they actually decide to go through with it or not is a different story, but it's chilling enough to hear someone think those things. Any deaths that are preventable should be prevented period.

"Hey, are you okay?" Eren said sitting up in bed.

"I'm fine, sorry did I wake you?"

"More like your feelings woke me," Eren said and I realized how much I was actually panicking about the class.

"Sorry, just ignore that." I need to get a hold of myself. I have to keep my head held high. I need to ignore my headache and fully focus on everyone's thoughts no matter the consequences.

"No I'm not going to ignore that you see really scared of something," Eren said putting his hand on my shoulder.

"I'm just worried about class that's all."

"Class?"

That's right Eren's still half asleep he probably doesn't know half of what I'm saying right now.

"Oh that class," Eren said waking up a little more after thinking it through. I felt worry radiate off him too. "I forgot that class was today," he sighed.

"Yeah," I took a deep breath before looking back to him. I mentally weighed my options and I know he's not going to like what I have to say but I promised I'd tell him so might as well tell him before the fact. "Eren I need to tell you something. Please don't get mad," I whispered the last part.

He gave me a confused nod, "Okay?"

"Well, I promised to tell you if I was feeling overwhelmed and like I'm going to pass out," I said taking another deep breath. "Well today is going to be a stressful day and I'm going to have to push myself more than ever. I have to watch everyone's thoughts to make sure that no one's thoughts get to negative and well I might end up passing out," I rushed out my words.

"Oh," his tone was unreadable but his thoughts were chaotic and panicked.

"Look I just need to know that if I give you the look you will help me whether it be as simple as getting Hanji's or Erwin's attention or as much as physically walking out of the class. I need to know you won't let me pass out in the middle of this class."

"I can do that," he said calmly. His tone was the opposite of his still chaotic and panicked thoughts. He's going to push himself too much. He's going to pass out again. What if he notifies me too late? What if-.

"Hey don't worry about it too much, I'll be fine. I'm going to let Hanji and Erwin know beforehand that I might need to step out at one point. However, I'm just going to tell them it's because I feel like wearing headphones in that kind of environment might seem rude and disrespectful rather than telling them what I plan to do," I shrugged. If I told them they would get worried and would probably insist I wear headphones to avoid me hurting myself or whatever.

"Okay," he nodded his thoughts were still frantic.

I just lean forward and pressed my lips to his. I pulled away from the kiss and put my hand on his cheek. "Stop panicking, I'll be fine. It's not the first time I've done something like this." I said knowing I was full of shit. This is probably the most stupid and reckless stunt I've pulled. Focusing on so many peoples thoughts at once is mental suicide for me, but I refuse to have another preventable death on my head.

"So you're going to be okay, it won't be too bad?" Eren asked.

Nope, this is going to be horrible. "Yup, I'll be just fine. Just a headache and if it gets worse I'll let you know." I said giving him a smile. God, I hate lying to him, but I don't want him to worry about me too much to the point it distracts him all day. It's just going to wear us both down faster.

The more I thought about it the more my head already started to hurt. It didn't help that my head was already sore from overdoing it yesterday. This class is going to be the length of two classes with 3 breaks. This was a 6 hour class with breaks every hour and 30 minutes. The first and last breaks are 30 minutes long but the middle break is an hour for lunch. Today is going to be the longest day of my life.

I excused myself to the bathroom to take a quick shower. I'm usually in and out in 5 minutes. However, I couldn't shake my thoughts free. My plan is simple yet so complicated. I plan on listening to all the voices together and basically tuning everything out at the same time. This will hopefully make everything sound like a jumbled mess of noise that not even my brain can comprehend. Then I'll listen for keywords and phrases suck as depressed, suicidal, kill myself and other terms that may be necessary. Like a word search that never ends. Wow, my thoughts make this sound so easy, however, I've never tried this before and I don't even know if I'm able to do it. Well, I guess I'll see. Today I'll be really putting my powers to the test.

I finished my shower and hopped out to see that I was in there for 10 minutes. Oh damn, was I really that distracted? Eren excused himself to take his shower. While I waited for him to get out I had to keep reeling in my thoughts to avoid them from wandering too much. The more I think about this the more I stress myself out.