Pushing

After Ymir left I tried to convince Levi to go to the nurse's office to lay down but to no avail. After Hanji and Erwin started pushing him to go and take it easy he made it clear he wasn't going.

"How about I don't go to the office, but I keep my headphones in the whole next portion of class? Does that sound like a good enough compromise?" He rolled his eyes. He was clearly annoyed with us, but I think he knew he had pushed himself way too hard. Hell, he had sat back on the floor after Ymir had left since he got light-headed again from just standing up.

"That was a given, if you even try and touch those headphones I will break your hand," Hanji threatened in the most serious voice I have ever heard her use.

"How about you don't go to the nurse's office, but instead you go back to your dorm?" Erwin suggested.

"No, I want to finish the class. I have too, even if I can't read people's minds I can still feel their emotions," he sounded desperate at this point trying to convince them to let him stay.

"So you can overwork yourself in a different way?" Hanji rolled her eyes, "No, you're going to hurt yourself."

"But I'm worried about them," Levi said quietly.

"Worried about them? I hate to break it to you Levi but everyone is worried about you. You should have seen their faces your friends were horrified when you collapsed even more so when we kicked them out of the gym."

Hanji wasn't wrong Armin and Mikasa looked scared, Jean and Marco looked mortified and everyone else was panicking when they saw him go down. I swear I even saw Reiner get worried.

"They were?" Levi's voice cracked for a split second. I looked at him and saw nothing no trace of sadness, but I could feel it. Ever since Ymir shared her story, and it only worsened after she told him she had a message for him. "It doesn't matter. I'm fine now and besides don't you think that if they were worried about me then seeing me missing in the next class would only worry them more?"

"I think it would worry them that you just passed out and are back in class so soon," Hanji folded her arms glaring at Levi seeing right through his argument. "Besides we could tell them that you are just resting and will be fine," she rolled her eyes before turning them to me. "Could you please talk some sense into your boyfriend."

I looked at her and then to Levi who I know wanted me to side with him. I just raised my hands in defeat, "don't make me choose a side," I said quickly.

"Hey, both of you knock it off, don't bring Eren into your arguments," Erwin rolled his eyes. At least someone had my back.

Levi just let out a frustrated sigh, "Please Hanji, look I know you're just worried about me, but I promise you that after class I will go straight to my dorm and take it easy."

Hanji let out a long equally as frustrated sigh, "fine, but if I see even the slightest hint that you're pushing yourself during this next portion then I will kick your ass out of class so fast," she groaned, "that means no using your powers," she clarified.

"What? You know I can't control some of them."

"What I mean is focus on Eren's emotions, not the whole damn class genius," she rolled her eyes again.

"That is okay with you right Eren?" Erwin asked and I gave him a nod.

"Yeah I don't mind, especially if it helps Levi," I said putting my hand on Levi's. Despite him being annoyed with the whole situation he leaned his head up against my shoulder.

"Eren if you notice him doing something stupid I give you permission to smack him upside the head," she said before sitting down in a chair and slouching back from the exhaustion of everything that just happened.

"Um, I'm not going to hit Levi, sorry," I said awkwardly.

"Thanks," Levi mumbled giving me a little smile.

"I said I wouldn't hit you but if you're doing something stupid I will call you out," I whispered back. "You scared the hell out of me earlier," I said before wrapping my arms around him and pulling him into my lap.

I felt as his emotions went from shocked to calm. I hugged him close and I think it finally got through to him that I was really worried about him and that he really did scare the shit out of me.

"I'm sorry," he said turning so he could wrap his arms around me. "I never meant to make you worry."

I just held him there until I knew I couldn't anymore. I heard the door started to open and he backed up. We both looked at the door and saw it was just Jean and Marco.

"You guys jumped sky high," Jean said laughing for a quick second before they made their way over to us. "You okay?" He asked Levi as he got closer.

"Yeah, everyone is really worried about you?" Marco said and I watched as Levi rubbed at the back of his neck.

"Yeah, I'm okay. I was just really overwhelmed and I don't know Ymir's story got to me and-" he cut himself off with a look of panic before regaining his composure. "I'm okay now," he said quickly.

Jean and Marco looked at Levi before looking at each other. "Hey man if you ever need to talk we're here for you," Jean said a little awkwardly. I could tell he meant well, but he's not very good with emotions.

"Thank you, but I'm okay really," Levi said before looking to me. It was only for a split second, but it was the first time I've ever seen Levi's eyes look this sad. They quickly went back to normal. At that moment I knew he wasn't going to be focusing on anyone's emotions except his own and maybe mine if he needed to focus on another person's. He was using all his strength to hold back his sadness to the point it might even be considered pushing himself.

I knew I should tell Hanji, but at the same time, I didn't want to overstep my boundaries with Levi's emotions. "Levi, can we talk, alone?" I heard myself say before I could stop myself.

"Um, sure," he said, raising an eyebrow. I stood up before helping him off the floor.

We walked to the side of the gym. "What's up?" he asked and I could tell he was just as nervous as I was, maybe it was because I was nervous and it was causing him to be nervous.

"Are you okay?" I asked before realizing he was probably just going to brush it off, "I mean, I know you say you are, but it doesn't seem like you really are okay." He just stared at me for a moment probably thinking about what to say. His expression was blank, but I could feel panic rising inside myself. I knew it wasn't mine. "Look you don't have to tell me what's wrong, but I know something is wrong and I'll help however I can or however you want me to, but you can't keep pushing your emotions down. You're pushing yourself too hard." I said grabbing his hands.

"Can we not talk about this now?" He asked his voice shaking a little. I felt some tears slip from my eyes as he started to lose control of the emotions he was suppressing. His face still looked blank, but I knew it was all a mask.

"As long as you can promise me that you suppressing these emotions during this class isn't going to push you past your limit," I said, giving his hand a little squeeze.

"It won't," He said with determination in his eyes. "I promise," he took a breath before looking me in the eyes, "and I promise we will talk about this later when we are alone."

"Thank you," I said and I felt as the tears stopped. I no longer felt his sadness. He must have gotten his emotions back under his control. I leaned in and placed a quick kiss on his lips before we headed back to the chairs. It was almost time for the break to be over. More and more people would be coming back in.

As we sat back in the chairs Marco and Jean looked over at us. "Eren are you okay?" Marco asked with a worried voice.

"Yeah, I'm fine why?" I asked. I was a little confused but it made sense when Jean spoke up.

"Dude are you sure it looks like you've been crying," he said and I mentally panicked.

I had to quickly come up with an excuse for why I was crying. I can't exactly say oh they aren't my tears without them thinking I'm crazy or throwing Levi under the bus. "Well, I was telling Levi how worried I was when I saw him pass out and I got a little emotional," I said quickly with a shrug. "I'm fine."

Levi gave my hand a light squeeze as a thank you for covering for him once again. It seemed to fool Jean and Marco, but Hanji and Erwin seemed less convinced. They both looked toward Levi. Hanji raising an eyebrow before giving him a concerned look. Erwin just looked worried. They didn't say anything, probably because they couldn't with Jean and Marco here.

The door opened and more students started coming in as the break came to an end. Everyone came over to check on Levi, and I mean everyone. It was nice to see Levi awkwardly tell everyone he was okay. He had a smile on his face and I could tell he was genuinely surprised that other people actually did care for him. It made me both happy and a little sad. He was finally realizing that people cared about him, but at the same time, that must mean someone must have made him feel like he wasn't worth caring about.

Hanji greeted the class and had everyone take their seats before explaining that this last portion of class we were all going to take it easy.

"We want to leave you guys on a happy note so we brought music and snacks. We will be answering any questions you may have on the topic, but other than that this last part of the class is just a free period," she explained.

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