I was only halfway through the day and I was already feeling like it was impossible to continue. However, it was now lunchtime. I had an hour to gather myself and figure out how I was going to continue with the rest of the day without blacking out.

Normally lunch was spent with just Hanji, Erwin, Eren, and Myself. However, Sasha walked up to me and asked to join them at a table. I didn't want to be rude, especially since they were all trying to be my friend and I genuinely wanted to be friends with them however this is all just too overwhelming for me today.

"I think We were just planning on eating in here," Eren said giving her a smile.

"Awe are you sure?" She said looking to both of us.

"Yeah, today as just been really overwhelming, but maybe tomorrow," I added and she gave me a smile.

"Oh I understand," she said happily, "I'll hold you to that tomorrow," she joked before leaning in and whispering, "if you ever need to talk I'm here," she said before giving me a friendly pat on the back.

"We will be in the lunchroom if you change your mind," Connie said happily following her.

Armin and Mikasa looked at us and Eren gave them a nod and they nodded back before following Connie and Sasha. "Hey wait for us," Armin said after them.

"What was that nod about?" I asked Eren.

"Oh they were trying to see if you were okay or not," he shrugged.

I felt a smile appear on my face. "That's nice of them," I mumbled.

"Well, do you mind if we join you guys or do you want a little alone time to decompress from that lesson," Marco asked us.

Well, two people are a lot less than six people. "I don't mind," I said before looking to Eren.

"It's fine with me," he smiled. We sat back in the chairs and pulled out the lunches we packed. I guess the four of us had the same idea. Since none of us had to go to the cafeteria to get lunch rather we had all just decided to pack on today.

I looked up at Hanji and Erwin and excused myself for a minute so I could talk to them and see if they were okay since they just shared some traumatic stuff. They were both sitting up against the wall eating their lunches, but the were both very quiet today.

"Hey," I said before sitting down in front of them, "Are you okay?"

Hanji and Erwin both looked at each other before looking back at me. "Yeah, we're okay," Hanji answered giving me a smile.

"How about you how are you holding up?" Erwin asked and I didn't know if he was doing it to change the subject or if he just wanted to know.

"I'm okay, just a major headache," I shrugged, "it doesn't help that today of all days is the day everyone decides to talk to me."

"Yeah, I see that," Hanji laughed, "you were surrounded by quite the group for a little bit there."

I just let out a sigh, "don't get me wrong I like that everyone wants to be my friend now, but at the same time, I don't know what to do. I've never been a friendly kinda person."

"Bullshit," Hanji rolled her eyes, "you are very friendly but in your own way. I mean hell you came over here to ask us if we were okay, that's pretty damn friendly if you ask me."

"Yeah," Erwin continued, "you're a very caring person and people can see that, even if you try to hide it sometimes. You might not know how to be their friend yet, but you will learn what they like, what they dislike and so on. That's how friendships grow."

"I know, but I don't exactly have the best of filters so I'm just afraid I might slip up."

"So what if you do?" Hanji shrugged, "don't try and hold yourself back for the sake of others. They want to be your friend, they don't want you to pretend to be something your not."

"Well, I'm technically already doing that aren't I?" I sighed.

"What do you mean? Erwin asked.

I pulled my knees up to my chest and took a deep breath, "well, I'm lying about my power aren't I?"

"Well, I mean you're not lying you've just never told them what it is?" Hanji shrugged, "I mean unless you've lied to them in the last 10 minutes?"

"No I haven't straight out verbally lied to them, but I haven't exactly told them the truth."

"Well has anyone asked what your power is?" Erwin asked.

"Well, no."

"See," Hanji said, "you're not lying because they haven't even asked."

"Besides," Erwin cut in, "in the few years you've been in our classes you've never once shared your powers in a share-out session. That's the sort of thing people notice."

"Your point?"

"People probably know you don't want to talk about your powers, they probably think you either hate them or are embarrassed by them-"

"Well they wouldn't be wrong," I mumbled.

"Meaning that they might not even ask you about them," he finished.

"Yeah, and also, some people might already think they know what your powers are," Hanji said cutting in. "I mean you don't exactly hide you telekinesis so they probably just assume that's your only power," she shrugged.

"You've got a point there," Erwin said with a nod.

"So what, this still feels like I'm lying to them.

"If they are your friends then when they do finally find out about your powers then they shouldn't care."

"We all know that's not always the case," I let out a little sigh.

"Hey that shouldn't even count, first off that was years ago, secondly we all know Neil is a prick," Hanji rolled her eyes.

"He got fired for a reason," Erwin shrugged.

He was one of the first teachers I had here back in the high school classes. I was 14 and he was the first teacher I thought I could confide in. I told him about my powers and he immediately got angry at me. He told me he didn't want me in his class. He called me a freak and I believed him. He was my first class of the day and I didn't know what to do so I just skipped class in the bathrooms.

About a month into school I got caught. A teacher saw me walk in the bathroom before class and never come out. They took me to the nurse's office because they thought I was sick and that's actually how I met Hanji. She was only 18 at the time and it was her first year working as the school nurse.

She asked what was wrong and I told her I felt sick. She knew I was lying the second she put her hand on my forehead. I remember she told me, "you don't feel sick." The look on her face told me enough, she knew I was full of shit. I remember her asking me if it was something else that was bothering me.

Now I don't remember why but I actually came clean and told her everything. How I had been skipping class for over a month and why. I just remember her getting really scarily quiet before standing up. She took my hand and marched me to the principal's office. I remember thinking I'm in trouble I'm going to get expelled, but when we got to the principal's office she threw open the door sat me down in the chair and told me to tell him what I told her.

When I did I expected to get kicked out immediately however that wasn't the case. I remember Pixis having the same scarily calm tone as he mumbled, "Is that so?" He stood up without another word picked up the phone and called in Neil.

After he hung up the phone he walked over to where I was sitting and kneeled down on the floor to be at eye level with me. "I'm so sorry that this happened to you, all of our staff know better than to act this way and he will be dealt with accordingly."

After that Hanji took me back to the nurse's office and I stayed there the rest of class. "I'm sorry, but that really pissed me off," she sighed, "I'm sorry you had to go through that but I can guarantee you won't have to skip the next class because of him that's for sure."

She was right I walked into class the next day and there was a new teacher teaching his class. Apparently he was fired on the spot. I wasn't the only student who had complaints against him either.

"Still, he wasn't the only one to say that to me about my power," I said snapping back to reality.

"Who else said something to you? Do I need to kick their asses?" Hanji asked getting really protective.

"No, it was before I came to this school, and honestly I deserved everything they had to say about me."

Before they could say another word I switched the topic, "anyway if you guys are sure you're okay then I should head back to the others."

I could tell Hanji wanted to know more about what I was talking about, hell they both did but I couldn't bring myself to talk about it. I think she knew that when I made an excuse to leave. She didn't push me to say more. "Okay," she said quietly, "We're here if you need to talk."

I nodded and walked back over to Eren and the others. When I came back Jean's eyes shot over to me really quickly with a look of shock. I just lifted my hands in surrender, "what did I do?"

"You two are dating?" He asked loudly before getting hushed by Marco.

I took a deep breath, "so much for not telling anyone," I mumbled.

"Hey it wasn't me," Marco said before glancing to Eren. "Someone let it slip."

I turned to Eren who was looking at the ground with red cheeks. "My bad," He mumbled, "I mean I didn't say anything Jean just kinda figured it out."

"Well how am I not going to figure it out when you are staring at him with googly eyes and checking out his ass," Jean rolled his eyes.

"You were checking out my ass?" I asked looking to Eren who was suddenly really quiet.

"Wait a damn second," Jean said before turning to Marco, "you knew?"

Eren looked to Marco and then back to me, "wait you told Marco?"

"No, he guessed," I shrugged.

"Oh, were you checking me out earlier too?" Eren asked in a teasing voice.

"No," I said back flatly.

"No, he just had a really cheesy smile when he said your name." I turned to Marco and glared at him for a moment before my cheeks heated up.

"Awe," Eren said so happily. I just sat back down in my chair with a defeated look.

"Anyway, Jean, don't tell anyone," I mumbled.

"I won't," Jean said before leaning in, "Marco and I are also dating," he whispered like it was some secret.

"Yeah I know," I said back and Jean turned to Marco.

"You told him?" Jean asked and before he or Marco could answer I spoke up.

"I've known for years," I shrugged, "I mean you two are pretty obvious about it."

"We are not," Jean said quickly."

"Marco would sneak out every night and at the same time he'd sneak out he'd bump into you in the hallway. Also, you two would both magically disappear at lunch and come back to class late and together," I shrugged. "Do I need to say more?" Is said giving just a few examples.

Jean just put his head down I could feel the embarrassment radiating off of him.

"You were awake when I'd sneak out? Why didn't you ever say anything?" Marco asked looking to me.

"It wasn't my place," I shrugged.

Marco's face got red too. He just took a breath and looked at Jean before shrugging "I wonder how many other people know?"

"Pretty much everyone, including the teachers, well everyone except Armin he's pretty oblivious," I shrugged. My eyes went wide before realizing I said that out loud. I only knew everyone knew because of Eld's class. I have my headphones off and everyone's minds tend to wander, especially when it comes to drama.

"Wait really?" Jean asked embarrassed.

I just stayed quiet hoping they wouldn't ask but of course Marco did. "How do you know?"

Now I'm suddenly stuck between telling them about my power or lying. "Well, I've heard some people talk about it, but not in a bad way or anything." It wasn't exactly a lie. I have heard Erwin, Hanji, and Eren verbally say stuff about them dating and all the times people have thought about them dating it has never been in a bad way most people actually think they would be good together. However, it didn't answer how I knew Armin knew nothing but I was hoping they looked over that part.

"Oh, really?" Marco asked before giving me a smile, "well I'm glad no ones homophobic."

"Yeah, that's a relief." Jean let out a sigh. I took a calming breath since they totally passed over the holes in my explanation. I can't lie to them forever and honestly, I don't want to.