Joint Lessons
Mikasa came back in and Hanji went to call the next person. She was looking at Levi before turning her head towards me. I looked over and saw him pointing at me and I rolled my eyes. He really wanted me to get some rest.
"Eren, your turn," she said with an awkward smile.
I stood up and walked out with her. Erwin looked surprised to see that I had walked out when I heard Hanji whisper, "Levi wanted us to take him first."
"Alright, well Eren, you ready?" He asked. As much as I wanted to say no, or to tell them that I won't use half of my powers, or even why I won't use them I lied.
"Yup, ready as ever," I said with a fake smile and a thumbs up. I thought they would see right through me, but they didn't even blink. Did they actually believe me? Awesome.
"Alright then let's get started," Hanji said with a big smile.
"So for this joint lesson, we will start with making things lighter is that okay with you?" She asked and I nodded. Thank god I thought they were going to jump right into where I'm having trouble. This gives me some time to figure out what I'm going to do.
"Perfect," she said before reaching into her bag.
"So, I know you've been working with erasers and paper, but I wanted to see if we could work on heavier stuff," she said pulling out a book. It wasn't as big as the one Levi threw at me, but it was definitely heavier than what I was used too.
"And here I thought we were going to start easy," I laughed.
"Learning and practice should never be too easy," Hanji said before handing me the book.
I took a minute to just hold it in one hand with my arm out straight. I closed my eyes and felt how heavy the book was and focused on slowly making the weight disappear. I opened my eyes when I no longer felt the weight. The book was floating up towards the ceiling.
"You did it," Hanji smile happily.
"Now," Erwin said cutting her off, "if you noticed the book is on the ceiling now right?" Erwin said and I looked up at it. "Well can you bring it down without releasing your hold on it," he asked and I felt confusion fall over me.
"What do you mean?"
"Well instead of returning it to its normal weight I want you too slowly return some of the weight until it's just floating above your hand," Erwin said and I felt myself start to panic.
"Hey don't worry. We don't expect you to be able to do it right away, that's why it's practice. We're expecting you to work on this for a little while." Hanji said and it made me feel a little better knowing that this wasn't something they expected me to be able to do right away. It gave me something else to work on with my powers that might be a little easier to do rather than using the other half of this power.
"Okay, I think I can do that," I said before looking at the book and tried to bring it back down slowly. I ended up just staring at the book as it stayed on the ceiling. I let out a nervous laugh before looking towards the teachers, "Starting now," I said before awkwardly looking back towards the book. This was harder than I thought. I decided to add a little more weight to the book than I was previously trying.
Well, it didn't work. The book fell from the ceiling and landed in my hands. It was it's original weight or at least so close to it that I couldn't even tell if my power was even still affecting it. "Oops," whispered before looking up at Erwin and Hanji.
"It's okay, try again," Hanji said.
I nodded and lifted the book up again. I went about it a little differently imagining everything ever step of the way. I had to imagine myself lifting the book to the exact position I wanted in the air and had to mentally convert how light it needed to be. It wasn't the easiest method but seemed to work. The book took a little longer to float up to the ceiling.
"Okay, I think I know what I need to do," I whispered mostly to myself. I closed my eyes and imagined the process of what I just mentally went through but in reverse. I tried to stop it just before hitting my hand and when I didn't feel anything touching my hand I opened my eyes expecting to see the book still on the ceiling, but to my surprise, it was about at a midway point from my hand and the ceiling.
"Not exactly it, but I got close," I mumbled.
Hanji and Erwin's jaws were both opened. Hanji just grabbed my hand and made me lose my focus causing the book to fall to the floor. "That was amazing you got the hang of it so fast, I've never seen someone learn something that fast before. On your second try, you did what was supposed to take you weeks!" She yelled practically jumping up and down.
"Hanji you're scaring the boy," Erwin said putting his hand on her shoulder to calm her.
"She is right though," he said looking to me, "that was supposed to take you weeks to get the hang of and you came so close on a second attempt," He said looking just as surprised as Hanji.
"If only it was that easy for the other half of my power," I mumbled before covering my mouth realizing I had said that out loud.
Hanji just gave me a pat on the shoulder, "you'll get the hang of it eventually. Don't think that just because this half of your power comes so easy that the other should too. Usually, powers especially when they have opposite attributes will be harder to learn for a person."
"What do you mean?" I asked and she paused for a moment to think of what seems like an explanation.
"Well, say someone had both Jean's fire powers and Marco's water powers," she started, "one of those is bound to come easier than the other, and the other would be difficult to learn since they are polar opposites."
"It's not always as extreme as that though," Erwin jumped in, "take me for example. I was able to pick up on my teleportation and portals way easier than I was my astral projection. Because those two powers are very similar and are more physical based than astral projection which is more mental based."
"Or even just Jean or just Marco," Hanji said with a smile. "Jean has both fire powers and steam powers. Fire and steam are two different aspects. Marco can control water and Ice. Which are two very different things. He was more comfortable with the liquid form than the solidified form so Ice was harder for him to learn." She said before looking to me.
"So it's no wonder you are having trouble despite your power being one thing an aspect of it is bound to be harder than the other since," Erwin nodded.
"You're really good at the light and weightless part because it's what you are used to," Hanji started.
"Not only that but since your powers are strongly linked to your emotions at the moment it's easy to want to work on the power you've related with positive emotions despite the ones related to negative," Erwin continued.
Everything they had said was starting to click. I mean I knew I was having trouble with that power, but it helps to know why. Not only do I have less experience which I already figured to be the case, but I'm subconsciously linking it with negative feelings so I'm already setting myself up to fail by feeling more negative emotions to brace for working with the power.
"Well, we can try again with the book since I'm pretty sure you will get it this time," Hanji said picking the book off the floor.
I nodded and sure enough this time I stopped the book a little above my hand. It was still a good 4 inches from my hand, but it was pretty close. I watched Erwin look at the time. "Now, we could start working on the other half of your powers, or we could save them for next time?" He asked.
"Could we save them for next time?" I asked, "it feels nice to end off on a win," I said looking at the book that was just floating above my hand.
"Okay, sounds good, just remember what we told you about those powers," he smiled.
"Yeah, and remember that with practice anything can be achieved," Hanji said happily.
"I'll keep that in mind," I said before smiling. I looked down at the book before letting it plop back down in my hand and handing it back to Hanji. They dismissed me and I headed back into the room.
I took a seat next to Levi and before I could even say anything he was called outside. It makes sense since they wanted to call him out before me. I just laid my head on the desk determined to stay awake at least until he returned so I could tell him how it went. It didn't work out. Not even a minute after he walked out the door my eyes had closed and my consciousness faded away.
I headed out of the room. I wasn't able to ask Eren how it went, but he seemed happy when he walked in. When the door closed I instantly asked Hanji and Erwin how it went. They told me it went well and that they gave him a win on accident. They quickly explained what they told him and that the message actually seemed to get through to him this time that his powers would take more work.
"Anyway, we can talk more about that later," Erwin cut us off checking the time, "we have to do your lesson now. Today we will be going over specifically your mind reading."
"Okay," I nodded, "how are we going to try this time," I asked since the last thing we tried didn't work.
"Well, we know your powers work more on proximity," Hanji said before taking a few steps back, "but we also know that you can now focus your ability on a person even if they aren't the closest person next to you.
"However, we also know that if the person in close proximity to you is thinking about you your thoughts switch to theirs automatically," Erwin said and I gave him a confused look.
"Wait they do?" I asked confused about how they know that since I hadn't even realized that.
"Yup, we learned that during a teacher meeting," Hanji smiled, "We all put our notes together and we noticed a common thing. Apparently it has to do a lot with proximity. You only seem to do it if the person is like right next to you, but other times it's a fifty-fifty chance.
"We have a few things we wanted to work on. First, we want to see if we can get you to stay focused on a person's thoughts even while someone is thinking of you right next to you. Next, we want to see how long you can stay focused on a person's thoughts and how far that person can walk before you aren't able to hear that person's thoughts anymore. Lastly the usual," Erwin shrugged.
"Seeing if you can focus on your own thoughts and tune out others around you so you gain more control over the mind-reading," Hanji said.
We tried the first experiment. My thoughts each time would be pulled to Erwin despite me trying to focus on Hanji. One of the times I managed to listen to both even though that wasn't my intent. "Well, we can move on since this doesn't seem to be working," Erwin suggested.
"No, I want to keep trying," I said taking a deep breath and trying to clear my mind. It took a few more tries before I was able to ignore Erwin's thoughts fully and only hear Hanji's. I could still faintly hear Erwin's in the back of my head but not enough to know what he was saying.
After that, we moved on to the next challenge. I stayed focused on Hanji's thoughts as she slowly took a step backward. I was standing on one end of a measuring tape while she was holding the other end. She was a good 20 feet away from me when I started having trouble reading her thoughts. They were coming through awfully quiet. By the time she was 25 feet away her thoughts had completely disappeared from my head.
"That's better than the last time," Hanji said excitedly from down the hall. "Last time it was 15 feet," she said before holding it out for Erwin who pulled a marker out of his pocket and marking the length with an L for me.
"You're definitely improving there," Erwin smiled as they walked back so they weren't yelling from down the hall.
"Alright," Hanji sighed, "this one is hard, but let's give it a shot," she said.
The rest of the time was spent with me struggling to tune out their thoughts and focus on mine. It didn't work. As hard as I tried I couldn't focus on my own. It's like every time I tried to focus on my own thoughts mine would disappear and theirs would come through even louder.
"Well, two out of three ain't bad," Hanji said patting me on the shoulder.
"One day I'll get it," I sighed. I knew I didn't sound very convinced, but oh well.
"Maybe next time, but good work today," Erwin said patting my back. They dismissed me back to class and I walked in to see Eren peacefully sleeping at the desk. Well, there's a good sign.
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