I pulled the bag in my lap and unzipped it. I waited to pull anything out. I looked up at Eren first before pulling the first item out of the bag. A normal eraser that we've practiced with time and time again. "This is what we were using right?" I asked and he nodded. I pulled out the next item and watched as his eyebrows furrowed and his eyes squinted as he tried to figure out exactly what I was trying to do. His confusion quickly turned to disbelief.

"You want me to practice with that?" He asked with a laugh. He was sure I was joking.

"That's exactly what I want you to do," I said in a serious tone. Eren stopped laughing instantly and got really quiet.

"Levi, I can't even use my power properly on an eraser let alone a whole textbook," Eren said before taking the heavy book from my hand.

"This thing is like a hundred times heavier than the erasers."

"Exactly," I said with a smile.

"Exactly? What do you mean exactly? I'm telling you that I haven't practiced to get up to this level yet," he said trying to hand the book back to me.

I shook my head, "didn't you say you were going to go in with an open and more positive mindset?" I reminded him.

"Yeah, but that was before I knew you were already setting me up to fail. I'm sorry but I won't do this." He set the book down on the blanket and I rolled my eyes.

I got frustrated and looked down at the eraser I had set out in front of us. I quickly looked up at Eren's forehead and it flew up and collided right where I had aimed.

"Ow, what the fuck," Eren said rubbing his forehead. I let out a sigh and took a breath before locking eyes with him.

"So do you want to hear my thought process or do you want to just give up?" I asked folding my arms and scolding him.

He let out a frustrated sigh, "fine, tell me your thought process and maybe I'll consider," he huffed.

"Good," I took a breath before pointing to the book sitting in front of him. "I think using something heavier might actually help here's why," I said before looking at the eraser which landed in the grass. I used my power to retrieve it. "We've been trying to use these on a power you've never had control over and expected to start small to work. Well, the only times you've ever really used this side of your power naturally, even if it was on accident, was when you used it on yourself."

"Yeah so? What does that have to do with starting with a big ass book?"

"Well, you are a lot heavier than an eraser, and I don't think we should purposely try on you since your powers are well, deadly. So, I found the heaviest things I could bring and decided that we could try it. It might not be perfect, but it might work a little better than what we were originally trying," I suggested.

I watched a lightbulb go off in Eren's head as I explained my thought process. Mentally he seemed to really like my idea, but there was still a voice nagging in the back of his brain to give up and that it's hopeless. I hoped he wouldn't listen to it and waited for his answer.

He stayed quiet for a moment before mumbling, "I don't know." He was starting to doubt himself. The voice was winning.

I started talking again trying to talk him into it. "We can start with one book or multiple, I put a few in the bag and I have some string so we can tie them together," I said and he looked at the bag in front of me seeing how many books I had shoved in it.

"You carried that heavy ass bag all the way out here?" he asked.

"Yup, so don't make me regret it," I said rubbing at my shoulders to make it seem like they ached. In reality, I had my powers do most of the heavy lifting holding the bag up enough so that I wasn't carrying all that much weight physically.

"Okay, let's give it a shot," he said with a nod. Nice guilt trip. He thought and I smile.

"Well, there was no other way," I smiled before pulling out the rest of the books. "So do we start with one or all?"

"What do you think would be easiest for me?" Eren asked. He tried to pretend that he didn't care, but I could see through his act. He needed a win. One more fuck up with his power and it could make things worse. He wasn't asking me because he didn't want to decide he was asking me because he didn't want to risk messing everything up.

"I think the more weight the better," I said and he nodded.

"Well, how do we know how much weight is enough?" Eren asked.

"Hmm," I hadn't thought about that before. "Stand up," I said before doing the same.

"Um okay, why?" He asked before doing so. "I don't see how this will- whoa what the hell!" He looked down at the ground.

"I'm not doing this am I?" He asked looking at the ground he was now floating over.

"No, I am," I said before setting him back on his feet. "Okay, I think I have a general idea of how much weight needed to replicate this," I said before sitting down and stacking some of the books. After tying it off I lifted them up with my power and tried to see how far off we were. It wasn't by a whole lot maybe around 50 or 60 pounds, but it would have to do.

"Well, it's not perfect, but it should be close enough,"

"So how are we going to measure this since I can barely pick these up normally?" Eren asked. Looking at the stack of books that were sitting on the blanket.

"Well, I'll measure it with my telekinesis. I'll try and lift it. I know about how heavy it is so when your power is affecting it then it should be heavier when I go to pick it up," I explained.

"Will that work?" he asked looking from the books to me and back again.

I just shrugged, "I don't see why it wouldn't," I said and he nodded.

"Okay," Eren walked up to the stack of books and turned towards me. "You ready?" He asked. I could tell he was nervous.

"Before we start," I said walking up and grabbing his hands. "Promise me if it doesn't work perfectly you won't give up. This is going to take a lot of practice, and if it doesn't work the first time it doesn't mean you failed it just means we need to work at it."

"Okay," Eren nodded.

We both knew the power would work, but with the weights being different from what he's used to it will definitely throw off his power a little, but how much is the question. I was hoping his negative emotions wouldn't affect it any more than I had planned for.

I backed up and stood on the other side of the pile of books. "Okay, ready," I said and he nodded. I watched him focus on the stack. "Let me know when to lift," I said and he nodded.

"Okay, now."

I focused my power on the stack and tried lifting it. It was a lot heavier than I thought it was, but I was able to lift it. It was a little farther off than I would have thought, but that just means he was applying more pressure to himself than I had realized.

"It's-," I was cut off with a searing headache as the pile slammed to the ground. My vision blurry and I fell to my knees trying to stay conscious.

"Levi!" I heard Eren yell.

"I'm okay," I said taking a deep breath. Eren's emotions had got to him and his power went haywire while I was lifting it. It was too heavy for me and the pain of overexerting myself as I tried to hold the object nearly made me blackout.

"What happened? Oh my god, your nose is bleeding," Eren said kneeling down next to me and using his jacket to stop the blood from dripping on my shirt.

"You're going to ruin your jacket," I said taking a few deep breaths as the headache made my head throb.

"I don't care about the jacket. What happened? Did I do this?"

"No," I said quickly. The last thing I needed was him to give up on this. If I would have spoken up quicker and told him how good he was doing then this wouldn't have happened.

"I lost control of my powers, you were doing great," I said giving him a smile. "Give me a few minutes to breathe and we can try again," I said and he shook his head.

"No, if it hurts you I don't want to try again," he said and I could tell he knew. He knew I was lying. He knew his power was the cause. Even if he wasn't going to call me out on my lie he still knew.

"Eren I'll be fine."

"No, we're done," he shook his head, "we aren't doing that again."

"Eren, please, don't give up on it. We can try again later," I said squeezing his hand. "Please, I'm literally on my knees begging," I said looking him in the eyes. There was so much panic running through him.

He took a deep breath, "Fine, I'll consider trying again, but not tonight." He took a deep breath and just pulled me closer to him. "Not tonight," he whispered again.

"Okay, that's fair," I said with a nod. "Tomorrow we can try again then."

"Maybe," he let out a sigh before placing a kiss on the top of my head. Slowly his panic faded away and he was able to calm down.

We went back to the dorm and got ready for bed. There was an awkward silence between us. I could tell Eren felt guilty about what happened, but I knew that exact feeling. Nothing I could say would change how he felt. So I said nothing. I froze up and didn't know what to say, what to do. How could I fix this?

When I came out of the bathroom Eren was already laying in his bed. I walked over and crawled up next to him and felt such strong emotions. Tears came to my eyes and I took a deep breath before wrapping my arms around him.

"Babe, it's okay," I whispered in his ear.

"No, it's not," I heard him say through jagged breaths, "I hurt you and I can't even promise that I won't do it again because I don't know what I did. I don't know what happened and you want to try again and- his voice cut out."

"Babe, I'm okay, look at me please," the room went quiet and Eren took a breath before hesitantly rolling over to face me. His eyes met mine and I brought my hand up to his cheek.

"I am okay. It wasn't your fault. If we try again I will be okay," I gave him a smile. "I know what went wrong and I will make sure it won't happen the next time."

"What went wrong?" He asked.

I stayed quiet how do I say it's because his emotions went haywire without him believing it's his fault. It's not because I know as much as anyone that emotions are hard to control, but try telling that to a person who is looking for a reason to blame themselves.

"We will talk about it the next time we try it, right now we just both need to get some rest," I said giving him a calming smile. "I don't know about you, but I'm exhausted."

Eren nodded and he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me closer to him. "I'm sorry babe."

"Don't apologize," I said wrapping my arms around him, "you have nothing to apologize for. Get some rest okay."

"Okay," he said hesitantly, "goodnight."

"Goodnight, babe."