Dropping Walls

I looked around the room and wondered if he heard someone's thoughts about us holding hands or something like that happened.

"No," Levi quickly whispered stopping my thoughts in there tracks. "It's not that. I don't know," his voice faded off before he let out a sad sigh. "I just don't know," his voice shook a little as he gave my hand a light squeeze for comfort.

I'm sorry. I thought before giving his hand a squeeze back. I'm here for you whether you know what's wrong or not I will be here for you to listen or to just sit by your side. I thought before turning to look at him.

He looked up at me and gave me a small smile, "You're amazing," he said before closing his eyes and leaning over slightly so our shoulders were touching for a moment. I think it was the closest we could get in class without drawing too much attention to us.

Eld finished up the lesson before announcing he was going to start calling people out into the hall. "Alright first up, Er-" Eld cleared his throat and, Armin," he said and Armin got up and followed him out of the room.

I looked to Levi to see if I was the only one who noticed the slight change in his voice. Levi looked at me and nodded, "he was going to call you, but I think he noticed something that made him change his mind." Levi whispered.

Oh because we're holding hands? I thought looking down at our hands.

"No, he noticed me. I dropped my walls for a minute and gave him a look that begged him to call someone else." He said looking down at the table a little embarrassed.

Hearing him say that I knew something was really wrong. I looked at him and I could see that he was barely holding it together. "Maybe we should go to the bathroom?" I asked and he shook his head.

"No," he said quietly. "I just need to clear my mind," he said and I felt his emotions overtake me. I was right he wasn't okay in the slightest. There was a sense of dread coming over me. There was so much confusion sadness and panic mixed together. I didn't know what to do but fight back the tears that threatened to spill.

"Hey, are you guys okay?" I heard Jean ask. Both Jean and Marco had turned around probably to talk with us and they must have noticed something was up.

Shit. I lost focus and some tears came out of my eyes. They weren't mine but now I'm going to have to figure out how to convince him they are.

"Eren you're crying, what's wrong," Jean's voice filled with concern as he looked around the room.

I heard Levi whisper really quietly to me and it caught me off guard. "You don't have to lie to him anymore."

I what. Is he giving me permission to tell Jean about his powers? I looked at him and he gave me a nod.

"I'm okay, they aren't my tears," I said quietly so only Jean and Marco could hear me.

"What?" Jean asked looking around again. He looked at Levi who was sitting there with his head down quietly. "Do you know what he's trying to say?"

"Hey, I'm going to go tell Eld that we're taking them out of class for a minute," Marco said to Jean before getting up and heading out of the class. Armin was heading in and taking his seat right as Marco headed out.

Shit. Now they think I'm crazy and they are getting Eld involved.

"Sorry," Levi whispered to me. I could feel how guilty he was feeling for making me cry. "I can't get them under control."

"I know," I said back and Jean looked even more confused than before.

Marco came back in and gestured for us to follow. Jean got up and Levi and I followed. I was glad that it seemed no one really noticed. Well, Ymir definitely noticed and it kinda made me wonder how long she was watching us.

We made it out of the class and Eld looked at me and Levi. He saw me crying but he must have also seen how calm I looked despite doing so because he instantly turned to Levi.

"Thank you, Jean and Marco, but I can take it from here." He said trying to dismiss them but Levi just shook his head. "I don't care if they know," I heard him whisper to him and Eld nodded.

"Um alright, could you two take Eren to the bathroom so he could dry his eyes," Eld said before turning to Levi. "What's wrong?"

Jean just stopped before looking to Marco and leaning over and whispering, "Eren's the one crying and he's asking Levi what's wrong?" He sounded very confused, and I don't blame him it was a very confusing situation for anyone who wasn't filled in on Levi's powers.

"I'm going to go with them," Levi said ignoring Eld's question and walking over to where I was.

"Okay, I'm here if you need to talk," Eld said before opening the door and calling Mikasa out.

We all walked to the bathroom. I could tell Jean and Marco were confused but I didn't think it was my place to tell them any more about Levi's powers. I know he said I could, but it seemed more like something he should tell them. When we got in the bathroom Jean quietly grabbed some paper towels and wet them under the sink before walking over to me and helping me wipe off the tears. I thought it would be a useless task, but to my surprise, the tears actually stopped.

I looked up at Levi who was taking some deep breaths. I wasn't the only one looking at Levi. Marco was watching him and then looking from him to me. "So your power-," Marco cut himself off for a moment to think. It was obvious he had figured it out from the little I said and from watching us.

"Yeah," Levi mumbled. "One of my powers is that I can feel people's emotions and make people feel my emotions."

"Why would you purposely make Eren cry?" Jean asked quickly. His tone sounded more worried than angry.

"I can't control it," Levi said quietly. "I was focusing my other power on Eren and it caused that power to focus on him as well."

"Hey it's better than affecting everyone in a radius to him," I said giving a little shrug.

"What other power? I thought your power was something like telekinesis or something?" Jean asked more confused now than anything.

"Yeah, that's one of them. I'm also an empath, as well as, um-," Levi froze for a moment before looking at me. I just gave him a smile and a nod. I was ready for both outcomes and it seems Levi was too. Outcome one, they accept him, outcome two they get. I didn't think they were the type to do so but just in case I was prepared to step in.

"And what?" Jean asked looking from Levi to me.

"Mind reading," Levi said rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly.

Jean looked at me and smile. "I knew it," he said before nudging me, "you told me that you were talking to him that day, but I knew I didn't hear you say anything and it's because you didn't," Jean said before shaking his head. "I should have known," he smiled before looking up at Levi.

"I can't really control that either but if I focus on a single person sometimes I'm able to stop myself from reading everyone's thoughts and getting overwhelmed. So I focus on Eren's thoughts usually," Levi explained.

"Is that why you're always wearing headphones?" Marco asked.

"Pretty much," Levi said awkwardly. "They stop my power from working."

"So that whole time I thought you were ignoring me and really you were just trying to stop yourself from reading my thoughts?"

Levi nodded before quietly saying "I don't like invading people's privacy."

"So wait? You passing out yesterday in the middle of class, that was you getting overwhelmed right?" Jean asked.

"Yeah," I said quietly.

"You didn't focus on Eren's thoughts?" Jean asked trying to figure out exactly what happened.

"Um, no, I was actually, um," Levi took a deep breath and looked down to the ground. "I was trying to read everyone's thoughts."

"But why?" Jean asked.

"You were worried," Marco quickly said and Levi looked up at him and nodded. "I was worried about everyone too. That's a very tough topic to go over," he mumbled the last part.

"So you were looking for what?" Jean asked trying to figure it out.

"I was making sure no one was thinking of killing themselves," Levi said and jean nodded.

"Oh, that makes sense."

The room went quiet and they both looked from me to Levi. Marco addressed what they must have both been thinking. "So when Eren said those tears weren't his-" Marco's voice drifted off.

"They were my emotions," Levi admitted quietly.

"But you weren't crying," Jean asked confused.

"Levi doesn't cry as easily as I do," I explained. "He cries when my emotions affect him but other than that I've only seen him cry like once," I said, having my own moment of realization. The only time I've seen him cry his own tears was when I woke up to strong emotions and saw him crying. He had looked just as surprised about it as I was. Maybe he doesn't cry, like ever.

I looked up at him the question in my mind. Aside from that time when was the last time you actually cried? I asked mentally and walked over to him.

"It's been years," Levi said quietly. That can't be good. That sounds like he's been holding back his emotions for longer than I realized.

Jean and Marco just looked at us before looking at each other. "Is there anything we could do to help?" Marco asked.

"I'll be fine, it was just a bad thought but now that I've gotten out of that mindset I'll be okay," he said and I couldn't tell if he was lying or not. "Thank you," Levi said before giving them a smile. "I've been so worried about telling people about my powers because the last few times I've told people it hasn't gone well. So thank you for being understanding."

"Of course, we're your friends," Marco said.

"Yeah, you think a little thing like mind-reading would get rid of us," Jean laughed, "dream on you're stuck with us."

Levi's smile was enough to lighten the room. Marco and Jean walked over and hugged him and Levi hugged them back. They all looked to me before smiling like idiots.

"Get your ass over here, can't have a group hug without the rest of the group," Jean said gesturing for me to join them.

I walked over and they threw their arms around me pulling me into the hug that nearly squeezed the life out of me. It was one of the best hugs of my life and I knew Levi felt the same by the smile on his face. It was nice to see him so happy. I'm just glad he was able to open up to not just me but other people. That's more progress than I could ever ask for.

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