Authors note~ Hey everyone Wattpad is really trying my patience apparently it's not notifying people or letting you comment on this chapter. I deleted and reuploaded it hopefully that will help. ~TJ

It's been almost a month now and nothing feels the same. Honestly, I don't think it ever will. There's a heaviness that lingers in the air now. No one brings it up, but we all feel it. We've lost people separately before, but this was the first time as a group we had ever lost someone.

We all dealt with it in different ways. After a while, some of us wanted revenge, some of us just wanted to continue the fight, and some wanted nothing more to do with the fight.

One thing was for sure it woke us all up to the possibility that we could actually die. We all knew it was possible, but it felt almost as if together we were untouchable. Her death made us face our mortality. We aren't all invincible together or alone. We will all die one day and for some of us, that day maybe sooner than later.

This is war and war kills indiscriminately. How many others will we have to lose before we have victory? How many bodies will we have to climb over to get to the end goal? How much heavier will the air get?

"Baby," I heard Levi's soft voice call my name as a pair of arms wrapped around my waist. "Pixis called a family meeting."

"I didn't even hear you come in," I mumbled. I took a deep breath and gave him a smile, "okay, let's go see what he wants."

He gave me a smile back before placing a kiss on my cheek. We walked up to the meeting room in silence. I'm sure he heard my thoughts from before, but he didn't pry instead he just held my hand a little tighter as we walked in the room and took our seats.

While everyone took their seats I felt myself fall back into my thoughts. I wonder why they are calling a meeting all of a sudden. Maybe Molbit or Auruo was able to get more information? Maybe it's about what happened at the last mission? Are they just checking in on everyone's mental state cause if that's the case then this is all a big waste of time.

Pixis waited until everyone was seated in the room before he called Gunther up to the front. Levi just nudged me before leaning in my ear and whispering, "Eren remember how you told me you wanted to go on more missions when they were available?" he asked and I nodded. "Well, then you might want to get out of your head and listen up."

A new mission. Wait what did I miss? As far as I know, we don't have any new information.

"Well think again," Levi said sounding a little frustrated, "apparently Pixis has known this information all along," he said crossing his arms.

"Wait, I thought you couldn't read his mind?"

"It's not his mind I'm reading. I was looking at Gunther's. Apparently, after the last mission, he told Pixis about two more camps and Pixis told him not to tell anyone about it."

"They've known this whole time," I said, slightly raising my voice. It was just over a whisper but it earned an annoyed nudge from Levi and a confused look from Jean and Marco who were sitting next to us.

"Apparently," He said, letting out a frustrated sigh before closing his eyes and taking a deep breath. I felt his frustration disappear before he opened his eyes, "they were just making sure that everyone had time to grieve," he said with a little more of an understanding tone.

"That's bullshit. They should have told us."

"Even if they did we would have had to wait this long to act anyways."

"Yeah, and why is that?"

"Because after the last mission guards increased everywhere, they were waiting for them to lower the number of guards before we could act."

I took a deep breath, "well at least they had a reason for it," I mumbled.

If they waited with the only reason being we needed time to grieve I would have punched Pixis in his face. It's not fair to the people locked inside the camp, but then again they had a point to wait out the guards. There were several at the last camp and we only actually interacted with about half of them and that was before the reinforcements were sent in. I could only imagine how many there must have been sent to the other camps after we raided the first one.

Gunther started talking and he told us all how he got information about two camps. He explained what he knew about them to us. One of them was smaller than the other one we had raided but has a heavier guard presence since it only contains blue badge prisoners, the other camp is bigger but has fewer guards since it only contains red and green badge prisoners.

He told us one of them was in the middle of the desert whereas the other was in the mountains. They seem to have a pattern of having these camps in secluded areas. Makes sense they don't want anyone asking any questions, or even finding them.

Pixis stepped forward to speak and I could see the anger burning in some people's eyes. They were probably as mad as I was finding out that they knew this information this whole time.

"I understand that you are probably angry at me for withholding this information from you," he said looking directly at Reiner who looked like he was murdering him in his mind, "but I had a reason. After our last mission, it was guaranteed that they would reinforce the guards everywhere. We had to wait for them to think they were clear before attacking. We also needed to track down where exactly these camps were since we were going off rough estimates. Without an exact location, we wouldn't be able to locate the camps. Now that we have that information and it's been a while we are hoping that the number of guards has decreased. We want to send in some recon teams to see if it's safe to raid these camps," Pixis explained.

"Any questions?" he asked and I felt my hand shoot up without a thought. Looking around I wasn't the only one. I wonder if we all had the same question.

"Eren," Pixis called on me. I stood up and felt the words spill out of my mouth.

"Does that mean we are going to have to choose which camp and then wait another month or two before raiding the next one?" I asked. I saw some of the other hands go down it seems they were thinking the same thing.

"I'm glad you asked, no. We are planning on raiding the camps at the same time." More hands shot up.

"Sasha?" He called next

"What if they haven't decreased the number of guards."

"We will know more with the recon mission," Pixis said before taking a breath, "but depending on the information we collect we will plan accordingly. We will have tons of time to prepare. Unlike last time the more time we take to prepare the less the guards will be expecting us."

"Ymir?"

"What if we run into the same, um, issue, as last time,"

"We were rushing last time so we weren't able to come up with a concrete plan this time we will work around every possible outcome," he said looking at me with a smile. I felt my shoulders drop.

"What was that?" I whispered to Levi.

"I think that means he wants your help planning the mission again."

"But last time-," he cut me off.

"Wasn't your fault," he said before placing a hand on mine, "like he said we were rushing and didn't have time to work everything out."

"You're right," I said, taking a deep breath. After talking with the rest of my team a few times we've all decided that none of us are to blame and that if any of us blame ourselves then we have to blame each other as well. None of us wanted to blame the other so we all tried our best to get out of the mindset of blaming ourselves.

It took us a while to get to this point, and even now sometimes we all need a reminder when we start slipping back into that mindset. Now it's one thing to just say that we aren't to blame, but it's another to start believing it, and with the help of the others I know I as well as them have started to actually believe it.