Authors note~ sorry if anything is messed up wattpad is really buggibg out it won't let me post from my computer so i had to go through and try and redo everything on ny phone ill rey and edit out any spacing mistakes when im able to log back in on my computer-TJ

Pixis grabbed me by my good arm and dragged me all the way to Hanji’s room. I didn’t want because I knew the second she took a look at me she would know something's off. Hell, the second she looked at either of us. Our eyes were red from crying, we looked like hell and I was bleeding pretty badly. What was Pixis planning on telling her? If he thinks he can tell her to wait until morning to figure out what happened he is sadly mistaken.

I mean no to mention that others probably already know by now. Franz went to Ms. Magnolia and probably told her what happened. I wouldn’t be surprised if Annie told Mikasa what happened, lord knows who else could have been told by now.

We walked straight in to see Hanji and Molbit talking. “Sorry to interrupt. I know you are still resting but we have a bit of an emergency,” Pixis said looking at Hanji with desperate eyes.

“What’s wrong. Oh my god!” She jumped to her feet seeing my arm which had already almost bleed completely through the bandages I had wrapped it in. “What on earth happened?” she asked before laying her hands on my arm.

“You don’t have to heal it all the way just please stop the bleeding,” Pixis begged.

“Done,” she nodded, taking her hands off my arm and unwrapping the bandages looking at the huge gash in my arm. “Now is someone going to tell me what happened?” She asked and my eyes hit the floor.

“We will be calling a family meeting in the morning to talk about it. Please don’t worry about it,” Pixis said and I could already hear her preparing to go off on him. She took a deep inhale but was cut off by Molbit.

“No, no, no, no, no.” He said desperately looking between the two of us. “Tell me I’m wrong.” He whispered but when neither of us answered he said it again. “Tell me I’m wrong!” He raised his voice.

“Molbit can we talk outside,” Pixis said trying to keep his cool. He was stronger than I was. Hearing Molbit cry out like that silent tears rolled down my cheeks as I desperately tried to hold it together.

“What are you all hiding?” Hanji asked, looking between all of us.

“It’s my fault. It’s all my fault. I knew the intel was bad. I knew it was a trap. I should have just ignored it, I shouldn’t have said anything.” Molbit said, covering his ears and squatting down. 

Hanji dropped down next to him putting a hand on his shoulder trying to comfort him, but also still trying to figure out what was happening. 

I looked up at Pixis who was fighting back tears of his own at the moment. “We need to call the meeting tonight,” I said and he didn’t even try and argue with me.

“I will have to fill in Mina and Erwin when they wake up,” He nodded. “Have everyone meet in the common room.

“We aren’t doing this in the-.”
“No, they need to be close to their rooms. No one is going to want to go very far after hearing the news and the injured aren’t going to make the stairs without help.

“What news?” Hanji asked, looking at us, her heart sinking the more we talked. She could tell whatever was coming was bad.

Molbit looked up at us, his eyes begging us to tell him he was imagining the whole thing. I just forced my eyes back to the ground and told them both we would brief them in the common area.

I helped grab the rest of the people. I told Berthold and Annie they could sit this one out but Berthold shook his head and insisted on coming with me. “I have my own message to everyone,” he said, his voice chillingly calm.

We got everyone sitting around before Pixis, Molbit, Berthold, Franz, and myself stood at the front. “We called you all here to discuss something very important,” Pixis said addressing everyone.

My heart broke a little when I saw Ymir, Christa, and Eren looking around realizing we were short a person. They were looking for Reiner. I made the mistake of making eye contact with Levi and my heart shattered the rest of the way. He knew. 

He stared into my eyes before closing his tightly and letting his head drop. I watched as he bit at his lip to stop himself from showing any emotion. His eyes opened back up and instantly looked at Eren who was still looking around the room. I watched as he wrapped his arms around him before letting his eyes close again. Eren looked so confused. I had to rip my eyes away to stop myself from breaking down.

“About an hour ago two people went out on a mission that they expected was a trap. They went to check it out anyway. They thought they were in the clear when they were ambushed. Only one person returned home.”

Instantly the room fell silent, the whispering stopped and everyone's eyes darted around the room as they looked for who was missing. The people who already realized let their heads fall. “Reiner was killed on the mission,” Pixis finished forcing the words out.

Most people let their eyes drop to the floor some looked up at Berthold but everyone was silent.

I felt like I had to speak up like I had to let them know the killers are dead, but I thought it was best not to bring it up and retraumatize Franz with the memory of him killing someone.

“I have a few things that I wanted to say,” Berthold said and all eyes were on him. “The people who killed Reiner are both dead.” Well, guess we don’t have much of a choice now since Berthold brought it up. “These people killed Reiner, they killed Ilsa. They have no problem killing any of us, so I’ve decided I have no problem killing any of them. Whether I’m alone in that fact even if I have to leave the group I’m sticking by that and anyone who is with me is welcome to join.” He said and before I could put a stop to any of this Pixis did it for me.

“Hey wait wait wait. No one is leaving the group. Let’s think rationally about this-.”

“I am. An eye for an eye. That’s about as rational as it gets.”

“An eye for an eye makes the whole world go blind,” Pixis said, putting his hand on Berthold’s shoulder. “I know you’re angry. I know you must want revenge. We all do, but-.”

“No buts. That’s it. I am angry and I want revenge.”

“That’s not going to make you happy. It’s not going to bring him back.” Pixis tried to tell him.

“I don’t care. This isn’t about bringing him back, this isn't’ about my happiness. This is about fighting. This is a war. Why should only one side suffer casualties?”

Pixis looked at me for help. Wrong move. I’m with Berthold on this one. I mean did he forget that I’m the one who killed first here. Berthold looked at me seeing where I stand seeing if I would side with him or with Pixis. All eyes were on the three of us. I knew I had to choose and I had to make my decision known to everyone in the room. 

“Sorry Pixis,” I said shaking my head and scooting closer to Berthold. “ I already have blood on my hands. I’m the one who killed first.”

Pixis looked around to see who else was thinking about agreeing with us. Franz came up and stood with us, “I mean I already killed someone even if it was on accident. Knowing that it was the man that killed Reiner I don’t even feel guilty about it.”

I looked around the room and saw as people slowly made their decision. Petra walked up to where Pixis stood. “Killing isn’t the answer. I know that it might seem like a good idea right now, but that’s just because we are letting our emotions decide things.”

It seemed like this had become a matter of majority rules whichever side had the most people would be the route we took. Because no matter how much we disagree we aren’t splitting up.

I watched as people went to either side stating their reasoning behind their choice. “I don’t want to become like the monsters we are fighting,” Hanna said joining Pixis’s side.

“I already have blood on my hands at least this time it would be for a good cause,” Annie said, stepping forward and putting her hand on Berthold’s shoulder letting him know she was with him.

“I don’t mind getting my hands dirty. I've done it before as well,” Rico said joining us.
Hitch and Marlowe both went to stand behind Pixis, “We’ve seen enough bloodshed adding to it isn’t going to make it better,” they both said.

So far we were pretty even and we had people still debating about it. I watched as Eren and jean both looked at each other and then nodded before walking up to our side. “I’ve had enough running. Watching Ilsa die while we weren’t able to do anything I won’t ever let that happen again.” Eren said before Jean started talking.

“I’m tired of watching my friends die and not doing anything about it,” Jean said, helping Eren stay up straight.
Thomas was about to walk over behind Pixis when Marco asked for some help. Thomas helped him over to Pixis’s side as he was careful with his leg.

“I don’t think I’m capable of killing another human,” Thomas said before looking at Marco for his reason.

“I don’t think I could if I wanted to. All life is special and I can’t justify ending one,” He said. I watched as Jean and Marco looked at each other from the opposing sides. Neither of them wanted to stand without the other but I knew neither of them were budging with their views.

Eld, Mike, and Auruo seemed to make up their mind as they all joined Pixis. All of their responses were the same as before. They didn’t think they could or they didn’t think it was the right choice of action.

We were outnumbered now and everyone else seemed to be on the fence. I watched as Hanji made up her mind and stood up. She looked at my side and I thought she was going to join us before she said, “My whole power is about healing, even though I’m angry right now and I don’t doubt that I could kill. I just don’t want to. I don’t want to become like them.” She walked over to Pixis and stood behind him with her head lowered. I could tell she was conflicted about her choice but I don’t think it was enough to make her budge. 

Sasha and Connie were the next to make their decisions. They both headed to Pixis’s side with their head lowered. “I don’t think I would have it in me to be able to.” They both said.

I thought we were finished until Ymir and Christa stood up. They walked over to our side and nodded. “It’s time we fight back. If that means we have to kill then so be it,” Christa said closing her eyes.

“If our freedom is worth dying for then it’s worth fighting for by any means,” Ymir said standing her ground.

I looked around and saw there weren’t many people left. There were still two that couldn’t vote Erwin and Mina would have to decide later on, but if more people go to Pixis’s side then they might not have to, we might be outnumbered anyway.

Armin stood up and I watched as he walked in between us making his last-minute decision before backing up and standing by Pixis. “I’m sorry, I see how both sides are right, but I just can’t bring myself to actually be able to take a life.”

Mikasa stood up and looked at both sides before silently walking over behind me. When everyone looked at her she just shrugged, “I’m not going to try and kill people but if it happens it happens I will do what I can to protect my friends.”

Nanaba and Hannes walked over to our side before standing next to Rico. “I will do what I have to to protect my friends,” Nanaba said before looking towards Rico and the rest of her group members, “to protect my family.”

“I’m not going to stand by while they are killing us, I want to do what I can even if it means killing,” Hannes said with an anxious nod.

We were down to the final three. Molbit, Ms. Magnolia, and Levi. 
For our side to have the most we would need all three of them to agree. And that’s without Erwin and Mina’s votes.

I watched as Molbit frantically looked between the two sides. He seemed just as unsure when he walked up. He walked to our side and let out a deep breath. “I owe this to Berthold to be on his side. It’s my intel that got Reiner killed.” He mumbled before lowering his head.

I looked at the last two. I wouldn’t blame them no matter what they chose but a part of me felt anxious about this whole thing. I mean we were voting against people's lives here. To kill or not to kill was a big deal and we were making everyone choose on the spot.

Ms. Magnolia let out a big sigh before walking over to our side. “I would be a hypocrite if I went to the other side because I know damn well if I see anyone get killed in front of me I would probably try and kill whoever did it.” She said before walking over to where Eren was and helping Jean hold him up.
We all looked at Levi who stayed sitting. He finally stood up, “and then there was one,” he said looking at both sides. “So far it seems my vote is the deciding factor until Mina and Erwin wake up,” he pointed out. He crossed his arms and let out a sigh.

“I never wanted anyone to die, I wanted to prevent people from dying for so long. I can’t even begin to describe how many nights I stayed awake blaming myself for deaths that weren’t actually my fault. However, if I go through with this then there will be actual blood on my hands. I will become the one thing I wanted to prevent the most.” he said looking at Pixis’s side. By how he was talking I was sure he was going to join him, but he continued on.

“However, on the other hand, I think that if it came down to either me watching someone else die or killing someone then I think,” he said walking over to our side, “I would rather have their blood on my hands than watch another damn person I care about die in front of me. Now I’m not saying I’m down to kill at random I and I’m sure most of us over here are only thinking about it as a worst-case scenario?” he asked.

I mean I can’t speak for anyone else, but I know when I killed that woman it wasn’t because I had to, it was because I wanted to. I wanted to make her pay for killing Reiner. Most people seemed to agree with Levi, but Berthold and I stayed quiet. We seemed to be out-matched with that one, but it seems until Erwin and Mina cast their votes our side had the majority even if it was by one vote.

“We will see what the other two have to say later, but no matter what it comes to we need to come to an agreement somewhere in the middle,” Pixis said before taking a deep breath, “that being said we don’t have to do that tonight, I know that it might be hard but please everyone try and get some rest.” he dismissed everyone knowing damn well that they weren’t going to be able to get any rest. None of us would tonight.