We woke up early for the mission and decided it would be best just to get ready and wait for everyone. At least that was the plan half of our time was spent getting ready. I kept trying to figure out how to help Eren with his braces but nothing was working. Not to mention Eren had a hard time getting all my knives into place.

"We really are a mess tonight aren't we," he laughed. I swear Eren tripped over his own pants like three times now as he tried to get his boots on. His laces were all tangled.

"What the fuck are you doing in here rearranging non-existent furniture?" Jean asked as he barged into the room.

"Jean you need to knock first," Marco said hesitantly following him into the room,

"Sorry did we wake you," Eren asked a little embarrassed.

"What the fuck do you think?"

"Sorry."

"So why are you making all the racket?"

I just shot Eren a look. I didn't want him to tell him because the last thing I need to hear right now is nagging us. He'll probably say something along the lines of, You can't even get dressed how the hell are you going to do the actual mission.

"We were just having trouble getting these knots out of my laces," Eren said realizing I didn't want him to say much else.

"That's the only reason?" Jean asked knowing we were full of shit.

"Well, that and I couldn't get my braces on and I tripped over the lace trying to pull them on," he laughed. I mean he's not lying that did happen.

"You guys are hopeless," Jean grumbled before grabbing the boot from Eren's hand and handing it to Marco. "You untangle I'll help him with his braces and then hopefully we can get back to bed without any more issues."

They got straight to work as I tracked down the rest of my knives. Normally I put them in specific places, but the last few days I haven't been since usually I do it with my power and it takes too much effort to put them all where they go individually especially knowing I have to grab them again in a few hours. However, I  swore I left them all right here, but I guess a few of them got moved.

Marco finished untangling Eren's shoelaces before walking over to me and keeping his voice low to make sure Jean didn't hear, "now what do you need help with?" he asked already knowing that I was struggling.

"I can't find some of my knives, and the ones I did find I can't get in their proper places because it requires me to use my bad arm," I whispered back.

"Here, hand them to me and tell me where they go," Marco said, helping me out. We managed to find and place all but one.

"Thanks for your help," I said giving up. "I'm sure it will turn up around here soon enough."

"You sure it's fine we haven't found it," Marco asked.

"I'm too worried about it I'm just worried someone might-"

"Fucking shit," Jean cursed, "I stepped on a fucking knife," he looked up glaring at me.

"Step on it," I finished my sentence even there was no point.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"I'm fine, just a little cut, just watch where you put those things," he rolled his eyes, handing me the knife. I handed it to Marco who put it in place.

"See Jean this is why you shouldn't walk around barefoot," Marco said pointing down at his own shoes. "Never know what's laying around," Marco whispered to me.

"Yeah yeah yeah shut the fuck up, Not everyone is prepared for everything Marco," he rolled his eyes. "Are you guys set now? Can we go back to our own room before I step on another knife or something else?"

"Yeah, thanks for the help," Eren said happily.

"Yeah whatever, just don't get killed tonight," Jean grumbled. Despite his dismissive tone, he was really worried. Not to mention how he was lying about going back to sleep. He was planning on staying up and making sure we return. Also that he wasn't sleeping to begin with he was laying wake worrying about how tonight would go. So was Marco.

Glad to know they have such little faith in us. I turned towards Eren after they left and sighed, "so much for our extra free time." I mumbled realizing everyone else was probably waking up right about now for the mission.

We Headed out into the common area. Surprisingly we were the first ones there. "Wow we beat even Pixis," Eren said looking around.

"Not by much," I said nodding towards the hallway where Pixis was just coming from.

"Oh good you two are already ready," he nodded.

"Still no plan though," Eren mumbled.

"No worries, I'm sure something will come to you when you get there." He patted Eren on the shoulder.

"And if something goes wrong just know backup is just a portal away."

That's very reassuring. Eren thought sarcastically. Not only does he not believe we can do it but he has people waiting for us to fail.

Of course, Eren would take it that way. Does he not realize they are always standing by even if we have a concrete plan? I just reached my hand out a little and grabbed him. When he turned to face me I gave him a little smile and pushed a calm loving feeling onto him.

"Thanks," he whispered.

It only took a few more minutes before everyone was here. It seemed we did have a bigger backup team than normal. Rather than just Pixis, Shadis, Hanji, and Nanaba who usually stand by all geared up this time we had Pixis, Shadis, Nanaba, Rico, Mikasa, Annie, and lastly Mom. Who I think was actually there to keep her promise that if something happened to me she would go in swinging.

As we were about to head out I even saw Jean and Marco standing in the hallway in their costumes. God does that many people have so little faith in us. I thought Eren was just being paranoid, but he had a point. They really don't think we can pull this off. Then why send us in at all?

At this rate, we might as well have been doing the raids tonight with how geared and ready they all were.

This doesn't help the bad feeling I was having. Maybe this mission isn't a good idea. Am I going to screw this up? If it's my fault this mission goes to hell I won't even be able to forgive myself.

"Ready?" Eren asked everyone.

No. No, I'm not ready. I'm doubting myself. I'm having second thoughts. I'm panicking. This is not going to end well, and it's all going to be my fault.

"Erwin opened the portal," he said and we all walked through. No turning back now. I could barely even take a deep breath but I tried my damndest to hold my emotions in. I can't let anyone else know I'm panicking. I can't blow the mission.