Everyone was slow about eating probably since none of us wanted to eat, to begin with. As much as I tried to control my power it was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. Last night it's almost like my power completely stopped working, but today it's been so much worse. I'm reading almost everyone's minds as my power keeps jumping from person to person sometimes multiple people at once. I can tell I'm not the only one struggling with emotionally based powers.

I could feel the weight on Eren's shoulders that his power was putting on him, and I could tell whenever Armin had a bad thought or feeling even without my powers focusing on him. He would drop his fork as it phased through his fingers or he would start going transparent for a quick second. Even Annie's powers were acting up. She kept one hand under the table since it had fully crystallized after clenching her fist so tightly it broke the skin.

I took a deep breath before my powers snapped to a different person. I feel bad that I'm not as affected about this as everyone else. Like sure I'm sad and upset about Ilsa's death but I feel like I should be more upset. Maybe it's because I didn't know her very well. I mean I've never even met her before, but a part of me still wishes I was more tor up about her death because it is sad. I just wish I got to know her better.

I looked up at a nearby table and realized it was Hanna's thought I was hearing. My power snapped to Franz and Mina who were at the table with her and their thoughts were pretty much the same. That's right they never even met Ilsa since she was in the upper classes while they were still in the high school classes.

I felt my thoughts snap to a different person and instantly I was flooded with happy memories of Ilsa. It took me a moment to realize it was Chrisra's thoughts I was reading. I took a deep breath and tried to pull my powers back in to focus on Eren. They ended up focusing on Jean for some reason. Stupid powers. I tried to focus on Eren but they wouldn't budge.

Jean's thoughts were pretty empty at first, mostly he was just paying attention to what was happening in the room until I saw his thoughts go to an image of Ilsa laying dead on the floor. It was only there for a second before he forced it away taking a deep breath. He looked over at Eren and nudged him.

"We need to get Hanji to look at your hand," he whispered to him, "and I don't care what you say we are getting it fixed." Eren just shook his head and before he could protest I heard Jean's words echo through my head. "Don't make me tell Levi. I don't think he's noticed yet."

His hand? What happened to his hand. I tried to think back to last night to remember but I was so out of touch with reality I can barely remember talking to mom but everything else is just a giant blur. I hadn't noticed anything wrong with it but now that they mention it he has been heaping his hand out of my sight all day. Even now he's using the wrong hand to hold his fork while his dominant hand is hiding under the table.

I stayed focused on Jean's thoughts and saw exactly what I missed last night. As I was blacked out of my mind from shock Eren punched the wall. I never even noticed. I'm the shittiest boyfriend ever.

"Please don't," Eren whispered back to Jean. Finally, my powers snapped to Eren's thoughts.

Levi doesn't need the extra stress he's barely holding it together himself the last thing I need is him to worry about me. I mean as it is he's trying to take care of everyone I don't want to add any more to his plate. Eren turned his head to look at me and we locked eyes before I could avert my eyes.

His mouth opened and then closed again before I heard his thoughts ask me, how long have you been reading my thoughts.

"Long enough," I mumbled back. I stood up and walked back over to sit next to Eren who had lowered his eyes staring at the floor.

I didn't bother bringing up anything he had thought about. Now isn't the time for that not in front of everyone. "We really should get your hand checked out." Eren just gave me a silent nod.

"Oh so you agree to him without a fight," Jean mumbled under his breath.

"Because he loves me," I said wrapping my arms around Eren and placing a kiss on his cheek.

"Oh and he doesn't love me," Jean said pretending to get offended.

"Nope," Eren said back looking him dead in the eyes.

Jean let out a dramatic gasp, "how dare you," he said placing a hand on his chest.

"It's okay because I love you," Marco said giving Jean a kiss on the cheek.

"It's not the same," Jean said dramatically before whispering to Marco, "it's so much better but I want to keep this going for a little bit it's lightening the mood."

He's right it was lightening the mood. Even Mikasa had tuned into reality to watch Jean's dramatic ass put on a show. I even saw a small smile on Sasha's face.

Well if it's making everyone feel better maybe I can join in and help. I thought before looking at Jean, "if I tell you I love you will you take a chill pill."

"No because you don't mean it," Jean said dramatically.

"But I do," I said and he looked me in the eyes.

"Really?"

"Yes I really love you," I said before cracking a smile," not a lot though."

Jean opened his mouth really wide in shock, "I knew it. I'm so unloved," Jean said, putting a dramatic hand to his forehead.

"Fine," Eren rolled his eyes before leaning over and placing a kiss on Jean's cheek, "I love you you dumbass," he said playfully.

Jean tried to hold back his laughter neither of us were expecting Eren to actually play along. We heard a few others snicker too.

"Finally someone who actually loves me," Jean said dramatically hugging Eren who just rolled his eyes.

"You guys are so gay," Rico laughed, "it's great," she said after realizing she said it out loud.

After everyone finished eating they all went to their own rooms while Eren and I went to Hanji's so she could fix his hand. When we showed her why we were there I could tell she wanted to lecture Eren that he shouldn't punch walls, but she stayed quiet. She knew we were all struggling with Ilsa's death. There were bound to be a few outbursts whether it's rage or violence grieve looks different for everyone.

After Hanji healed his broken hand we headed back to our room in an awkward silence. When we made it inside our room Eren finally spoke up. "I really don't want you to worry about me. You have enough on your plate and the last thing you need is to focus on me. I mean I know you want to worry about me but you need to focus on yourself right now. I know neither of us are taking it well and yeah we can help each other out but I don't want either of us to ignore our own feelings. Okay?"

"That's fair," I nodded before sitting down on the bed and waiting for him to come over and sit next to me. He leaned his head on my shoulder and took a deep breath.

"Today wasn't as bad as I thought it would be," he mumbled.

"Jean's mostly to thank for that," I said, wrapping my arms around him.

"Yeah, it's funny he likes to say he's not good at emotions but he's really good at bringing out the positive emotions in people, well, when he wants to."

We stayed there in a comfortable silence just sitting there until I finally said, "I love you. I can't wait for the day that I can make you my husband."

Eren just gave me a big smile before whispering "Me either."

As the days turned to weeks everyone was able to process their grief better. Everyone seemed to be back to a better state of mind. A few of them were still struggling a little but for the most part, everyone was able to bring themselves back from there grief. Some of them were desperate for another mission. Using their grief as a reminder of why we fight. They don't want anyone else to die like Ilsa. Instead, they want to go out and save more people and bring them home safely.

"After watching them and evaluating I think it's time to tell them that we know where some of the camps are," I said to Nanaba and Shadis.

"Do you think it's been long enough that the camps have started to let their guards down?" Nanaba asked.

"It's been a little over three weeks now. They probably will assume that if we haven't attacked by now that we aren't going to attack at all. They probably think that we didn't get the information about the other camps."

"I'm not sure about this Pixis. Do you really think they're ready? I mean knowing some of them they will be even more reckless," Shadis said.

"I'm well aware and I will keep an eye out for any reckless behavior, but as for now I think everything will be fine," I reassured him.

"Any other concerns?" I asked and they both seemed okay with it. "So it's settled then? We will call a family meeting and tell them in the morning," I told both of them and they both nodded.